Hernan
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My BSSO date is known since today an hour ago, unless suddenly someone decides to quit their planned surgery and call it off so i can get it in fucking december,
a disgustingly long waiting time after already being moved up 5 months,
my surgery will be in april.
All i wanted was to be loved in my life, even before blackpill (self) awareness kicked in. Ofcourse i understand that in order to get the sweetest taste of the most beautiful thing ever true love you need to be as good looking as you can be, which i literally can not. My parents ofcourse, as per usually themselves, dont support me in any time or way. Nobody does since i dont have fucking decent friends and no-one to love me.
I might aswell become a satanist by now. @PrinceLuenLeoncur
I have never done as much evil in my life to deserve having the only thing i care about in my nearby future be taken from me like this.
This is fucking bullshit and injustice and a real god doesnt handle like that. Obviously i'm not gonna worship satan but the moment i die me and that fucker god are gonna have a real good talk for all his crimes against me.
I just tried to cut myself in my arm but even after sharpening the knife i couldnt get it deep enough for enough blood to come out because i'm a pathetic piece of shit and a little bitch. I'll try again later though i dont give anything about myself.
This is so fucking unfair. Jews and niggers, muslims etc. can rape women and kill innocent people and pdfrape children whoever the fuck they want with no real consequences but I, someone innocent of all those crimes have to go through this. Waiting for my surgery was the only reason i didnt kill myself last year btw.
I plead guilty on being a sinner, but no amount of sins i commited of nearly overall harmlessness deserves this graveness of abandonment.
Jesus fucking Christ might aswell crucify me now. I prayed before the meeting, that He had to please atleast show me a sign He hasn't given up on me and give me the surgery early at the latest november. And this is His answer. I fucking hate everything and everyone so much. I'm guessing my mental diseases will gravely worsen as a consequence and only continue to do so. Thank you oh so just and loving god for even more mental pain and issues.
@noreedemingfeature oh thats right this fucking asshole deleted his account, when you read this after following the discord link, i want you to do the crypto stuff by yourself for a while i just really cant mentally handle anything right now. @PsychoDsk you better fucking read this, i'll give you his discord and i want you to kick me out of your group and put him in, so i hope to everything you motherfucking read this. I'll send it in a pm here so please just fucking open it and do as i ask.
Now i solemly swear hereby that if I dont get my surgery before 2026 and i dont have a girlfriend i want to spend the rest of my life with before 2026 i'm killing myself. There's really nothing out there i cant miss and the wait time is too long, it already was but my limit has been pushed. Pre2026 or death, i'm not joking.
So much for the good and gracious all loving god.
I've officially given up and am planning where i best kill myself and how as time goes by until december.
Dont tag me in anything, dont tag me if you want someone reported file it in yourself if its in the looksmax section.
I need a break, for now i'll just do approvals and occasional LM observing and ignore any alerts.
Same goes for social media: instagram, tiktok, snapchat and eventually discord when that shit with NRF and Dsk is rounded up.
I felt like making this thread to vent and not be seen as ignoring people out of the blue.
a disgustingly long waiting time after already being moved up 5 months,
my surgery will be in april.
All i wanted was to be loved in my life, even before blackpill (self) awareness kicked in. Ofcourse i understand that in order to get the sweetest taste of the most beautiful thing ever true love you need to be as good looking as you can be, which i literally can not. My parents ofcourse, as per usually themselves, dont support me in any time or way. Nobody does since i dont have fucking decent friends and no-one to love me.
I might aswell become a satanist by now. @PrinceLuenLeoncur
I have never done as much evil in my life to deserve having the only thing i care about in my nearby future be taken from me like this.
This is fucking bullshit and injustice and a real god doesnt handle like that. Obviously i'm not gonna worship satan but the moment i die me and that fucker god are gonna have a real good talk for all his crimes against me.
I just tried to cut myself in my arm but even after sharpening the knife i couldnt get it deep enough for enough blood to come out because i'm a pathetic piece of shit and a little bitch. I'll try again later though i dont give anything about myself.
This is so fucking unfair. Jews and niggers, muslims etc. can rape women and kill innocent people and pdfrape children whoever the fuck they want with no real consequences but I, someone innocent of all those crimes have to go through this. Waiting for my surgery was the only reason i didnt kill myself last year btw.
I plead guilty on being a sinner, but no amount of sins i commited of nearly overall harmlessness deserves this graveness of abandonment.
Jesus fucking Christ might aswell crucify me now. I prayed before the meeting, that He had to please atleast show me a sign He hasn't given up on me and give me the surgery early at the latest november. And this is His answer. I fucking hate everything and everyone so much. I'm guessing my mental diseases will gravely worsen as a consequence and only continue to do so. Thank you oh so just and loving god for even more mental pain and issues.
@noreedemingfeature oh thats right this fucking asshole deleted his account, when you read this after following the discord link, i want you to do the crypto stuff by yourself for a while i just really cant mentally handle anything right now. @PsychoDsk you better fucking read this, i'll give you his discord and i want you to kick me out of your group and put him in, so i hope to everything you motherfucking read this. I'll send it in a pm here so please just fucking open it and do as i ask.
Now i solemly swear hereby that if I dont get my surgery before 2026 and i dont have a girlfriend i want to spend the rest of my life with before 2026 i'm killing myself. There's really nothing out there i cant miss and the wait time is too long, it already was but my limit has been pushed. Pre2026 or death, i'm not joking.
So much for the good and gracious all loving god.
I've officially given up and am planning where i best kill myself and how as time goes by until december.
Dont tag me in anything, dont tag me if you want someone reported file it in yourself if its in the looksmax section.
I need a break, for now i'll just do approvals and occasional LM observing and ignore any alerts.
Same goes for social media: instagram, tiktok, snapchat and eventually discord when that shit with NRF and Dsk is rounded up.
I felt like making this thread to vent and not be seen as ignoring people out of the blue.
