I had a happy childhood

[Lonenely sigma]

I won't be corny or overly emotional but man do I miss my childhood.


At the time, my parents and I lived in a house which was in the same yard as the house my grandparents lived in.


Imagine a big yard in the middle of the city. I spent all my time there.


We moved a while ago to a completely different part of the city. My grandpa died 8 years ago, the house I grew up in is abandoned. My childhood dog died many years ago.


The only person left is my grandma who I visit regularly. But that yard fills me with very deep sadness and nostalgia

 

[Vermilioncore]

That’s why you should always savor the moment. Years later, you’ll miss it.

 

[Mess]

I'm still in my childhood

 

[Lonenely sigma]

That’s why you should always savor the moment. Years later, you’ll miss it.

Nothing to cherish these days though.

Its not like I was depressed as a kid and now my perspective changed. No. I was happy and I miss those days

 

[ey88]

Same bro

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Same bro

I have to go there tomorrow morning to rake the leaves. At least my grandma won't have to pay someone.


3 hours of unpaid labour incoming

 

[Saint Casanova]

My childhood and teen hood was extremely good. I was happy everyday making new memories.

I took it for granted and I need to pay my dues now.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

My childhood and teen hood was extremely good. I was happy everyday making new memories.

I took it for granted and I need to pay my dues now.

How old are you if I may ask?

I am 19 and yeah even my teenhood sucked big time. My life literally ended at 13, if not before that

 

[Saint Casanova]

How old are you if I may ask?

I am 19 and yeah even my teenhood sucked big time. My life literally ended at 13, if not before that

I’m 19, turning 20 and I’d say things for me got fucked after 2022 tbh

 

[Lonenely sigma]

I’m 19, turning 20 and I’d say things for me got fucked after 2022 tbh

I had a brief positive period between may and september 2022.


I was on my "grind" back then. Those were the good days as well ig.


But since then I haven't felt happy for a minute, except when I was drunk

 

[GigaRetard]

It’s only gonna get worse, man.

The days of being a care-free and innocent child become more & more distant with each passing day.

 

[IncelJihadist]

I won't be corny or overly emotional but man do I miss my childhood.


At the time, my parents and I lived in a house which was in the same yard as the house my grandparents lived in.


Imagine a big yard in the middle of the city. I spent all my time there.


We moved a while ago to a completely different part of the city. My grandpa died 8 years ago, the house I grew up in is abandoned. My childhood dog died many years ago.


The only person left is my grandma who I visit regularly. But that yard fills me with very deep sadness and nostalgia

Same

 

[Lonenely sigma]

It’s only gonna get worse, man.

The days of being a care-free and innocent child become more & more distant with each passing day.

If only I had a cute, 6'8 girlfriend with an anime V-shaped face and huge boobs to cuddle with me, kiss me and tell me everything is gonna be just fine.


Maybe this life wouldn't be so dark

 

[Lonenely sigma]

It’s only gonna get worse, man.

The days of being a care-free and innocent child become more & more distant with each passing day.

If only I had a cute, 6'8 girlfriend with an anime V-shaped face and huge boobs to cuddle with me, kiss me and tell me everything is gonna be just fine.


Maybe this life wouldn't be so dark

Idk why I said this bro.

Ignore it. Imma go sleep now

 

[GigaRetard]

Idk why I said this bro.

Ignore it. Imma go sleep now

It’s okay bro I’m not judging you.

 

[Saint Casanova]

I had a brief positive period between may and september 2022.


I was on my "grind" back then. Those were the good days as well ig.


But since then I haven't felt happy for a minute, except when I was drunk

I can’t even sleep well anymore. I keep having dreams of the happy periods of my life. Then I wake up and it’s over. Some of it is my fault tbh, I made some harsh choices and wasn’t a good person. Some of it was other peoples fault by betraying me. Some of it was changes in brain chemistry.

It is what it is at the end of the day. I’ve nearly accepted it.

 

[IncelJihadist]

If only I had a cute, 6'8 girlfriend with an anime V-shaped face and huge boobs to cuddle with me, kiss me and tell me everything is gonna be just fine.


Maybe this life wouldn't be so dark

I want a foid that whispers to me in my ear every night i sleep with her " i love you "
But that's just too much to ask for nowadays

 

[Lonenely sigma]

I can’t even sleep well anymore. I keep having dreams of the happy periods of my life. Then I wake up and it’s over. Some of it is my fault tbh, I made some harsh choices and wasn’t a good person. Some of it was other peoples fault by betraying me. Some of it was changes in brain chemistry.

It is what it is at the end of the day. I’ve nearly accepted it.

Hey I mean if it means anything to you I feel exactly the same.


Complete detachment from anything. I can't care less about anything. I feel nothing but sadness. The only "burst of happiness" I get daily is from thoughts of ascending through surgeries.


Then again, I can't get up from my bad, I will never earn the money at this rate

 

[notalive]

Then again, I can't get up from my bad, I will never earn the money at this rate

Try to figure out a decent-paying job that lets you work alone. Programming is the best one imo, you're working alone most of the time and can be a code monkey, even work from home. But there's other ones like truck driver, delivery man, that you can do while trying to get a programming certification. Nothing's going to happen overnight.

 

[Saint Casanova]

Hey I mean if it means anything to you I feel exactly the same.


Complete detachment from anything. I can't care less about anything. I feel nothing but sadness. The only "burst of happiness" I get daily is from thoughts of ascending through surgeries.


Then again, I can't get up from my bad, I will never earn the money at this rate

For me, I had a loving gf for a while, and that was nice but things were still crumbling. The relationship broke off and I couldn’t even be bothered anymore. I think about improving lots of things, and I have the capabilities to do so, but I don’t think the effort is worth it tbh. I just keep thinking about going back in the past.

I understand now why people say life ends before 20. There also seeks to be a shift in brain chemistry. At least that’s what happened to me.

 

[Saint Casanova]

For me, I had a loving gf for a while, and that was nice but things were still crumbling. The relationship broke off and I couldn’t even be bothered anymore. I think about improving lots of things, and I have the capabilities to do so, but I don’t think the effort is worth it tbh. I just keep thinking about going back in the past.

I understand now why people say life ends before 20. There also seeks to be a shift in brain chemistry. At least that’s what happened to me.

Hope all goes well for you though.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Try to figure out a decent-paying job that lets you work alone. Programming is the best one imo, you're working alone most of the time and can be a code monkey, even work from home. But there's other ones like truck driver, delivery man, that you can do while trying to get a programming certification. Nothing's going to happen overnight.

I live in eastern europe though. All those things you named take way too much time and I probably can't save up like 55k euros in my 20s for plastic surgeries.

If I fail in my 20s I will call it a day.

 

[notalive]

I live in eastern europe though. All those things you named take way too much time and I probably can't save up like 55k euros in my 20s for plastic surgeries.

If I fail in my 20s I will call it a day.

Ah I see. Try to make as much money you can however you can over there, so that you have options later. Good luck my friend.

 

[Esteban1997]

My Life literally ended at 13