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Nigga_slayer
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Everything started back in 2022. I was just a normal guy like everyone else. I knew about looks, but I never really cared much. In my head, money was the only thing that mattered. I never took appearance seriously I always thought, “When I grow up, I’ll earn money and that’s enough.”
But then everything changed in 2022. That year, looksmaxxing videos started blowing up everywhere. I began watching them just out of curiosity, but later I got deeper into it. I learned about mewing and other “softmaxxing” stuff. Back then, I honestly believed those things could actually transform someone’s face.
I used to see those “before and after” transformations and thought they were natural. I imagined I could have a similar transformation too. Even though I didn’t take it that seriously in the beginning, things started to change as I got older.
I came to know about “pretty privilege.” I noticed how people who didn’t even care about looks still mocked others for their appearance. They would praise attractive people and make fun of the unattractive ones. Girls gave attention to the good-looking guys. People often cope by saying “money matters,” but in reality, I’ve seen that real happiness often comes from looks.
I’ve personally faced the negative side of this. My confidence stayed low. Sometimes people made jokes about me even though I looked decent. Whenever I took pictures, I felt insecure. I realized all of that was because of how I looked. I used to think mewing or bonesmashing could fix it, but no — it would take serious hardmaxxing to make any difference.
Now I sometimes think about saving $50,000–$60,000 for surgery by the age of 23–24. But then reality hits — I live in a third-world country, and it’s almost impossible. Still, it’s my dream. I just want to ascend once, to at least reach HTN-CL level, just to experience how it feels when people give you attention, compliments, no rejection, and treat you better just because of your looks.
Honestly though, I know it sounds like an incel mindset and i overthinks about looks way too much. Like ik there are other thing in life but still man
But now I’ve realized something I’ll probably have to live as an MTN forever, because I won’t ever be able to save enough for hardmaxxing. And even if I did, there’s no guarantee it would work. Still, at least I’d feel satisfied knowing I tried everything I could, that I reached my genetic potential.
What really hurts is that I might never even get the chance to try that’s the part that breaks me the most.
So tell me, what should I do?
I can’t ascend.
I can’t save $50k.
And I can’t stop thinking about looks either.
How do I escape this blackpill mindset and go back to who I was before 2022? Somebody help me
But then everything changed in 2022. That year, looksmaxxing videos started blowing up everywhere. I began watching them just out of curiosity, but later I got deeper into it. I learned about mewing and other “softmaxxing” stuff. Back then, I honestly believed those things could actually transform someone’s face.
I used to see those “before and after” transformations and thought they were natural. I imagined I could have a similar transformation too. Even though I didn’t take it that seriously in the beginning, things started to change as I got older.
I came to know about “pretty privilege.” I noticed how people who didn’t even care about looks still mocked others for their appearance. They would praise attractive people and make fun of the unattractive ones. Girls gave attention to the good-looking guys. People often cope by saying “money matters,” but in reality, I’ve seen that real happiness often comes from looks.
I’ve personally faced the negative side of this. My confidence stayed low. Sometimes people made jokes about me even though I looked decent. Whenever I took pictures, I felt insecure. I realized all of that was because of how I looked. I used to think mewing or bonesmashing could fix it, but no — it would take serious hardmaxxing to make any difference.
Now I sometimes think about saving $50,000–$60,000 for surgery by the age of 23–24. But then reality hits — I live in a third-world country, and it’s almost impossible. Still, it’s my dream. I just want to ascend once, to at least reach HTN-CL level, just to experience how it feels when people give you attention, compliments, no rejection, and treat you better just because of your looks.
Honestly though, I know it sounds like an incel mindset and i overthinks about looks way too much. Like ik there are other thing in life but still man
But now I’ve realized something I’ll probably have to live as an MTN forever, because I won’t ever be able to save enough for hardmaxxing. And even if I did, there’s no guarantee it would work. Still, at least I’d feel satisfied knowing I tried everything I could, that I reached my genetic potential.
What really hurts is that I might never even get the chance to try that’s the part that breaks me the most.
So tell me, what should I do?
I can’t ascend.
I can’t save $50k.
And I can’t stop thinking about looks either.
How do I escape this blackpill mindset and go back to who I was before 2022? Somebody help me
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