I hate having Aspergers. Walked out of a party angry

[pprimus43]

One of my Changlite friends invited me to a party w like 25 girls (ranging from MTB to HTB). I was too nervous and awkward to make any conversation and walked out after 15 minutes enraged. I hate my life.

 

[pprimus43]

Bump

 

[aber]

This is so real

Maybe I am an aspie

 

[pprimus43]

This is so real

Maybe I am an aspie

They all ignored me. I was awkwardly staring at them trying to figure out what to do and only 1 girl, a LTB introduced herself to me. I didn't feel like talking and was starting to get really angry so I left

 

[Mess]

Drink until the autism goes away

 

[pprimus43]

Drink until the autism goes away

There wasn't enough. Also if I drink to the point of lowinhib I get a nasty hangover

 

[aber]

They all ignored me. I was awkwardly staring at them trying to figure out what to do and only 1 girl, a LTB introduced herself to me. I didn't feel like talking and was starting to get really angry so I left

I’d be pissed off too if an LTB approached me. Those women are about all I get.

 

[Mess]

There wasn't enough. Also if I drink to the point of lowinhib I get a nasty hangover

I remember seeing some tablets you take before drinking and the next morning the hangover isn't too bad

 

[pprimus43]

I’d be pissed off too if an LTB approached me. Those women are about all I get.

I introduced myself and quickly left her, trying to find a pretty girl. The ones I found attractive I was scared to talk to

 

[noodlelover]

One of my Changlite friends invited me to a party w like 25 girls (ranging from MTB to HTB). I was too nervous and awkward to make any conversation and walked out after 15 minutes enraged. I hate my life.

Reminds me another young college aged boy who went to a party with many guys and girls.

He also struggled socially and walked out angrily without talking to any one.

His name Elliot Rodgers.

 

[pprimus43]

Reminds me another young college aged boy who went to a party with many guys and girls.

He also struggled socially and walked out angrily without talking to any one.

His name Eliot Rodgers.

He has a very pretty name. What happened to him?

 

[pprimus43]

Noodlelover can you answer

 

[aber]

I introduced myself and quickly left her, trying to find a pretty girl. The ones I found attractive I was scared to talk to

Story of my life.

 

[pprimus43]

Story of my life.

My life is getting increasingly twisted. Things don't make sense.

 

[aber]

My life is getting increasingly twisted. Things don't make sense.

I just trace it back to my facial imperfections to be honest

 

[pprimus43]

I just trace it back to my facial imperfections to be honest

I can partially trace it to looks, I am only low MTN. But I've been getting a date with a mtb every two weeks or so off Hinge so I know it can't be ALL looks. I just fail on the dates because I'm scared to touch them in any way or do anything that's not platonic.

 

[aber]

I can partially trace it to looks, I am only low MTN. But I've been getting a date with a mtb every two weeks or so off Hinge so I know it can't be ALL looks. I just fail on the dates because I'm scared to touch them in any way or do anything that's not platonic.

Yeah same idk how id ever advance on a girl.
Even if I was chad this would stilll be an issue (much less so but still an issue)

 

[noodlelover]

He has a very pretty name. What happened to him?

I used to think he didn't try hard enough and then went E.R.

But the older and more black pilled I get, the more I wonder how many opportunities he really had, and how many would have ended as dead ends.

Like for example, had tried to use his father to get into acting, would he have been able to make a career out of that? Or more likely was he too neurologically behind to catch up and he would have failed to get any acting gig.

Could he have location maxed some how? Or would he not have been able to find a local job to get a visa to location max. And even if he did, he's still short and half asian, and socially behind, so would that have helped him at all?

I go back and forth in my thinking, about what is really possible for people. Perhaps there are hidden secret solutions to be found. That reality can be "hacked" with a better understanding of physics.

But perhaps this is a naive and simplistic interpretation. That most things that look like opportunities or "hacks" are in fact dead ends in reality. That you're either born with the resources to win (looks/money/power/connections/ideas), or you can slowly get those things but even if you do, you'll be too far behind in life to ever be competitive.

 

[pprimus43]

Yeah same idk how id ever advance on a girl.
Even if I was chad this would stilll be an issue (much less so but still an issue)

This is in fact the hard problem for me. This is the fundamental issue. Whether you can advance or not is determined by her attraction. Attraction is something that is difficult for me to discern.

 

[pprimus43]

I used to think he didn't try hard enough and then went E.R.

But the older and more black pilled I get, the more I wonder how many opportunities he really had, and how many would have ended as dead ends.

Like for example, had tried to use his father to get into acting, would he have been able to make a career out of that? Or more likely was he too neurologically behind to catch up and he would have failed to get any acting gig.

Could he have location maxed some how? Or would he not have been able to find a local job to get a visa to location max. And even if he did, he's still short and half asian, and socially behind, so would that have helped him at all?

I go back and forth in my thinking, about what is really possible for people. Perhaps there are hidden secret solutions to be found. That reality can be "hacked" with a better understanding of physics.

But perhaps this is a naive and simplistic interpretation. That most things that look like opportunities or "hacks" are in fact dead ends in reality. That you're either born with the resources to win (looks/money/power/connections/ideas), or you can slowly get those things but even if you do, you'll be too far behind in life to ever be competitive.

If he didn't go ER my guess is that he would have probably either committed suicide around 25 or find a ltb girlfriend through sheer time. He was High MTN in looks but Aspie

 

[looksmaxxed]

i love not giving a shit and never trying. i will just mumble things like adenoid facies, auto focus party, penile carbuncle to myself while everyone else is having conversations about movies, sports, what they're planning, etc

 

[aber]

This is in fact the hard problem for me. This is the fundamental issue. Whether you can advance or not is determined by her attraction. Attraction is something that is difficult for me to discern.

Tbh for me I feel like I’d be able to tell if she’s attracted but not much after that. Granted once she’s attracted you can get away with a lot more low inhib shit.

 

[pprimus43]

Tbh for me I feel like I’d be able to tell if she’s attracted but not much after that. Granted once she’s attracted you can get away with a lot more low inhib shit.

It's foundational issues like these that make me want to escortmaxx ngl. I want the experience so bad

 

[Klasik616]

Lol this happened to me 2 years ago
I was staring at nothing
Girls noticed it and I ran out as soon as possible
It was actually the 5th or 6th time I flumbled hard in a party

 

[humanoidsub7]

Good luck, I'm completely horrible and deformed and I get nothing. Kill me. Hahahahaha.

 

[pprimus43]

Lol this happened to me 2 years ago
I was staring at nothing
Girls noticed it and I ran out as soon as possible

Girls were given me weird faces. I made a horrific impression on them already. I am filled with hate.

 

[aber]

It's foundational issues like these that make me want to escortmaxx ngl. I want the experience so bad

Escort whores gross me out too much to fuck Ngl.

 

[pprimus43]

Escort whores gross me out too much to fuck Ngl.

Yeah its disgusting but the pain of being KHV feels even worse. Its picking your poison. Or I win the race against time and get something. Honestly next on the list is Phenibut.

 

[aber]

Yeah its disgusting but the pain of being KHV feels even worse. Its picking your poison. Or I win the race against time and get something. Honestly next on the list is Phenibut.

Losing my V card becomes less and less of a priority for me Ngl, being KHV is rough but fukkit why try and fix it if I know my looks are going to be a giga cockblock?

 

[yoshisand]

One of my Changlite friends invited me to a party w like 25 girls (ranging from MTB to HTB). I was too nervous and awkward to make any conversation and walked out after 15 minutes enraged. I hate my life.

There is not a disease called ass burgers