I hate my face.

[awok]

I hate my face so much it sickens me but I still stop and stare in every mirror I see, the way I stare back at myself and look exactly like I did 5 years ago makes me violently ill. I wish there was a cure for deep insecurity, but no matter what happens, if I ascend, if I end up getting botched, If I rope, even if I leave the Internet and try to ntmax ill still be the same insecure nine year old boy crying alone at night while thinking about why my life is the way it is. Rant over. Life over. Its so fucking over.

 

[Painful Cycle]

I know this is hard but, unironically stop looking at mirrors and obsessing over your looks

 

[awok]

I know this is hard but, unironically stop looking at mirrors and obsessing over your looks

Nigga how

 

[Painful Cycle]

Nigga how

try to understand that there are parts of your looks that aren't changable, and try to focus on the parts that you can change.

 

[awok]

try to understand that there are parts of your looks that aren't changable, and try to focus on the parts that you can change.

Easy for you to say.

 

[Painful Cycle]

Easy for you to say.

you don't even know me

 

[awok]

you don't even know me

No, but I know that your 100% better looking than me, and your trying to preach to the choir rn, no amount of mental gymnastics will EVER fix me.

 

[Painful Cycle]

No, but I know that your 100% better looking than me, and your trying to preach to the choir rn, no amount of mental gymnastics will EVER fix me.

then just kys

 

[rawr]

then just kys

 

[awok]

then just kys

Thought abt it alot and im just guilt tripping myself into staying cause of my family

 

[Painful Cycle]

Thought abt it alot and im just guilt tripping myself into staying cause of my family

In the end it's your life, and seems like you don't want to live so do as you feel

 

[awok]

In the end it's your life, and seems like you don't want to live so do as you feel

I will eventually, but at 14 seems like a bit of an over reaction, hoping things get better b4 my 18th otherwise that might be my only realistic option

 

[Painful Cycle]

I will eventually, but at 14 seems like a bit of an over reaction, hoping things get better b4 my 18th otherwise that might be my only realistic option

nigga you shouldv'e clarified you're 14, stupid fuck you were in your dads sack two days ago.

I thought you were a depressed 30 year old

 

[awok]

I dont see how my age relates to my life struggles, but alright then.

 

[osk422]

I hate my face so much it sickens me but I still stop and stare in every mirror I see, the way I stare back at myself and look exactly like I did 5 years ago makes me violently ill. I wish there was a cure for deep insecurity, but no matter what happens, if I ascend, if I end up getting botched, If I rope, even if I leave the Internet and try to ntmax ill still be the same insecure nine year old boy crying alone at night while thinking about why my life is the way it is. Rant over. Life over. Its so fucking over.

its really trivial, the sooner you accept the fact that you will always have imperfections the quicker you will feel better about yourself. go outside and just spend some time admiring nature or sum

 

[awok]

its really trivial, the sooner you accept the fact that you will always have imperfections the quicker you will feel better about yourself. go outside and just spend some time admiring nature or sum

The thing is I do that, like I say no amount of anything will fix me, atleast not at the moment.

Time maybe? But thats another issue, I cant wait, and it cant come quickly enough, but then again all I do is sit around and wait, for what I dont know, but I still do it regardless.

 

[osk422]

The thing is I do that, like I say no amount of anything will fix me, atleast not at the moment.

Time maybe? But thats another issue, I cant wait, and it cant come quickly enough, but then again all I do is sit around and wait, for what I dont know, but I still do it regardless.

if you are really "unfixable" then why obsess over it anymore? i still have the same mentality but thinking ab it really just shows how simple it can be

 

[awok]

if you are really "unfixable" then why obsess over it anymore? i still have the same mentality but thinking ab it really just shows how simple it can be

Because what else am I meant to do, go out side and publicly humiliate myself???? Im a fucking freak show. This is all i am, all I can be, but ill still complain about it every day until eventually I end up killing myself or someone else.