TheVoidInside
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thats why i constantly feel like i dont exist, like a ghost. even though i am relatively famous its completely vapid.
i had a chance to gain substance but i was too stupid to realize it back then. it would have been an uphill battle but i didnt have the balls to do it. i wanted the easy way out.
chickening out at that point costed me a lot. now im just aimlessly wandering, i know i will never get laid and i dont mind because i deserve it.
I was never gonna be a slayer or anything and she knew it. when i told her i had quit my band she said "You did the right thing. You should focus on your career. Why dont you start working as a tutor like i am?"
And she sounded rly harsh at the time but over time i realized that she was trying to protect me from aimlesly beating the air for the rest of my life like im doing now.
I used to hate the fact that im stuck in two hypercompetitive rat races but the sad truth is that there was 1 person that tried to pull me away from this shit and i didnt listen to her warning. "It will eat you up from the inside" she told me because she could see herself in my shoes.
It was a chance. maybe not a chance to get laid but it was a chance to be happy. now im just torturing myself.
i had a chance to gain substance but i was too stupid to realize it back then. it would have been an uphill battle but i didnt have the balls to do it. i wanted the easy way out.
chickening out at that point costed me a lot. now im just aimlessly wandering, i know i will never get laid and i dont mind because i deserve it.
I was never gonna be a slayer or anything and she knew it. when i told her i had quit my band she said "You did the right thing. You should focus on your career. Why dont you start working as a tutor like i am?"
And she sounded rly harsh at the time but over time i realized that she was trying to protect me from aimlesly beating the air for the rest of my life like im doing now.
I used to hate the fact that im stuck in two hypercompetitive rat races but the sad truth is that there was 1 person that tried to pull me away from this shit and i didnt listen to her warning. "It will eat you up from the inside" she told me because she could see herself in my shoes.
It was a chance. maybe not a chance to get laid but it was a chance to be happy. now im just torturing myself.
