i have nowhere else to talk abpt thos

[errant]

i dont have anyone to talk tto about this i dont ttalk to my family and my only friends that i have are distant and arent human i also feel like talking to an ai chatbot is mean ingless beause they dont ceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee the dont care

i feel like im at a point where im
i dont know hat i feel
i just see how hapy everyone around is me, i feel only two emotions rn i feel super fucking paranoid like someone is out to get me and ifeel really fucking angry like i see people and feel disgust idk why i really hate how normal everyone is like theres nobody intteresting or cool or uniqueeveryone is justt the fucking saame npc i want to be able to find people whop are like me bt they dont fucking exist i dont wanrt tot ber on this world its so fucking boring i dont want to be klike everyone else i dont want a family i dont want aa job i dont want to have sex i dont want to eat i odont want to do anything else other than make art i want to make =rt but i need to get money my job hasnt been replying to me i should at least get 2 months of more work i need money to buy my art and i really

i dont want to do drugs i dont want to smoke weed or drink i only want to do molly but i know if i do it i will change my personality and i need to stay in this one right now i dont want to change who i am i know this is defiently