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Mealworm
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Anytime I take an edible, smoke, vape, or ingest or inhale anything to do with weed, I feel like shit. My ego and self-esteem go down the drain, and I get depressed. It makes me realize everyone in my life is a piece of shit, everyone in my life is pathetic. Everyone is dragging me down, but there's no way out. I used to get mad at these things and never talk about them, I would just push it onto other people in a way that would hurt them. I still wish I could, but I truly don't have anybody anymore even worth a second of my time
Even thinking about talking about the things that keep me up at night makes my skin crawl, and when people mention a therapist, I lose it. They're professional bullshitters, and their source of income makes me sick. I'd rather see a drug dealer make their money because at least they're not disingenuous about their life and what they do. A therapist does nothing but listen, doesn't provide you with even the simplest of solutions that even a fourth grader can interpret. But hallelujah, they don't get paid a livable salary, just the notion of them getting any money from this 'profession' makes my blood run hot.
I don't hate myself, I hate my life and everyone around me. I wish I could move, get out of here, be done with everyone, and just live the life I want. That day is going to come soon enough, I'm waiting for it
Even thinking about talking about the things that keep me up at night makes my skin crawl, and when people mention a therapist, I lose it. They're professional bullshitters, and their source of income makes me sick. I'd rather see a drug dealer make their money because at least they're not disingenuous about their life and what they do. A therapist does nothing but listen, doesn't provide you with even the simplest of solutions that even a fourth grader can interpret. But hallelujah, they don't get paid a livable salary, just the notion of them getting any money from this 'profession' makes my blood run hot.
I don't hate myself, I hate my life and everyone around me. I wish I could move, get out of here, be done with everyone, and just live the life I want. That day is going to come soon enough, I'm waiting for it
