
zerotohero
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I can’t help but see way too much of myself in Kanye. His rants, his chaos, the things he says that get him hated, the times he destroys relationships with his own impulsive actions. I’ve been there. I’ve said stupid shit out of nowhere, ruined friendships, destroyed things for myself because of some toxic, chaotic side of me I can’t control. I’ve even had moments where my own views were like Kanye’s with all that “nazi stuff,” just because of my own warped thinking at times. I’ve destroyed relationships because of my impulsive thoughts and actions. I used to let my BPD control me, just like Kanye’s bipolar seems to take over him.
I see Kanye’s rants, his outbursts, and sometimes I get it. It’s like a part of me understands the need to lash out, to say things that will shock people, because you feel so much inside but can’t get it out in any other way. He praises Puff Daddy, says shit about Beyoncé and Jay-Z children, wears that KKK outfit, and people lose their shit. But I’ve been in that place too, where I was saying outrageous stuff to push people away, or acting in ways I regret later. It’s like I could be Kanye if I kept down that path.
Kanye’s bipolar, always shifting from highs to lows, is honestly a mirror to my own experiences with BPD. One minute, I feel like I’m on top of the world; the next, I’m crashing hard, spiraling into depression, anxious, and fucking everything up. I think Kanye’s public breakdowns and his controversial actions resonate because, in a way, it’s the same unpredictable, unstable emotional ride I’ve been on my whole life.
I’ve stopped going down the same destructive path, but there’s always that chaos inside me, just waiting to explode. I guess it’s why I relate to him so much. Maybe he’s just a more extreme version of the same inner battle we all have when we’re living with these types of disorders.
I see Kanye’s rants, his outbursts, and sometimes I get it. It’s like a part of me understands the need to lash out, to say things that will shock people, because you feel so much inside but can’t get it out in any other way. He praises Puff Daddy, says shit about Beyoncé and Jay-Z children, wears that KKK outfit, and people lose their shit. But I’ve been in that place too, where I was saying outrageous stuff to push people away, or acting in ways I regret later. It’s like I could be Kanye if I kept down that path.
Kanye’s bipolar, always shifting from highs to lows, is honestly a mirror to my own experiences with BPD. One minute, I feel like I’m on top of the world; the next, I’m crashing hard, spiraling into depression, anxious, and fucking everything up. I think Kanye’s public breakdowns and his controversial actions resonate because, in a way, it’s the same unpredictable, unstable emotional ride I’ve been on my whole life.
I’ve stopped going down the same destructive path, but there’s always that chaos inside me, just waiting to explode. I guess it’s why I relate to him so much. Maybe he’s just a more extreme version of the same inner battle we all have when we’re living with these types of disorders.