I just dreamt about being GOOD LOOKING and this is DEPRESSING

[Zdeweilx]

It was all about a pretty girl that fell for me

We were in a holidays residence, most likely in Morocco or maybe in Spain. As she was smiling up to me she got closer and asked me why I was here in the first place. To that I answered something (can't remember what for some reason) before laughing like an idiot.

After that she also bursted into laughter for absolutely no reason and offered me to go do something with her friends. I asked her how old she was but she retaliated with the saeme question. I told her I was 19. On the other hand she admitted she would only turn 18 in a few months. "Cool" I said to myself, because she actually looked like she was 12 or something tbh.

Afterwards she then proceeded to take my hand as she cheerily invited me "come, I'll introduce you to my best friends teeeeeheeeee" I was literally in heaven, and just after that I FUCKING WOKE UP, AND IT DOESNT TAKE MORE THAN A SECOND AND A HALF FOR ME TO REALIZE THAT IT WAS JUST A DREAM AND MY LIFE IS UTTER DOGSHIT, THAT I'M STILL A FRIENDLESS AUTIST WHO'S NEVER EVEN TOUCHED A SINGLE GIRL AT ALMOST 20

You know what's even more depressing??? It's the fact that, even though it was all the doing of my fucking primitive brain clearly sending me a message, prompting me to reproduce asap...even if it was nothing more than a fucking illusion...even though I got tricked, trolled and scoffed at by my brain...

I was fucking HAPPY during that dream. Yeah, even if I was close to weeping in tears as soon as I realized this whole scene never existed and never will, I felt a genuine feeling of happiness.

Now, what makes me depressed is that some people are experiencing this FOR REAL, and on a daily basis. What's the difference between me and them? Their looks. Why couldn't I be good looking, too, and grasp happiness at least once in my life?

"b-but but muhhh there are other ways to be happy than to get constant validation from both women and men"

Listen to me closely you retarded aspie fuck, I've tried everything in my short miserable life. Exercise (up to 4 hours a day). Travels. Intense studies. Video games. EVERY SINGLE COPE THAT EXISTS I TRIED DED SRS.

And hear me out - NOTHING gets close to female validation. Getting validated and loved by females is literally deeply rooted in our brain to be one of the main objective of every single men. We're all hardwired to attend to it. If you're denying this, you're obviously coping.


I seriously hate this fucking world, like if God exists I really hope he will obliterate it asap because nothing is right down here. have a good day anyway I guess.

 

[DutchPrettyBoy]

a sad thread from a sad man

 

[Zdeweilx]

a sad thread from a sad man

I dont even feel sadness anymore bro it's all anger inside my disgusting body

 

[.🇹🇩.]

live life in dreams theory

 

[Norwooder]

I coped my entire way through school through delusionmaxxing and it was actually amazing as I didn't ever realise that I was coping.
Had my first proper sexual experience recently at 21 and it was everything, just like we expected

 

[HighIQcel]

I coped my entire way through school through delusionmaxxing and it was actually amazing as I didn't ever realise that I was coping.
Had my first proper sexual experience recently at 21 and it was everything, just like we expected

How did you cope at school?

 

[Norwooder]

How did you cope at school?

I told myself I loved nature (I went to my friends farm in high school on weekends whilst everyone else was partying)
I also told myself I had really good friends, once I realized what was up It was really saddening.
My problem is fixed but I was a late bloomer and developed 5 years later than everyone else
Damage may be permanent, I will see man

 

[HighIQcel]

[QUOTE="Norwooder, post: 2661465, member:

My problem is fixed but I was a late bloomer and developed 5 years later than everyone else
Damage may be permanent, I will see man
[/QUOTE]
When did you hit puberty? At what age?

 

[Zdeweilx]

I told myself I loved nature (I went to my friends farm in high school on weekends whilst everyone else was partying)
I also told myself I had really good friends, once I realized what was up It was really saddening.
My problem is fixed but I was a late bloomer and developed 5 years later than everyone else
Damage may be permanent, I will see man

at least you had sex once so you're not fantasizing about it

 

[HighIQcel]

I told myself I loved nature (I went to my friends farm in high school on weekends whilst everyone else was partying)
I also told myself I had really good friends, once I realized what was up It was really saddening.
My problem is fixed but I was a late bloomer and developed 5 years later than everyone else
Damage may be permanent, I will see man

Read my previous post

 

[Norwooder]

[QUOTE="Norwooder, post: 2661465, member:

My problem is fixed but I was a late bloomer and developed 5 years later than everyone else
Damage may be permanent, I will see man

When did you hit puberty? At what age?
[/QUOTE]
19-20.

 

[Norwooder]

at least you had sex once so you're not fantasizing about it

still all those years missed man, but I do have an amazing plan for my 20s, so that may make my life end up being great. gotta roll the dice