I just got home after surviving my sixth suicide attempt

[Society hates me]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

 

[dumb]

Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and call upon his name for help
@ngannou

 

[asdvek]

 

[Society hates me]

Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and call upon his name for help
@ngannou

Yeah he doesn’t care about me at all. If he did he would help me in some way

 

[asdvek]

green tea

That's what you're doing wrong

Stop eating plant toxins

 

[Leo]

Nah @Master ban this mf for making the suicide situation worse

 

[Society hates me]

Nah @Master ban this mf for making the suicide situation worse

Wait why?

 

[dumb]

Yeah he doesn’t care about me at all. If he did he would help me in some way

did you ask Him for help?

 

[Leo]

Wait why?

Some weird bitch been talking about this forum having 100+ suicides etc and is trying to cancel is innocent incels

 

[asdvek]

1. Your problem unironically might be low testosterone

2. Where are you from

 

[gurt]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

in all seriousness it sounds like your dopamine system is fucked off off that last line. You could always pin testosterone (without joking its way more effective than ssri's)

 

[1SIS]

in all seriousness it sounds like your dopamine system is fucked off off that last line. You could always pin testosterone (without joking its way more effective than ssri's)

 

[Eltrē]

What country are you from?

 

[oculus]

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[RussianWarCriminal]

Brosky you sound like you're in a similar situation to me. All I can say is don't do it, if you wanna talk DM me.

 

[Starborn]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

@Greyascension this the dude u saved

 

[Starborn]

@Greyascension this the dude u saved

Or not saved the dude you encountered during your shift

 

[BlackFag]

SIXTH????
nigga how do you fuck up suicide 6 times
atp i think god wants you to live

 

[oculus]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

get a pet and relax , feed him teach him tricks etc

 

[gurt]

Effects of exogenous testosterone on the ventral striatal BOLD response during reward anticipation in healthy women - PubMed

Correlational evidence in humans shows that levels of the androgen hormone testosterone are positively related to reinforcement sensitivity and competitive drive. Structurally similar anabolic-androgenic steroids (AAS) are moreover widely abused, and animal studies show that rodents...

pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/24618531/ (rats but fuck it closest thing we got jfl)

pretty well known atp testosterone affects dopamine signalling and reward-related brain activity

 

[Society hates me]

SIXTH????
nigga how do you fuck up suicide 6 times
atp i think god wants you to live

I tried the partial suspension method over the summer a few times. Like the Robin Williams method. I looked up where the carotid arteries were and everything but every time and I would put the noose around my neck and lean forward but it even though it made the head banging and throbbing I would just hang there for an hour and never pass away. I never even lost consciousness

 

[Society hates me]

in all seriousness it sounds like your dopamine system is fucked off off that last line. You could always pin testosterone (without joking its way more effective than ssri's)

Last line? What do you mean last line?

 

[Society hates me]

did you ask Him for help?

Yeah. It’s just talking in the void dude

 

[dumb]

Yeah. It’s just talking in the void dude

untrue, He hears you and loves you. And wants a connection with you

 

[puff]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

what does it feel like after u hang urself

 

[BlackFag]

I tried the partial suspension method over the summer a few times. Like the Robin Williams method. I looked up where the carotid arteries were and everything but every time and I would put the noose around my neck and lean forward but it even though it made the head banging and throbbing I would just hang there for an hour and never pass away. I never even lost consciousness

well your doing it poorly
but atp like i said take it as god stopping you
just go to church, start going outside appreciate god's world (ignore foids they were partially created by the devil)

 

[User28823]

get ur CDL

 

[gurt]

SSRI's (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) the standard prescribed set of drugs for depression, are pretty well known to be somewhat ineffective. according to this study exercise is about as effective against depression as ssri's; https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/36113975/
64% of men with depression have low testosterone (https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/547830?utm_source=chatgpt.com), so pinning test would actually adress the(or at least a) root issue in most cases.

 

[Society hates me]

well your doing it poorly
but atp like i said take it as god stopping you
just go to church, start going outside appreciate god's world (ignore foids they were partially created by the devil)

What do you mean I’m doing it poorly? Robin Williams used a belt. I used ropes which constructs more solidly and more focuses the pressure

 

[Society hates me]

SSRI's (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) the standard prescribed set of drugs for depression, are pretty well known to be somewhat ineffective. according to this study exercise is about as effective against depression as ssri's; https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/36113975/
64% of men with depression have low testosterone (https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/547830?utm_source=chatgpt.com), so pinning test would actually adress the(or at least a) root issue in most cases.

How do I increase testosterone? I don’t have a doctor. I’ve heard eating onions and garlic increase test

 

[BlackFag]

What do you mean I’m doing it poorly? Robin Williams used a belt. I used ropes which constructs more solidly and more focuses the pressure

different heights and weights
and he probably took a bunch of shit beforehand

i can't really help you my guy
i'm not even going to lieto you about how the world is so good or some shit
if you really believe there's nothing rope

i (a rando on .org) believes you should live
but i ain't you
so you do you bro

 

[Society hates me]

1. Your problem unironically might be low testosterone

2. Where are you from

What do I do to increase testosterone? I just want a peaceful life in a rural area around people like me. I don’t think increasing testosterone would help with that

 

[asdvek]

What do I do to increase testosterone? I just want a peaceful life in a rural area around people like me. I don’t think increasing testosterone would help with that

Eat raw liver

 

[Whiteboard7]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

You life is in your hands its only up to. Stand up to your boss and get a better Job. What have to done to improve your situation and get out of this. I understand your mindset when your suicidal but its up to you dawg. Believe in U

 

[ngannou]

Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest​

@dumb

 

[VerticalManiac]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

Your not racist dude, most people on this forum are but your definitely not.

 

[karmacita901]

how long did it take u to lose consciousness hanging from the fan ???

 

[comebotd]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

But everything is gonna take time, for you to be happy with people of your culture. It's gonna require you to persevere and that's okay. But you should keep that ultimate goal in mind, whenever in difficulty to make sure you keep striving. Op for the sake of everyone, don't attempt twice. We all pray for your well being.

 

[comebotd]

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@decadouche57 is asdvek the main cause of why the indian smv has been in the gutter?

 

[Cautious Turtle]

Stop attempting at giving the normies and foids what they want.

 

[LettersfromAgartha]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

what do you work at?

 

[decadouche57]

@decadouche57 is asdvek the main cause of why the indian smv has been in the gutter?

yes

 

[SoundnVision]

Get a different job move somewhere else

 

[gurt]

How do I increase testosterone? I don’t have a doctor. I’ve heard eating onions and garlic increase test

low cortisol, excercise, sleep, eat healthy, but its pretty hard to not get your testosterone production get nuked to the ground in modern society. Or... just pin it. Test is dirt cheap, like genuinely less than 10 dollars a month at trt dossages

 

[BrothaGus]

Take this as a sign from GOD that he wants you to live your life, considering you failed to end your life 6 TIMES. It's never over.

 

[enchanted_elixir]

get ur CDL

That would help a lot to be fair.

 

[enchanted_elixir]

Test is dirt cheap, like genuinely less than 10 dollars a month at trt dossages

Woah, really?????

 

[imontheloose]

Woah, really?????

There’s no way this is news to you @chadisbeingmade @SlayerJonas

 

[enchanted_elixir]

Any actual legitimate life advice would be greatly appreciated at this point since my life is really bad right now.

So, if any of you were hanging out here on New Year’s Eve I posted my suicide note and shortly after I attempted suicide by hanging myself on the ceiling fan in my room.

After I hung it I hung there for about three or four minutes before the entire ceiling fan snapped and fell out of the fucking ceiling. Idk who installed it 20 years ago but it couldn’t hold the weight of a 170 pound man so the entire fucking fan fell. Right on top of me as well. Well my whole family heard the crash and walked in on me laying on the floor with a purple face with a shattered and broken ceiling fan lamp all over me.

They called the police and took me to the ER. I was in the ER for about 12 hours until they found me a room in the hospitals psych ward.

I got discharged today after the 72 hour hold that they do. And I’ve been home sitting in my room drinking green tea for about an hour now.


I really don’t know where to go from here. Many many things led me feeling like this. I get treated like shit by my boss at my job. He micromanaged me and criticizes my every move. I’m stuck living at home with my parents even though I’m 27 years old in a city. It’s a big massive crime ridden city too. I’ve spoken about this a lot before and I hate that I’m racist but I really just want to be around people who are similar to me. I want to live somewhere that is quiet and rural. I just want to be somewhere far away from the crime and people breaking into my house. Loud parties.

I really don’t want to be racist. I don’t want other races to die or anything. I just want to live amongst people who share my culture with me. I want to live a quiet life.

I don’t know any way to go about reaching my goals. They all seem impossible. I just don’t know where to go from here.

Move out or die.
It really is that simple.
And you seem to suck at the die part.

 

[enchanted_elixir]

There’s no way this is news to you @chadisbeingmade @SlayerJonas

I literally do not do research on testosterone prices. I never considered taking it. That's why.