I just using this forum as a venting

[SayCheeseAndDie!]

I know no one care i just using this as venting.
Today I had to go to a big city and after an hour I started to cry and had to sit on a bench to calm down.

The reason was simple, its a weekend and people going to the streets to spend free time, lots of couples and groups. At that moment I realized that I feel something like when travis bickle watches on TV how couples dance and the camera close up to the one pair of shoes in a dance bowl, he was those shoes, something that doesnt belong there and and completely isolated without the possibility to relate to someone, just like me. I just felt like i will live like this to the end.

Obviously looks are reason i dont have GF - even tho most men dont look like opry or chico -, but its no reason why dont I have a friends.

The reasons are my mental illness and that i was isolated not only by others but myself, because i mostly felt i dont belonge anywhere.
Now I'm at the age when making friends is impossible because I'm out of the school system and i never talk to someone which isnt releted to work or family for many months.


I should probably start taking some antidepressant, but I do't want to end up like vegetable without emotions, because emotions are all I have.


This site was very useful because I didnt feel alone in my problem. The thing is that now the fun aspect of this forum doesnt help me go on.


I wont make it, but most people still can.
There is no gene for fate or human spirit.

 

[Regular Doomer]

Just looksmax bro

Why would you go on jew fake meds to get you brain rot and even more depressed un the long run instead of just looksmaxing?

 

[Dorogi]

I know no one care i just using this as venting.
Today I had to go to a big city and after an hour I started to cry and had to sit on a bench to calm down.

The reason was simple, its a weekend and people going to the streets to spend free time, lots of couples and groups. At that moment I realized that I feel something like when travis bickle watches on TV how couples dance and the camera close up to the one pair of shoes in a dance bowl, he was those shoes, something that doesnt belong there and and completely isolated without the possibility to relate to someone, just like me. I just felt like i will live like this to the end.

Obviously looks are reason i dont have GF - even tho most men dont look like opry or chico -, but its no reason why dont I have a friends.

The reasons are my mental illness and that i was isolated not only by others but myself, because i mostly felt i dont belonge anywhere.
Now I'm at the age when making friends is impossible because I'm out of the school system and i never talk to someone which isnt releted to work or family for many months.


I should probably start taking some antidepressant, but I do't want to end up like vegetable without emotions, because emotions are all I have.


This site was very useful because I didnt feel alone in my problem. The thing is that now the fun aspect of this forum doesnt help me go on.


I wont make it, but most people still can.
There is no gene for fate or human spirit.

Same shit bhai. Are you still young or has time already cemented your khhv faith?