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caylee cowan > your oneitis
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i used the word “witness” because of how many of the seniors walking were terrified, or anxious, uncertain and i witnessed it
this time it felt different.
in my freshman year of highschool when i watched it happen it was happy, joyful, and a good memory
but now two years later after accepting reality it feels different
i can read their body language, their face, their eyes.
it’s different. for most of their stories will fade away, they will become irrelevant, another statistic
That touched my ego. I hate that. No.
my story does not end there, I don’t want to be like them. I want what I want.
I want the world to admire me, I want the world to know about me, talk about me, want to be me.
I don’t care about anyone, i don’t care about their careers, life, choices.
But what i care about is seeing myself in them.
when i saw their eyes, their uncertainty… I imagined myself.
And I felt fear. No
Not me.
i used the word “witness” because of how many of the seniors walking were terrified, or anxious, uncertain and i witnessed it
this time it felt different.
in my freshman year of highschool when i watched it happen it was happy, joyful, and a good memory
but now two years later after accepting reality it feels different
i can read their body language, their face, their eyes.
it’s different. for most of their stories will fade away, they will become irrelevant, another statistic
That touched my ego. I hate that. No.
my story does not end there, I don’t want to be like them. I want what I want.
I want the world to admire me, I want the world to know about me, talk about me, want to be me.
I don’t care about anyone, i don’t care about their careers, life, choices.
But what i care about is seeing myself in them.
when i saw their eyes, their uncertainty… I imagined myself.
And I felt fear. No
Not me.
