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Hi hope you’re doing well, this post is a little bit edgy and corny but I’m just trying to get it out of my system since I don’t really have anyone else to talk to about this, I’m just hoping to find some people who can relate or give me advice. Thanks!
Since I was a kid, I always had my flaws pointed out by my mother, she’d say all types of things about me before I even knew how to do basic math so I was kinda spoon-fed from the age of 5 that every feature I had just wasn’t good enough
This also led me to start comparing myself to other people in my class and wonder why there parents seemed to love them unconditionally but when it came to me, my looks made me unlovable it’s kinda that phrase they teach you “A face only a mother can love” but what do you do when your mother looks at you and she can’t even muster it up to lie and say you look good?
It’s the way people treat you, you know? That slightly disgusted look like you’re less then them. I try not to think about how ugly I am and focus on ascending, but there are times where I just wish I wasn’t born at all. You can’t be perceived as anything if you’re not something at all.
I also know I was unattractive because the only thing people would ever comment on were either my eyelashes or that I was funny, and if that’s all people can say about you that you’re funny that’s how you know its over JFL
. I’ve only ever been called ugly once straight up and it wasn’t to my face, some girls in my middle school class were in a corner rating guys and one black girl called me ugly 
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When I was in 7th grade, that was the first time I had ever tried to make a move on a girl. She would make “jokes” by saying I looked like a gremlin and I remember I smiled at something she said and she just went “Why do you smile like that?” And I said Wydm and she said “Nevermind”, I’ve had pretty much all my features commented on, I told that I was fat/chubby even though I’ve always been bmi 21 or 20, I was told my nose was big, I had a huge forehead, had my teeth commented on, told I was short, I’ve had comments on my skin, pretty much every feature I was even SLIGHTLY confident looked atleast average on me I had a person comment on and tell me it looked like shit
Now, when I look at myself, all I see is what I need to fix and nothing I should be proud of
Kinda brutal Have a good day
Since I was a kid, I always had my flaws pointed out by my mother, she’d say all types of things about me before I even knew how to do basic math so I was kinda spoon-fed from the age of 5 that every feature I had just wasn’t good enough
This also led me to start comparing myself to other people in my class and wonder why there parents seemed to love them unconditionally but when it came to me, my looks made me unlovable it’s kinda that phrase they teach you “A face only a mother can love” but what do you do when your mother looks at you and she can’t even muster it up to lie and say you look good?
It’s the way people treat you, you know? That slightly disgusted look like you’re less then them. I try not to think about how ugly I am and focus on ascending, but there are times where I just wish I wasn’t born at all. You can’t be perceived as anything if you’re not something at all.
I also know I was unattractive because the only thing people would ever comment on were either my eyelashes or that I was funny, and if that’s all people can say about you that you’re funny that’s how you know its over JFL
. I’ve only ever been called ugly once straight up and it wasn’t to my face, some girls in my middle school class were in a corner rating guys and one black girl called me ugly . When I was in 7th grade, that was the first time I had ever tried to make a move on a girl. She would make “jokes” by saying I looked like a gremlin and I remember I smiled at something she said and she just went “Why do you smile like that?” And I said Wydm and she said “Nevermind”, I’ve had pretty much all my features commented on, I told that I was fat/chubby even though I’ve always been bmi 21 or 20, I was told my nose was big, I had a huge forehead, had my teeth commented on, told I was short, I’ve had comments on my skin, pretty much every feature I was even SLIGHTLY confident looked atleast average on me I had a person comment on and tell me it looked like shit
Now, when I look at myself, all I see is what I need to fix and nothing I should be proud of
Kinda brutal
Have a good day
