I literally feel like a walking corpse

[Society hates me]

I can feel my eyes crusted with goop. I can feel my skin heavy on my body. My stomach twisted in knots. I feel like Im dying,

Im so depressed, and so anxious. I basically already know that I will fail at everything in life and that I will never be able to accomplish anything. Its like my body is giving up and is starting to shut down. At 25 Ive already been through so much trauma and isolation and backstabbing and jealousy.

Oh my God the jealosy. I literally feel like my insides are going to explode when I see other people succeeding at things I know i dont even have a chance at doing.

 

[97baHater]

The shower isn't cold enough

 

[ey88]

Low t

 

[mightbecooked123]

I can feel my eyes crusted with goop. I can feel my skin heavy on my body. My stomach twisted in knots. I feel like Im dying,

Im so depressed, and so anxious. I basically already know that I will fail at everything in life and that I will never be able to accomplish anything. Its like my body is giving up and is starting to shut down. At 25 Ive already been through so much trauma and isolation and backstabbing and jealousy.

Oh my God the jealosy. I literally feel like my insides are going to explode when I see other people succeeding at things I know i dont even have a chance at doing.

I

 

[exo]

Just take colder showers and raise your T, bhai

 

[StarvedEpi]

what years of low fibre and protein dose to mfs

 

[Kinger]

Sucks, how would you rate your looks level?

 

[Society hates me]

Low t

More like no T.

 

[Society hates me]

Sucks, how would you rate your looks level?

I literally look like the greedy Jew sterotype. Ive got the forward neck and the humpback and skinny arms and curly hair. The only thing I dont have is the nose

 

[Kinger]

I literally look like the greedy Jew sterotype. Ive got the forward neck and the humpback and skinny arms and curly hair. The only thing I dont have is the nose

Damn, what's your ethnicity?

 

[Society hates me]

what years of low fibre and protein dose to mfs

How do you even get protien bro. Its expensive as fuck. The only thing I can afford in this economy is potatoes and pasta

 

[Society hates me]

Damn, what's your ethnicity?

Im white. But Im not Jewish lol. I just got stuck with the troll look

 

[Society hates me]

The shower isn't cold enough

How many showers do i need to take per day in order to get a job?

 

[Kinger]

Im white. But Im not Jewish lol. I just got stuck with the troll look

It sucks, definitely don't waste money with psychologists. Can you moneymax?

 

[Society hates me]

It sucks, definitely don't waste money with psychologists. Can you moneymax?

I cant get a job. No one will hire me because Im ugly

 

[Kinger]

I cant get a job. No one will hire me because Im ugly

I see, it sucks...there is indeed lots of lookism discrimination in hiring

 

[User28823]

Wherever you're at in life you chose to be there and you self rationalized and justified how you ended up in this situation and why you can't get out to make yourself feel better

 

[mirrormogger]

dont cold shower btw it’s awful for you

 

[Society hates me]

Wherever you're at in life you chose to be there and you self rationalized and justified how you ended up in this situation and why you can't get out to make yourself feel better

Lol by that logic every cancer patient got to where they were in life just by rationalizing and accepting or whatever the bullshit you just said.

"to make myself feel better" bro i feel like Im dying every single day. I genuinely hate myself and I wish I was a dfferent person every day. Im miserable. I dont tell myself these things to make myself feel better. These are the rational conclusions I have come to after going through my life experiences.

 

[User28823]

Lol by that logic every cancer patient got to where they were in life just by rationalizing and accepting or whatever the bullshit you just said.

"to make myself feel better" bro i feel like Im dying every single day. I genuinely hate myself and I wish I was a dfferent person every day. Im miserable. I dont tell myself these things to make myself feel better. These are the rational conclusions I have come to after going through my life experiences.

most cancer patients don't bitch and moan like u do

do u have cancer?

why do u feel shit?

let's really examine this

 

[noodlelover]

I basically already know that I will fail at everything in life and that I will never be able plish anto accomything.

Explain.

 

[StarvedEpi]

How do you even get protien bro. Its expensive as fuck. The only thing I can afford in this economy is potatoes and pasta

one big meal of beans, rice and lentils every single day, 1600 cals and 81g of protein for like a 1.50
buy discount meat thats on its sell buy date and cook it or freeze it straight away
you can drink low fat milk aswell

 

[Society hates me]

most cancer patients don't bitch and moan like u do

do u have cancer?

why do u feel shit?

let's really examine this

Ok.
Ive been systematically rejected from every single social group I ahve ever been a part of. Ive tried for years to be a member of the local church community wth my dad but no matter what I do I get bullied and mogged into absolute shit. Men are masucline and tough and will attack and destroy the weaker men in order to make themselves look better. Ive tried to clap back before and enforce boudnaries but I always end up humiliating myself and people laugh at me. Women are even worse. Most women look at me like Im either an alien or a creep. Or they completely ignore my existence. I've been falsely accused of things I didn't do multiple times. All because I'm ugly. That church is the reason for my first three suicide attempts.

I tired for years. I tried REALLY REALLY HARD. But no matter what I do I just cant compete with other men. the parish priest is so popular he literally gets married women talking and flirting with him. Kids come up and give him hugs all the time. How the fuck am I supposed to compete witht hat. I literally fucking dissapear next to him.

I cant compete with other men. I just cant. Ive even tried to elarn boxng so I can fight people and hopefully become more masculine. Ive tried joining debate clubs so I can learn how to argue more and me meaner and nastier.

But none of it ever works. No matter what the men will always be stronger than me. They will always have sharper tongues than me.

Ive been struggling to get through college for about 8 years now. My brain is so full of static that I canf fuckign focus on anything.


I live in a fucking inner city. Im the only white perosn for miles around. We have to drive five miles just to get to that church. I want anything to leave this urban hellhole and start a more peaceful life far far away in a quiet rural area. But its basically impossible to get a job in another state unless you know someone.

SO Im basically trapped. I cant move away because their quite literally is logically no option. What the hell do i do? Just apply for job openings a whole state away and hope ?

Thats why I spend all my time on the internet. Because I literally have exhausted all options.

 

[Society hates me]

Explain.

I explained it in another comment. Its a lot so look around this thread

 

[Society hates me]

one big meal of beans, rice and lentils every single day, 1600 cals and 81g of protein for like a 1.50
buy discount meat thats on its sell buy date and cook it or freeze it straight away
you can drink low fat milk aswell

How do you cook beans? Dont you have to let them sit and chill for like three hours?

 

[StarvedEpi]

How do you cook beans? Dont you have to let them sit and chill for like three hours?

normally instructions are on the back of the packaging, going to feel like a dog eating the same slop for half your diet everyday but at least your going to be nourished.
frozen and canned produce are a great option when your poorcel to not be malnourished as well

 

[User28823]

Ok.
Ive been systematically rejected from every single social group I ahve ever been a part of. Ive tried for years to be a member of the local church community wth my dad but no matter what I do I get bullied and mogged into absolute shit. Men are masucline and tough and will attack and destroy the weaker men in order to make themselves look better. Ive tried to clap back before and enforce boudnaries but I always end up humiliating myself and people laugh at me. Women are even worse. Most women look at me like Im either an alien or a creep. Or they completely ignore my existence. I've been falsely accused of things I didn't do multiple times. All because I'm ugly. That church is the reason for my first three suicide attempts.

I tired for years. I tried REALLY REALLY HARD. But no matter what I do I just cant compete with other men. the parish priest is so popular he literally gets married women talking and flirting with him. Kids come up and give him hugs all the time. How the fuck am I supposed to compete witht hat. I literally fucking dissapear next to him.

I cant compete with other men. I just cant. Ive even tried to elarn boxng so I can fight people and hopefully become more masculine. Ive tried joining debate clubs so I can learn how to argue more and me meaner and nastier.

But none of it ever works. No matter what the men will always be stronger than me. They will always have sharper tongues than me.

Ive been struggling to get through college for about 8 years now. My brain is so full of static that I canf fuckign focus on anything.


I live in a fucking inner city. Im the only white perosn for miles around. We have to drive five miles just to get to that church. I want anything to leave this urban hellhole and start a more peaceful life far far away in a quiet rural area. But its basically impossible to get a job in another state unless you know someone.

SO Im basically trapped. I cant move away because their quite literally is logically no option. What the hell do i do? Just apply for job openings a whole state away and hope ?

Thats why I spend all my time on the internet. Because I literally have exhausted all options.

great so you've experienced rejection just like everyone else has, congrats

i'm isolated, i don't cry about it, as a matter of fact i prefer it, but i guess some "men" need a social circle to rant about their lives or whatever

also, what's with ur obsession over competing with other men? nobody wants to be friends with someone like that

college for 8 years? do u have a mental disability or something? maybe go see a dr nigga tf u doing there for 8 years

u spend all ur time on the internet? great maybe spend less time bitching on forums and more time figuring out how to make money on it

 

[Society hates me]

great so you've experienced rejection just like everyone else has, congrats

i'm isolated, i don't cry about it, as a matter of fact i prefer it, but i guess some "men" need a social circle to rant about their lives or whatever

also, what's with ur obsession over competing with other men? nobody wants to be friends with someone like that

college for 8 years? do u have a mental disability or something? maybe go see a dr nigga tf u doing there for 8 years

u spend all ur time on the internet? great maybe spend less time bitching on forums and more time figuring out how to make money on it

There are some people in this life who never experience rejection. And that makes me angry.

Everything in life is a competition whether you like it or not.

I probably do have a mental disability

It seems to me like your only answer is try try try try try try try try cope cope cope cope cope.
Try harder
Try harder
Try harder
Have you tried trying harder?

I dont think you understand how done I am with everything. I need a place to vent my frustrations because I have no other place to do it in life. I have no outlet. Nowhere to go. This is it. Thats why I made a profile here. Because this is the only place in human society where people actually understand what I go through and the only place I can actually voice my frustrations.

Human society DOESNT WANT ME. So just let me rot on this forum

 

[User28823]

There are some people in this life who never experience rejection. And that makes me angry.

Everything in life is a competition whether you like it or not.

I probably do have a mental disability

It seems to me like your only answer is try try try try try try try try cope cope cope cope cope.
Try harder
Try harder
Try harder
Have you tried trying harder?

I dont think you understand how done I am with everything. I need a place to vent my frustrations because I have no other place to do it in life. I have no outlet. Nowhere to go. This is it. Thats why I made a profile here. Because this is the only place in human society where people actually understand what I go through and the only place I can actually voice my frustrations.

Human society DOESNT WANT ME. So just let me rot on this forum

its funny to me because i've dealt with much worse, have legitimate health problems, and am so much further ahead

brutal just try harder pill i guess........

 

[Society hates me]

Well..... tell me your story then. Im willing to listen. Hey maybe it will help put things into perspective for me.