I lost my life force..

[larox.psl]

I used to have goals. I used to care. I used to think that if I pushed hard enough, if I optimized every little thing—my face, my body, my presence—I could become something. Maybe Rich. Maybe even someone worth noticing.

But now? I don’t even want that. I don’t want anything. It’s not that I failed. It’s not that I couldn’t reach my ideal. It’s that somewhere along the way, I stopped seeing the point. My ambitions, my desires, my drive—all of it just vanished. One day, I woke up and realized that I don’t actually want to be here. Not in a dramatic, crying-out-for-help way. Just in a detached, matter-of-fact way. Like a machine that’s still running long after it stopped having any function.

I used to think that self-improvement would give me purpose. That if I could just get a little bit better—more money,more muscles, more status,more leaner—then maybe I’d feel something. But now, even the thought of improvement feels pointless. Who am I even doing it for? A world that wouldn’t care if I disappeared? A version of myself that I no longer recognize?

I don’t feel sad. I don’t feel angry. I don’t feel anything. It’s like my body is still here, going through the motions, but my soul packed up and left a long time ago. My grandma tells me to find meaning, to chase something, to keep going. But for what? To play a game I no longer care about?

If I died right now, nothing would change. The world would keep spinning, people would keep living, and I wouldn’t even be a footnote in anyone’s memory. I could vanish into thin air, and the universe wouldn’t even blink.

Maybe I burned too bright, too fast. Maybe I was never meant to be anything. Or maybe life itself is just a joke, and I finally understood the punchline.

You either die chasing a dream, or you live long enough to realize dreams were never real to begin with.

And the funniest part?Im not even fucking 18 yet.Life is already over before it even began.

I know that some of you feel the same way

We need lifefuel.

 

[BimaxLaser]

Alr bud could be worse you could be 20 like me

 

[larox.psl]

Alr bud could be worse you could be 20 like me

You didnt even read the title bro,just read it its cool

 

[GatoradeTRZ8]

Too much text if you want my opinion make tldr with max 7 words

Alr bud could be worse you could be 20 like me

At what age is it over? Say realistically like at what age does it get boring

 

[BimaxLaser]

Too much text if you want my opinion make tldr with max 7 words


At what age is it over? Say realistically like at what age does it get boring

If youre khhv at 25 its highly likely to be over.

 

[lookingforward]

Dnr, but in all seriousness life isn’t serious and you don’t have to take it any deeper than face value tbh. Most are working nothing jobs, dying in uneventful ways or horrid conditions. Just live your life with as much joy and whimsicalness as you can or want to.

 

[GatoradeTRZ8]

If youre khhv at 25 its highly likely to be over.

No i mean because you said your 20

At what age do you feel like it is not prime anymore?

 

[antipsychotics]

holy fucking real. im 19 though, the suffering only gets worse

 

[larox.psl]

Dnr, but in all seriousness life isn’t serious and you don’t have to take it any deeper than face value tbh. Most are working nothing jobs, dying in uneventful ways or horrid conditions. Just live your life with as much joy and whimsicalness as you can or want to.

If life isn’t serious, then why does it feel so heavy? If nothing matters, then why does emptiness hurt? People say ‘just live’ as if existing itself is enough. But what if I don’t even want that? What if ‘joy’ feels like a foreign concept, and ‘whimsicalness’ is just another word for distraction?

 

[larox.psl]

holy fucking real. im 19 though, the suffering only gets worse

Blackpill is the darkest pill,its over if you pop it

 

[antipsychotics]

Blackpill is the darkest pill,its over if you pop it

i promised myself id never end my life, but when i die, im going to get some recognition for my struggle

 

[larox.psl]

i promised myself id never end my life, but when i die, im going to get some recognition for my struggle

I understand that feeling. It’s like everything we go through means nothing if no one notices. We fight, we struggle, and we just want someone to see it, to validate the pain we’ve lived with. It’s hard to accept that the world doesn’t always care. But in a way, that struggle, that promise to yourself, it’s the only thing that’s really yours. In a world where everything else fades, maybe our struggles are the only thing we can own.

 

[antipsychotics]

I understand that feeling. It’s like everything we go through means nothing if no one notices. We fight, we struggle, and we just want someone to see it, to validate the pain we’ve lived with. It’s hard to accept that the world doesn’t always care. But in a way, that struggle, that promise to yourself, it’s the only thing that’s really yours. In a world where everything else fades, maybe our struggles are the only thing we can own.

My existence is only temporary and the only thing true to myself is my experience. Ive put in the work to only gain superficial things, and then lose it all. All that I have accomplished means nothing if all that I gained from it eventually disappeared.

 

[Slayer]

You want to understand the human condition rather than immerse yourself in it. I am struggling with this myself.

How am I supposed to separate my ego, this consciousness, from the vast realities of the external world and all the knowledge that came before me? We need to learn more.

 

[larox.psl]

You want to understand the human condition rather than immerse yourself in it. I am struggling with this myself.

How am I supposed to separate my ego, this consciousness, from the vast realities of the external world and all the knowledge that came before me? We need to learn more.

Yeah, I get it brother. It’s tough to separate the ego from everything around us, especially when it feels like there’s so much to understand and process. The more we learn, the more it can feel overwhelming. You’re not alone in this struggle. I’m dealing with the same things, trying to make sense of it all.

 

[Slayer]

Yeah, I get it brother. It’s tough to separate the ego from everything around us, especially when it feels like there’s so much to understand and process. The more we learn, the more it can feel overwhelming. You’re not alone in this struggle. I’m dealing with the same things, trying to make sense of it all.

Maybe Buddhism is right idk.

 

[lookingforward]

If life isn’t serious, then why does it feel so heavy? If nothing matters, then why does emptiness hurt? People say ‘just live’ as if existing itself is enough. But what if I don’t even want that? What if ‘joy’ feels like a foreign concept, and ‘whimsicalness’ is just another word for distraction?

feels empty cuz ur trying to attach meaning to something that inherently has zero meaning. Then it is a distraction life is absurd and nothing but suffering. You have to recognize that it does not matter and it can either free you or trap ur mind a cage. It is by pure chance that you were born, raised, and living. You could have been born in any time period. Your not allowing your self to be happy I did the same thing for a majority of my life and was insanely depressed. I say go do something for your gain or for others it truly doesn’t matter what you do.

 

[roider122]

Life starts when u became chadlite and posting urself tiktok

 

[larox.psl]

Life starts when u became chadlite and posting urself tiktok

Posting yourself on tiktok makes nothing.Only fucking a girl pussy does

 

[BimaxLaser]

No i mean because you said your 20

At what age do you feel like it is not prime anymore?

I never had a prime due to severe acne starting at 14 which started out mild but ramped up which I only recently got rid of. That plus covid made me have close to 0 social life

 

[larox.psl]

I never had a prime due to severe acne starting at 14 which started out mild but ramped up which I only recently got rid of. That plus covid made me have close to 0 social life

Do you still have acne?

 

[BimaxLaser]

Do you still have acne?

Some mild-moderare atrophic scarring plus pie

 

[looks>books]

Summary?

 

[GatoradeTRZ8]

I never had a prime due to severe acne starting at 14 which started out mild but ramped up which I only recently got rid of. That plus covid made me have close to 0 social life

What would you gnerally say is the prime age range? As you sounded like 20 is old before

 

[BimaxLaser]

What would you gnerally say is the prime age range? As you sounded like 20 is old before

16-24

 

[GatoradeTRZ8]

16-24

True i would say 27 is a good age but at and after 28 it gets worse

 

[michael_demiurgos]

Alr bud could be worse you could be 20 like me

What’s wrong with being 20? Literally one of the best ages

 

[BimaxLaser]

What’s wrong with being 20? Literally one of the best ages

I dont have friends or bitches

 

[Mosh12]

I dont have friends or bitches

why

 

[failedathlete]

keep crying wolf through your golden years, u gon learn

 

[shtbender]

Just find a few copes and stick to them. I like gym and school. Takes up enough of my time and effort so that i rarely feel low.