deyus
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I hate the black pill I can’t even enjoy drugs because of it, this life is horrible, why did I have to discover Blackpill before trying drugs so that I could have had euphoric experience, my nt tear experiences are gone… matter of fact they never began… just like how life did not begin for me. So many experiences missed because I wasn’t born a 6’2 htn or cl … this is horrible.. all the highs I’ve had . Not a single one that I’ve had has had a nt thought. I’m too gone, I so fried and I can’t escape. This nightmare, this horrendous curse, the Blackpill pill, I don’t know what tf it’s I just encountered it’s and I can’t escape it. The Blackpill is a leach that is eating my brain. I can’t escape. If I was ,cl i would have been nt. I can’t do anything to escape, I hate that I act like it doesn’t exist and it feels like it doesn’t exit when I’m all distracted but if I let myself go for one second it brings me back…. I can’t escape. I’m I forever trapped, is there a drug that can revert me back to being nt, I can’t escape.. this is honestly horrible… only thing that keep me alive are my blackpilled edits to be honest. It’s genuinely sad seeing how my bluepill self is gone. The little kid that just wanted love … but its gone. I was meant to receive it . If only I had a couple more ccm of bones mass, if only I had 8 more inches in height and better face, fuck…. My thoughts are over the place and I wish o could say more, but it’s consumed my brain so much that I’ve lost my old vocabulary. I used to be so smart… and know look at me it …. This is just so sad… one life , one body , and one soul controlling it all. And it’s either this soul learns how to cope, or it goes insane till something happens and her dies, because to be honest this souls is so scared of takings its life because its holds tight, tight. To the belief that there is a place out there that has infinite happiness and unconditional love, I hate being blackpilled and religious … would someone helps , would someone help me pls…(we’ve running out of water (birth day) listening to this while writing this while being height is genuine rope fuel… why fuck….. why can’t I just get a rope. Why I’m sick a pussy to get the rope.. o can’t break that code… this simulation of a life. I’m a complete joke, is that all I am a sick laugh to the creator. The is there a god, why I’m i, me… again why I’m thinking about the egg theory while high, that theory is honestly the best cope fuel or rope fuel theory.,, wait… our entire history has been shaped by looks,, one single code and our history is reshaped… earthmover is too peak ima go listen to that instead… and sorry for the typos. I’m to lazy to fix them …
