I miss the sense of security and peace the church used to give me

[nuisance]

I grew up around christians, have been going to church since birth. The church/religion gave me a sense of peace like god got my back and I have something to lean on and 100% belived in it. Like god is for me 100%

However as life gets harder and prayers get unanswered I started to think more deeply, and the more deeper I think the more I stray away.

Going to church and youth I feel like a outcast now, the people genuinely feel "gods love" and you can see it on their faces in contrast I dont feel a ounce of what they say they feel and I feel abandoned. Mabye im just ignorant but its just how I feel.

The bible makes it clear life isnt sunshine and rainbows and you could litterly have the most shit life until the grave, however the church doesn't really talk about that, they tend to ignore it and focus on gods love for humanity.

Sometimes the sick wont be healed, sometimes people will kill themselves, sometimes people will end up alone, sometimes you will suffer everyday and night until you go to the grave.

I dont think god loves us in the sense of giving us a good life, gods love is shown to humanity through existence and the promise of eternal life.

 

[spolty]

I grew up around christians, have been going to church since birth. The church/religion gave me a sense of peace like god got my back and I have something to lean on and 100% belived in it. Like god is for me 100%

However as life gets harder and prayers get unanswered I started to think more deeply, and the more deeper I think the more I stray away.

Going to church and youth I feel like a outcast now, the people genuinely feel "gods love" and you can see it on their faces in contrast I dont feel a ounce of what they say they feel and I feel abandoned. Mabye im just ignorant but its just how I feel.

The bible makes it clear life isnt sunshine and rainbows and you could litterly have the most shit life until the grave, however the church doesn't really talk about that, they tend to ignore it and focus on gods love for humanity.

Sometimes the sick wont be healed, sometimes people will kill themselves, sometimes people will end up alone, sometimes you will suffer everyday and night until you go to the grave.

I dont think god loves us in the sense of giving us a good life, gods love is shown to humanity through existence and the promise of eternal life.

Maybe but i think that in a depicted time God Will heal everyone if only they continue chasing