i need serious mental help

[dipenhydramine]

its just hit me how bad things are

this is like a moment of clarity

i unironically spend hours hugging trees and laying in dirt

i believe mother nature is in my room watching over me while i sleep

i put myself in very dangerous situations because i believe mother nature will not let me get hurt

i constantly feel like nothing is real at all and what i do during the day is a backround video for my thoughts

i cant explain the sensation, like im stuck inside my head and my physical actions feel out of my control

im deeply deeply lonely

not even incel lonely like truley lonely

i have no connection with ANYONE

even as a kid i never got picked up or had hugs due to my mothers schizophrenic delusions

 

[guttedd]

its just hit me how bad things are

this is like a moment of clarity

i unironically spend hours hugging trees and laying in dirt

i believe mother nature is in my room watching over me while i sleep

i put myself in very dangerous situations because i believe mother nature will not let me get hurt

i constantly feel like nothing is real at all and what i do during the day is a backround video for my thoughts

i cant explain the sensation, like im stuck inside my head and my physical actions feel out of my control

im deeply deeply lonely

not even incel lonely like truley lonely

i have no connection with ANYONE

even as a kid i never got picked up or had hugs due to my mothers schizophrenic delusions

I can be your friend bro!

 

[rick grimes]

mother nature doesn’t know you lil bro

 

[dipenhydramine]

I can be your friend bro!

thank you man

 

[crazyguy]

its just hit me how bad things are

this is like a moment of clarity

i unironically spend hours hugging trees and laying in dirt

i believe mother nature is in my room watching over me while i sleep

i put myself in very dangerous situations because i believe mother nature will not let me get hurt

i constantly feel like nothing is real at all and what i do during the day is a backround video for my thoughts

i cant explain the sensation, like im stuck inside my head and my physical actions feel out of my control

im deeply deeply lonely

not even incel lonely like truley lonely

i have no connection with ANYONE

even as a kid i never got picked up or had hugs due to my mothers schizophrenic delusions

You should really try to meet people, connections are a basic human need and you'll go insane without it

 

[dipenhydramine]

mother nature doesn’t know you lil bro

one time i was crying a lot and thinking about suicide and her voice there next to my bad thoughts telling me not to do it snd then i started apologizing profusely

 

[rick grimes]

one time i was crying a lot and thinking about suicide and her voice there next to my bad thoughts telling me not to do it snd then i started apologizing profusely

oh damn maybe she does know you

 

[dipenhydramine]

You should really try to meet people, connections are a basic human need and you'll go insane without it

i try so hard its not even like i dont want it

ive been trying for years but i cant make connections deeper than just friends. even the best friendship i had only talked to me in school

 

[User28823]

D I S S O C I A T I O N

 

[dipenhydramine]

D I S S O C I A T I O N

its making things feel bad

 

[crazyguy]

i try so hard its not even like i dont want it

ive been trying for years but i cant make connections deeper than just friends.

is there any specific reason for this?

 

[dipenhydramine]

please does anyone have any real advice

 

[kenibba]

im similar man, dpdr with semi schizo experiences sometimes and extreme introvertedness. do you do diphenhydramine? if you do dph it will only make it worse dude.

 

[dipenhydramine]

is there any specific reason for this?

no thats what ive been struggling with

idk how you guys percive me but im not a bad guy

im not hateful and im not creepy and im not weird

i respect people and their opinions

 

[guttedd]

thank you man

naw fr tho dm if u wanna talk man!

 

[dipenhydramine]

im similar man, dpdr with semi schizo experiences sometimes and extreme introvertedness. do you do diphenhydramine? if you do dph it will only make it worse dude.

i used to abuse it really bad when i was 15 to the point i was seeing things months after stopping

 

[crazyguy]

no thats what ive been struggling with

idk how you guys percive me but im not a bad guy

im not hateful and im not creepy and im not weird

i respect people and their opinions

dont worry bro, we see you as a good person

 

[dipenhydramine]

dont worry bro, we see you as a good person

thank you

 

[crazyguy]

thank you

do you currently use drugs?

 

[dipenhydramine]

do you currently use drugs?

not for a year

only nicotine before i sleep

 

[segmt]

i used to abuse it really bad when i was 15 to the point i was seeing things months after stopping

that explains it bro

don't mess with dph, it will get better with time just fix your health

quit nicotine quit everything any psychoactive drug makes it linger and delays recovery (at least for me)

 

[dipenhydramine]

that explains it bro

don't mess with dph, it will get better with time just fix your health

quit nicotine quit everything any psychoactive drug makes it linger and delays recovery (at least for me)

i will stop nicotine

i really regret the dph

 

[segmt]

Wait, I saw your mother was schizo.

You abused dph?

Schizophrenia is in your genetics, abusing psychedelics may bring the schizophrenia up to the surface or accelerate the process of it getting worse (getting triggered from your genetics), in that case you have to be treated or live with it

 

[dipenhydramine]

Wait, I saw your mother was schizo.

You abused dph?

Schizophrenia is in your genetics, abusing psychedelics may bring the schizophrenia up to the surface or accelerate the process of it getting worse (getting triggered from your genetics), in that case you have to be treated or live with it

i was thinking about going to a doctor

i have had delusional thoughts but usually i catch them ykwim but some slip by sometimes

 

[pope]

i asked around your hood, nobody knows you nigga

 

[dipenhydramine]

i asked around your hood, nobody knows you nigga
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you should hug one

you will be suprised by the enrtgy you feel

 

[crazyguy]

not for a year

only nicotine before i sleep

Well, my advice is that you stop using nicotine and that you somehow find someone to connect with. You're not a bad guy at all so I doubt that it would be extremely difficult. The fact that you're out in nature is a good thing but you've become too dependent on it because it's the only thing you know and interact with.

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

Hey Man, some would say you’re living life to the fullest.

It’s better to be connected to nature than to rot home.

For you being lonely? Are you in school? Do you work a job?
Try to do something where you’ll meet people, maybe gym or join a club

 

[dipenhydramine]

Well, my advice is that you stop using nicotine and that you somehow find someone to connect with. You're not a bad guy at all so I doubt that it would be extremely difficult. The fact that you're out in nature is a good thing but you've become too dependent on it because it's the only thing you know and interact with.

do you have advice for connecting with people

 

[segmt]

i was thinking about going to a doctor

i have had delusional thoughts but usually i catch them ykwim but some slip by sometimes

Yeah the DPH definitely made it worse, you have the genetic base for it

It MAY get worse, may not, you don't know. But psychedelics will make it get worse. You're genetically predisposed to it.

It's also important to go to the right psychologist, the ones I went to were faggots and didn't give out proper advice, they just wanted to prescribe medication and get money. They did not understand shit.

They just go to med school for the money and forget all the shit they learned there,, and their job then is to just say wtv that makes them money

It's a jew system

Nicotine and psychoactive drugs increase the risk of getting schizophrenia, and you have the genetic base, I would avoid it man.

 

[dipenhydramine]

Hey Man, some would say you’re living life to the fullest.

It’s better to be connected to nature than to rot home.

For you being lonely? Are you in school? Do you work a job?
Try to do something where you’ll meet people, maybe gym or join a club

i am on summer break rn snd lost my job

i will start the gym when i get money but even when i used to go it felt lonely

everything just feels devioid of people

 

[dipenhydramine]

Yeah the DPH definitely made it worse, you have the genetic base for it

It MAY get worse, may not, you don't know. But psychedelics will make it get worse. You're genetically predisposed to it.

It's also important to go to the right psychologist, the ones I went to were faggots and didn't give out proper advice, they just wanted to prescribe medication and get money. They did not understand shit.

They just go to med school for the money and forget all the shit they learned there,, and their job then is to just say wtv that makes them money

It's a jew system

Nicotine and psychoactive drugs increase the risk of getting schizophrenia, and you have the genetic base, I would avoid it man.

ill avoid drugs

i will speak with doctors next week and see what they think

thank you for taking time to write sll that out

 

[segmt]

do you have advice for connecting with people

Get a hobby (hard to do in dp/dr state or in apathy) or at least something, like if you have any friends play basketball with them
physical activity usually distracts you from it a bit

anything man
skateboard, anything

 

[dipenhydramine]

Get a hobby (hard to do in dp/dr state or in apathy) or at least something, like if you have any friends play basketball with them
physical activity usually distracts you from it a bit

anything man
skateboard, anything

i go on long hikes

 

[dipenhydramine]

Get a hobby (hard to do in dp/dr state or in apathy) or at least something, like if you have any friends play basketball with them
physical activity usually distracts you from it a bit

anything man
skateboard, anything

and photography

 

[crazyguy]

do you have advice for connecting with people

i wish i could help you with that, i cant connect with people either but its for other reasons obviously

 

[dipenhydramine]

i wish i could help you with that, i cant connect with people either but its for other reasons obviously

thats ok

i dont think you are a bad person either so that cant be your issue

 

[segmt]

and photography

you enjoy it bro?

go hiking every day, but tbh hiking I prefer alone

You might want to find hiking groups or something, or share your photography, etc..
Common interest is a good way to connect with other people

In my case during dpdr though I couldn't connect with people besides things that I truly considered fun (which just came in the moment, it stopped my overthinking just for that moment, it's like actually "living in the moment") then it brought me back to my derealized, apathetic self.

Thats why I emphasized physical activity, adrenaline would get rid of the derealization a bit

Find other people that like to hike? dk man. Or make friends at your job, etc..

 

[crazyguy]

thats ok

i dont think you are a bad person either so that cant be your issue

Well its not like I have no connections at all, I do have some friends. But what I usually do is just talk about others about my interests (these are sometimes larped) and it makes the conversation flow easily, that's the advice I can give you regarding friendships. If you want a romantic connection with someone then I genuinely can't help you at all bro

 

[dipenhydramine]

you enjoy it bro?

go hiking every day, but tbh hiking I prefer alone

You might want to find hiking groups or something, or share your photography, etc..
Common interest is a good way to connect with other people

In my case during dpdr though I couldn't connect with people besides things that I truly considered fun (which just came in the moment, it stopped my overthinking just for that moment, it's like actually "living in the moment") then it brought me back to my derealized, apathetic self.

Thats why I emphasized physical activity, adrenaline would get rid of the derealization a bit

Find other people that like to hike? dk man. Or make friends at your job, etc..

i seek adrenaline a lot

i like to climb electrical towers and tall things and go to scary places at dark but it never goes away

i share my photography on insta but nobody sees it lmfao

but thanks man than you a llt

 

[dipenhydramine]

Well its not like I have no connections at all, I do have some friends. But what I usually do is just talk about others about my interests (these are sometimes larped) and it makes the conversation flow easily, that's the advice I can give you regarding friendships. If you want a romantic connection with someone then I genuinely can't help you at all bro

i dont even want romantic just a friendship

i will have to larp some NT hobbies

or is it bettet to just be real about what i like

 

[segmt]

i seek adrenaline a lot

i like to climb electrical towers and tall things and go to scary places at dark but it never goes away

i share my photography on insta but nobody sees it lmfao

but thanks man than you a llt

when you are doing the thing that gives you adrenaline, it doesn't go away?

like when you are climbing a tall tower and are about to fall, you are definitely not dissociated, at least in that moment
sure after you reach your goal it might come back
but it gets lighter

and you think about what you did, not about your disassociation

just do what you like, larping nt hobbies made it worse and made me not want to do it

 

[dipenhydramine]

when you are doing the thing that gives you adrenaline, it doesn't go away?

like when you are climbing a tall tower and are about to fall, you are definitely not dissociated, at least in that moment
sure after you reach your goal it might come back
but it gets lighter

and you think about what you did, not about your disassociation

just do what you like, larping nt hobbies made it worse and made me not want to do it

no it doesnt go away at all

i feel the urge to live but that feeling that im watching a video or something is still there

even going fast on a motorbike i do dangerous things but there isnt fear and its sorta like autopilot but also not idk how to explain it

 

[crazyguy]

i dont even want romantic just a friendship

i will have to larp some NT hobbies

or is it bettet to just be real about what i like

you said that you like hiking and phorography, those are pretty nt

 

[segmt]

no it doesnt go away at all

i feel the urge to live but that feeling that im watching a video or something is still there

even going fast on a motorbike i do dangerous things but there isnt fear and its sorta like autopilot but also not idk how to explain it

yeah that was me when the derealization was at its peak
like a video game, everythings like a video game and seems 3rd person, and seeing random shit

I see it man

The only way out is time, tbh then. Fix your health and it'll heal over time, just quit the nicotine and find out more about your schizophrenia situation. The only way to go.

When the dissociation wears off a bit, therell come a time where the adrenaline gets rid of it and you only have it when you are sedentary

good luck man, just needs time

 

[segmt]

yeah that was me when the derealization was at its peak
like a video game, everythings like a video game and seems 3rd person, and seeing random shit

I see it man

The only way out is time, tbh then. Fix your health and it'll heal over time, just quit the nicotine and find out more about your schizophrenia situation. The only way to go.

When the dissociation wears off a bit, therell come a time where the adrenaline gets rid of it and you only have it when you are sedentary

good luck man, just needs time

then it'll heal eventually and go away mostly, besides anxious situations.

 

[dipenhydramine]

yeah that was me when the derealization was at its peak
like a video game, everythings like a video game and seems 3rd person, and seeing random shit

I see it man

The only way out is time, tbh then. Fix your health and it'll heal over time, just quit the nicotine and find out more about your schizophrenia situation. The only way to go.

When the dissociation wears off a bit, therell come a time where the adrenaline gets rid of it and you only have it when you are sedentary

good luck man, just needs time

good luck to you to

thanks man

i love u no homo