I realize just how damaged I really am

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I don't feel the need to be with anyone anymore. For the past nine years, I was experiencing grief and I guess I was hoping to heal. But the more time passed without getting any help, the number I grew and now I don't feel anything anymore. And so I have lost the desire to be with anyone. I don't care about dating, I don't care about marrying, I don't care about being ugly, I don't care about anything. It's all pointless and meaningless to me now. I would get a dog or any other kind of pet but I have been alone for so long that I don't think I could live with anyone else or anything else. But it's ok. One day I'll be dead and gone and none of this will matter.
 
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Day After Christmas GIF by Miss Kick
 
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I don't feel the need to be with anyone anymore. For the past nine years, I was experiencing grief and I guess I was hoping to heal. But the more time passed without getting any help, the number I grew and now I don't feel anything anymore. And so I have lost the desire to be with anyone. I don't care about dating, I don't care about marrying, I don't care about being ugly, I don't care about anything. It's all pointless and meaningless to me now. I would get a dog or any other kind of pet but I have been alone for so long that I don't think I could live with anyone else or anything else. But it's ok. One day I'll be dead and gone and none of this will matter.
Get a parrot who talks back. Tell the bird every day that sad conclusion. Let's see what happens! Let's see what it repeats.
 
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i fr need to get some hoes i want a gf i need to change something i hope after new year i will find someone for myself
 
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mgtow mog
 
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i fr need to get some hoes i want a gf i need to change something i hope after new year i will find someone for myself
Yes, please get yourself a partner. Now it’s not too late for you.
 
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Nigga don't feel that bad for yourself

You aren't making 50 BOTB guides on the Forum with AI and then begging users to vote for you on some incel trophy
 
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Nigga don't feel that bad for yourself

You aren't making 50 BOTB guides on the Forum with AI and then begging users to vote for you on some incel trophy
Even something as simple as that is enough to lifemog me. :feelshaha::feelshaha:
 
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I don't feel the need to be with anyone anymore. For the past nine years, I was experiencing grief and I guess I was hoping to heal. But the more time passed without getting any help, the number I grew and now I don't feel anything anymore. And so I have lost the desire to be with anyone. I don't care about dating, I don't care about marrying, I don't care about being ugly, I don't care about anything. It's all pointless and meaningless to me now. I would get a dog or any other kind of pet but I have been alone for so long that I don't think I could live with anyone else or anything else. But it's ok. One day I'll be dead and gone and none of this will matter.
It has always been pointless and meaningless bro
 
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Yes, please get yourself a partner. Now it’s not too late for you.
its getting kinda late for me i will be 26 next year
 
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Sorry you are not sigma
 
Very relatable.

I had some vigour and energy in me a couple years ago after I 'ascended' in looks, but once everything failed, I lost all interest to do anything anymore.

Too much time being completely alone and disconnected, has made this the new normal.
 
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post face or larp
 
I don't feel the need to be with anyone anymore. For the past nine years, I was experiencing grief and I guess I was hoping to heal. But the more time passed without getting any help, the number I grew and now I don't feel anything anymore. And so I have lost the desire to be with anyone. I don't care about dating, I don't care about marrying, I don't care about being ugly, I don't care about anything. It's all pointless and meaningless to me now. I would get a dog or any other kind of pet but I have been alone for so long that I don't think I could live with anyone else or anything else. But it's ok. One day I'll be dead and gone and none of this will matter.
Literally me. It's so over
 
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I don't feel the need to be with anyone anymore. For the past nine years, I was experiencing grief and I guess I was hoping to heal. But the more time passed without getting any help, the number I grew and now I don't feel anything anymore. And so I have lost the desire to be with anyone. I don't care about dating, I don't care about marrying, I don't care about being ugly, I don't care about anything. It's all pointless and meaningless to me now. I would get a dog or any other kind of pet but I have been alone for so long that I don't think I could live with anyone else or anything else. But it's ok. One day I'll be dead and gone and none of this will matter.
Let Allah fix u bhai.
 
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Very relatable.

I had some vigour and energy in me a couple years ago after I 'ascended' in looks, but once everything failed, I lost all interest to do anything anymore.

Too much time being completely alone and disconnected, has made this the new normal.
Damnit, brother. That sucks to hear. :feelsbadman: Wish you couldn’t relate, in all fairness. This drains everything out of you. :feelsbadman:
 
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I don’t LARP.
Surgery bhai. Only forbidden surgery is changing the fitrah, transgenderism or causing harm to the body I showed via Quranic ayahs. Yoy are restoring the way Allah meant you to be made
 
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God has abandoned me. There’s no hope.
Allah never abandoned you bro, do u have discord so we can chat? U seem deep in the gutter
 
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I don't feel the need to be with anyone anymore. For the past nine years, I was experiencing grief and I guess I was hoping to heal. But the more time passed without getting any help, the number I grew and now I don't feel anything anymore. And so I have lost the desire to be with anyone. I don't care about dating, I don't care about marrying, I don't care about being ugly, I don't care about anything. It's all pointless and meaningless to me now. I would get a dog or any other kind of pet but I have been alone for so long that I don't think I could live with anyone else or anything else. But it's ok. One day I'll be dead and gone and none of this will matter.
Ingesting your like me

I even said to my family I no longer have desire to look I don’t want to look and I have blanked every girl who has messaged me.

I’m officially done and it’s not on some incel shit I just have 0 interest now

I dream of death daily. Without prayer my depression makes me just not wanna leave bed at all. I just play video games and chill and even they piss me off as my mods are giving me issues.

The devil has been fucking me over pushing me too the edge recently. Mods braking down, losing earphones, arguments, sickness etc I’m at my breaking point and yet I must go on

I just wanna die and meet god I’m done
 
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Surgery bhai. Only forbidden surgery is changing the fitrah, transgenderism or causing harm to the body I showed via Quranic ayahs. Yoy are restoring the way Allah meant you to be made
Well, I’m past the point of caring. Thanks for trying to help though. :D
 
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Well, I’m past the point of caring. Thanks for trying to help though. :D
Allah guides who wants to be guided. Your choice buddy
 
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Allah never abandoned you bro, do u have discord so we can chat? U seem deep in the gutter
Yes, I have discord, but it’s on my other phone. Don’t worry, I’m not depressed or anything. Just went through a series of events and learned my lesson the hard way.
 
I hope one day you can finally wake up bhai. BP isn't as prevalent irl as most of us here thinks. Believe in you bhai.
 
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Ingesting your like me

I even said to my family I no longer have desire to look I don’t want to look and I have blanked every girl who has messaged me.

I’m officially done and it’s not on some incel shit I just have 0 interest now
That’s genuinely me, I’ve had girls in the past saying they want to marry me and stuff but I don’t feel anything. I’m just not interested. I’m empty. I’m sure you relate.
 
Allah guides who wants to be guided. Your choice buddy
It is not a matter of choosing, it is fate. God guides who He wants.
 
Unfortunately this is the reality for most men especially in sub5 category, this is a living without the presence, some people got everything and some people are starving, you will never feel good about your life, you were born to suffer and experience pain, you will die alone, your copes will become less and less potent, until you'll become comepletely numb
 
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ofc once u are moderator on org its over
 
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That’s genuinely me, I’ve had girls in the past saying they want to marry me and stuff but I don’t feel anything. I’m just not interested. I’m empty. I’m sure you relate.
I updated my previous comment with more shit go read the edit. I just have 0 intrest, like 0. I no longer care I don’t even want that companionship I have 0 drive for it I don’t even wanna speak to my friends I just wanna be left alone to game in peace.
 
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I hope one day you can finally wake up bhai. BP isn't as prevalent irl as most of us here thinks. Believe in you bhai.
Thank you, my friend. It’s got nothing to do with the blackpill, though. Or like @PrinceLuenLeoncur says, it’s about being incel either. Our brains/minds are just too far gone at this point.
 
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Damnit, brother. That sucks to hear. :feelsbadman: Wish you couldn’t relate, in all fairness. This drains everything out of you. :feelsbadman:
It's brutal because I was a normal kid / early teen. So I know what a normal life is supposed to feel like.

How good feelings feel like, how friendships feel, being in love, being excited, looking forward to the future, looking forward to the weekend, everything.

I had all of that. And then I lost it. And now I am lost.

What can we even do. Already in the ward for 7 months, dndo nuffin
 
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I updated my previous comment with more shit go read the edit. I just have 0 intrest, like 0. I no longer care I don’t even want that companionship I have 0 drive for it I don’t even wanna speak to my friends I just wanna be left alone to game in peace.
I’ll go back and read it. But yeah, I know exactly what you’re feeling. I’m the same way. I want to stay at home and indulge in my copes, let the time pass and wait for my end to come. Naturally, though.
 
I dream of death daily. Without prayer my depression makes me just not wanna leave bed at all. I just play video games and chill and even they piss me off as my mods are giving me issues.

The devil has been fucking me over pushing me too the edge recently. Mods braking down, losing earphones, arguments, sickness etc I’m at my breaking point and yet I must go on

I just wanna die and meet god I’m done
We have to wait it out, ride the wave until it subsides naturally. Let’s hang in there. We got this.
 
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Unfortunately this is the reality for most men especially in sub5 category, this is a living without the presence, some people got everything and some people are starving, you will never feel good about your life, you were born to suffer and experience pain, you will die alone, your copes will become less and less potent, until you'll become comepletely numb
A brutal reality of life.
 
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The doomer mentality is un quranic buddy:

Something that is often repeated is that God guides who He wants. It’s clear that I am not a part of that. It’s got nothing to do with being a doomer, my friend. God has blessed me with a brain and I’m using it.
 
It's brutal because I was a normal kid / early teen. So I know what a normal life is supposed to feel like.

How good feelings feel like, how friendship feels like, being in love, being excited, looking forward to the future, looking forward to the weekend, everything.

I had all of that. And then I lost it. And now I am lost.

What can we even do. Already in the ward for 7 months, dndo nuffin
Well, if it makes you feel better — at least you had that. You experienced those things. I never did and I never will. Once it’s gone it’s never coming back.
 
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A brutal reality of life.
There’s no point even having these gay type of nihilistic GAYtheistic esque outlooks I just acknowledge I was born wrong era wrong body wrong generation and therefore I’m cooked and there’s nothing I can do about it. That’s how it is. Honestly if I was a GAYtheist I’d prob had roped I have 0 idea how those faggots cope :lul:no wonder cumskins SUI so much they are all Gaytheists
 
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Idk if you're willing but if you geomax your life might literally.
 
Better days are coming, hang in there
 
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There’s no point even having these gay type of nihilistic GAYtheistic esque outlooks I just acknowledge I was born wrong era wrong body wrong generation and therefore I’m cooked and there’s nothing I can do about it. That’s how it is. Honestly if I was a GAYtheist I’d prob had roped I have 0 idea how those faggots cope :lul:no wonder cumskins SUI so much they are all Gaytheists
“That’s how it is.” Well said. Many religious people become atheist or whatever because they weren’t blessed like they wanted to be. For selfish reasons like these, many have embraced the concept of God not existing. One should not turn to atheism for these things, it’s so childish if you ask me. “God no make me chad, God no real!” Oh well, at the end of the day it’s their life, perhaps someday they’ll be guided again by the All-Merciful.
 
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