User28823
do not go gentle into that good night
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after some fatty scolded me for constantly sitting at a cafeteria table where a childhood friend of mine sat at, but never talking (he wasn't wrong), i stopped sitting there and sat at the table next to it instead, alone
and then that turned into sitting alone at the table 3 tables apart from that, excluded from everyone in the cafeteria during a periods of slow traffic / empty cafeteria, making the loneliness hit even harder
on packed days, i would arrive early, sit at a table, and then get swarmed by a bunch of blacks and be the only white guy at the table, sometimes even getting dabbed up by blacks thinking i was part of the crew (i wasnt)
the worst part was after i was done eating, i didnt have anything to do, so i just sat and stared around, messing with my plate - as they didn't allow u to leave the cafeteria
this happened for 3 years until i turned senior and could leave school before lunch, free from that agony
but at least gymcelling worked, the hs football coach asked me why i dont play on the football team
no football for autism, i told him.
and then that turned into sitting alone at the table 3 tables apart from that, excluded from everyone in the cafeteria during a periods of slow traffic / empty cafeteria, making the loneliness hit even harder
on packed days, i would arrive early, sit at a table, and then get swarmed by a bunch of blacks and be the only white guy at the table, sometimes even getting dabbed up by blacks thinking i was part of the crew (i wasnt)
the worst part was after i was done eating, i didnt have anything to do, so i just sat and stared around, messing with my plate - as they didn't allow u to leave the cafeteria
this happened for 3 years until i turned senior and could leave school before lunch, free from that agony
but at least gymcelling worked, the hs football coach asked me why i dont play on the football team
no football for autism, i told him.