I saw my coworker die and i didn't feel anything

[Balkanmogger1446]

This isn't a troll or corny attempt at attention seeking, basically what happend is my 56 yo coworker died of a heart attack it happend in front of me and my boss we tried to save him but i knew he was a goner when i saw him choking on his spit, the ambulance arrived after 10 minutes after his faint
And they tried saving him using machines and adrenaline shots but he was already gone, i couldn't feel anything only after they pronounced him dead i started to sob a little but only for about 10 seconds, then my friend offered me a ride home and told me after adrenaline kicks off I'm gonna feel it but even after 8 hours i don't feel anything and it feels like any other day is this normal or am i mentally unwell?


Tldr:coworker died in front of my eyes, didn't feel anything except a 10 second sob and the rest of my day was normal.

 

[Vermilioncore]

well no shit he’s not your dad or best friend why would you care

 

[Balkanmogger1446]

well no shit he’s not your dad or best friend why would you care

Knew him for like a year he was a nice guy and he thought me some stuff at work. But i get your point

 

[apocalypse]

well no shit he’s not your dad or best friend why would you care

 

[anxiety]

This isn't a troll or corny attempt at attention seeking, basically what happend is my 56 yo coworker died of a heart attack it happend in front of me and my boss we tried to save him but i knew he was a goner when i saw him choking on his spit, the ambulance arrived after 10 minutes after his faint
And they tried saving him using machines and adrenaline shots but he was already gone, i couldn't feel anything only after they pronounced him dead i started to sob a little but only for about 10 seconds, then my friend offered me a ride home and told me after adrenaline kicks off I'm gonna feel it but even after 8 hours i don't feel anything and it feels like any other day is this normal or am i mentally unwell?


Tldr:coworker died in front of my eyes, didn't feel anything except a 10 second sob and the rest of my day was normal.

Average or mb slightly lower level of empathy. The are rare cases of highly empathetic people who would actually care about random people death.

 

[Idris Kamracu]

well no shit he’s not your dad or best friend why would you care

Heart of ice

 

[Balkanmogger1446]

Average or mb slightly lower level of empathy. The are rare cases of highly empathetic people who would actually care about random people death.

Compared to me, my boss and people around were crying, shaking and my boss even broke down as he knew the guy for well over 20+ years, in fact he wasn't actually a real coworker he was just a friend who would come to help us out at work to pass his time as he is retired from his original job. He was heavily ill aswell as he had 4 surgeries, and was taking heavy dosed of meds every day.

 

[solpafanima]

Average or mb slightly lower level of empathy. The are rare cases of highly empathetic people who would actually care about random people death.

I killed someone twice

 

[anxiety]

I killed someone twice

What weapon did you use?

 

[solpafanima]

What weapon did you use?

a knife and a machete, I wanna use a gun the next time.

 

[anxiety]

a knife and a machete, I wanna use a gun the next time.

Why not flamethrower?

 

[solpafanima]

wh

Compared to me, my boss and people around were crying, shaking and my boss even broke down as he knew the guy for well over 20+ years, in fact he wasn't actually a real coworker he was just a friend who would come to help us out at work to pass his time as he is retired from his original job. He was heavily ill aswell as he had 4 surgeries, and was taking heavy dosed of meds every day.

ha what a loser

 

[solpafanima]

Why not flamethrower?

where the fuck would I get a flamethrower

 

[anxiety]

where the fuck would I get a flamethrower

Deodorant + lighter easy
And your poor victim would suffer for hours probably

 

[solpafanima]

Deodorant + lighter easy
And your poor victim would suffer for hours probably

can you dm me? maybe we can talk more about some similar things

 

[trench]

This isn't a troll or corny attempt at attention seeking, basically what happend is my 56 yo coworker died of a heart attack it happend in front of me and my boss we tried to save him but i knew he was a goner when i saw him choking on his spit, the ambulance arrived after 10 minutes after his faint
And they tried saving him using machines and adrenaline shots but he was already gone, i couldn't feel anything only after they pronounced him dead i started to sob a little but only for about 10 seconds, then my friend offered me a ride home and told me after adrenaline kicks off I'm gonna feel it but even after 8 hours i don't feel anything and it feels like any other day is this normal or am i mentally unwell?


Tldr:coworker died in front of my eyes, didn't feel anything except a 10 second sob and the rest of my day was normal.

wow

 

[lurking truecel]

Its not cool to feel no sympathy, just means ypur own life is so useless that ypu cant bother to care about someone elses because of your own deep despair

 

[ascending birdcel]

Its not cool to feel no sympathy, just means ypur own life is so useless that ypu cant bother to care about someone elses because of your own deep despair

Might be autism too

 

[lurking truecel]

Might be autism too

Proves my point, because authism is brain damage so obv you dont have time to think about others when your brain is litteraly deformed

 

[ascending birdcel]

Proves my point, because authism is brain damage so obv you dont have time to think about others when your brain is litteraly deformed

Well yes some parts of ur brain do not work properly but you are born with it most of the time

 

[lurking truecel]

Well yes some parts of ur brain do not work properly but you are born with it most of the tim

Yes but the main thing is that its just sad. No postive to dont feel anything apart drom being a in your own delusion land and misery

 

[ascending birdcel]

Yes but the main thing is that its just sad. No postive to dont feel anything apart drom being a in your own delusion land and misery

Sure you have some strong points like hyperfixation and excelling in niche stuff hobbiess etc.. but the rest is a tragedy

 

[lurking truecel]

Sure you have some strong points like hyperfixation and excelling in niche stuff hobbiess etc.. but the rest is a tragedy

Hyperfixate for what, being a working dog for a society ypu dont even belong and being gaslighted into to thinking ypu like the stuff you sre doing because you never experienced true belonging else where. Yea indeed sad, damn your pfp looks like a botched dog

 

[ascending birdcel]

Hyperfixate for what, being a working dog for a society ypu dont even belong and being gaslighted into to thinking ypu like the stuff you sre doing because you never experienced true belonging else where. Yea indeed sad, damn your pfp looks like a botched dog

Of course , it's def a deficit overall . It is a nightmare to be NT and you'll feel like an alien in every social situation pretty much over if you are NV

 

[lurking truecel]

Of course , it's def a deficit overall . It is a nightmare to be NT and you'll feel like an alien in every social situation pretty much over if you are NV

You are not nt if you feel like alien. But you be nt and feel that you sre ugly and recognize people hating on you. But if you feel like a alien you are probably authistic

 

[ascending birdcel]

You are not nt if you feel like alien. But you be nt and feel that you sre ugly and recognize people hating on you. But if you feel like a alien you are probably authistic

I am autistic , i have high cognition but i am retarded socially wise

 

[lurking truecel]

I am autistic , i have high cognition but i am retarded socially wise

You are retarded in other words. And time over to get better at other stuff

 

[ascending birdcel]

You are retarded in other words. And time over to get better at other stuff

Just in social environments but ye it's pretty heavy to deal with

 

[Bitchwhipper2]

Its not cool to feel no sympathy, just means ypur own life is so useless that ypu cant bother to care about someone elses because of your own deep despair

The dude is obviously not trying to act cool

 

[lurking truecel]

Just in social environments but ye it's pretty heavy to deal with

So your main thing in life is to hide in a basement ? Sounds sad

 

[Bitchwhipper2]

You are retarded in other words. And time over to get better at other stuff

Why are you such a dick bro

 

[lurking truecel]

Why are you such a dick bro

I am just trying to make him understand that being autistic and has no advantages. He seem to cope

 

[ascending birdcel]

Why are you such a dick bro

He's projecting so hard

 

[ascending birdcel]

I am just trying to make him understand that being autistic and has no advantages. He seem to cope

I am fairly convinced you are too and never said it is an advantage tho

 

[lurking truecel]

I am fairly convinced you are too and never said it is an advantage tho

I am not authistic you bread head

 

[Bitchwhipper2]

I am just trying to make him understand that being autistic and has no advantages. He seem to cope

Maybe, maybe not. But either way youre being a dick about it.

Its obvious that youre trying to insult him and then calling it "muh cold facts"

 

[lurking truecel]

Maybe so. But either way youre being a dick about it.

Its obvious that youre trying to insult him and then calling it "muh cold facts"

I am not educating a young fellow who is coping snd trying to convince himself its all good to be a outcast when its not.

 

[ascending birdcel]

Maybe, maybe not. But either way youre being a dick about it.

Its obvious that youre trying to insult him and then calling it "muh cold facts"

I literally said it is a deficit , it's objective the guy is in ragebaiting mode cause incel/neet rage

 

[anxiety]

Its not cool to feel no sympathy, just means ypur own life is so useless that ypu cant bother to care about someone elses because of your own deep despair

You can be born with low empathy level, cause your amygdala is not functioning properly, thats how psychopathy works. You may also be born with normal emapthy level, but after going through some horrible shit in life you start drowning in permanent hatred towards world, society and yourself. At some point you start deny or own feelings and emapthy, become pragmatic 2-faced and egocentric, thats how sociopathy and some cases of narcissism works. At some point you start experiencing gloat, because you cant stand feeling yourself alone in your despair anymore. I legit remember when i was in a depression and read about young people canser cases and felt pure pleasure realising that there are people existing in more horrible circumstances then me. I dont think that being low empathy or outcast is cool or whatever, anyway when the world hates you, its kinda natural when you hate it back. The main point that you shoud start loving yourself and progress any means necessary, embracing your survival instinct. Thats why i dont really blame people like Jeffrey Dahmer. Ofcourse the system shoud isolate such people, because they are dangerous, but i dont really blame them anyway

 

[lurking truecel]

You can be born with low empathy level, cause your amygdala is not functioning properly, thats how psychopathy works. You may also be born with normal emapthy level, but after going through some horrible shit in life you start drowning in permanent hatred towards world, society and yourself. At some point you start deny or own feelings and emapthy, become pragmatic 2-faced and egocentric, thats how sociopathy and some cases of narcissism works. At some point you start experiencing gloat, because you cant stand feeling yourself alone in your despair anymore. I legit remember when i was in a depression and read about young people canser cases and felt pure pleasure realising that there are people existing in more horrible circumstances then me. I dont think that being low empathy or outcast is cool or whatever, anyway when the world hates you, its kinda natural when you hate it back. The main point that you shoud start loving yourself and progress any means necessary, embracing your survival instinct. Thats why i dont really blame people like Jeffrey Dahmer. Ofcourse the system shoud isolate such people, because they are dangerous, but i dont really blame them anyway

Ugly is ugly, braindamage is braindamage

 

[anxiety]

Ugly is ugly, braindamage is braindamage

You shoud learn to live with this somehow

 

[badexilw]

This isn't a troll or corny attempt at attention seeking, basically what happend is my 56 yo coworker died of a heart attack it happend in front of me and my boss we tried to save him but i knew he was a goner when i saw him choking on his spit, the ambulance arrived after 10 minutes after his faint
And they tried saving him using machines and adrenaline shots but he was already gone, i couldn't feel anything only after they pronounced him dead i started to sob a little but only for about 10 seconds, then my friend offered me a ride home and told me after adrenaline kicks off I'm gonna feel it but even after 8 hours i don't feel anything and it feels like any other day is this normal or am i mentally unwell?


Tldr:coworker died in front of my eyes, didn't feel anything except a 10 second sob and the rest of my day was normal.

it s normal

 

[lurking truecel]

You shoud learn to live with this somehow

No other choice is there

 

[thereallegend]

He was heavily ill aswell as he had 4 surgeries, and was taking heavy dosed of meds every day.

Hard to feel sympathy for such people when we get socially shunned for being healthy.