I shouldve Killed myself a long time ago

[Aqualad]

IOIs before calling

i was at a thai restaurant and this girl comes up to me saying her friend wants my instagram, im like okay finally my surgeries and leanmaxxing paid off. for reference ive been 30% bodyfat my entire life and recently got to 14%. everythings going well until i finally call her and have to reveal my neurodivergent creature self where i cant hide behind text messages. To be honest I thought it went okay but ofcourse it didnt and im just delusional. she was complimenting my selfies a lot so i thought maybe she could look past it

after calling She ended up doing the whole dry texting shabang shit where she responds with "haha" or "lol" which is basically the same as ghosting me

you cannot even fathom the level of existential despair of realizing that even if a foid manages to be attracted to me im so deeply fundamentally offputting that it will turn everything to shit. I dont know why I didnt just rope and instead chose to get surgeries and looksmax like im already mentally fucked from the severe insecurity i carry

 

[Chance]

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i was at a thai restaurant and this girl comes up to me saying her friend wants my instagram, im like okay finally my surgeries and leanmaxxing paid off. for reference ive been 30% bodyfat my entire life and recently got to 14%. everythings going well until i finally call her and have to reveal my neurodivergent creature self where i cant hide behind text messages. To be honest I thought it went okay but ofcourse it didnt and im just delusional. she was complimenting my selfies a lot so i thought maybe she could look past it

after calling She ended up doing the whole dry texting shabang shit where she responds with "haha" or "lol" which is basically the same as ghosting me

you cannot even fathom the level of existential despair of realizing that even if a foid manages to be attracted to me im so deeply fundamentally offputting that it will turn everything to shit. I dont know why I didnt just rope and instead chose to get surgeries and looksmax like im already mentally fucked from the severe insecurity i carry

Why’d u call her

 

[Aqualad]

Why’d u call her

thought it would make me like her more. was feeling confident after the compliments

 

[herondaye_2.0]

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i was at a thai restaurant and this girl comes up to me saying her friend wants my instagram, im like okay finally my surgeries and leanmaxxing paid off. for reference ive been 30% bodyfat my entire life and recently got to 14%. everythings going well until i finally call her and have to reveal my neurodivergent creature self where i cant hide behind text messages. To be honest I thought it went okay but ofcourse it didnt and im just delusional. she was complimenting my selfies a lot so i thought maybe she could look past it

after calling She ended up doing the whole dry texting shabang shit where she responds with "haha" or "lol" which is basically the same as ghosting me

you cannot even fathom the level of existential despair of realizing that even if a foid manages to be attracted to me im so deeply fundamentally offputting that it will turn everything to shit. I dont know why I didnt just rope and instead chose to get surgeries and looksmax like im already mentally fucked from the severe insecurity i carry

Can I see what u look like u mentioned surgery i plan on hardmaxing when I turned older can I js see what u look like like a before and after

 

[snuggylion5]

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i was at a thai restaurant and this girl comes up to me saying her friend wants my instagram, im like okay finally my surgeries and leanmaxxing paid off. for reference ive been 30% bodyfat my entire life and recently got to 14%. everythings going well until i finally call her and have to reveal my neurodivergent creature self where i cant hide behind text messages. To be honest I thought it went okay but ofcourse it didnt and im just delusional. she was complimenting my selfies a lot so i thought maybe she could look past it

after calling She ended up doing the whole dry texting shabang shit where she responds with "haha" or "lol" which is basically the same as ghosting me

you cannot even fathom the level of existential despair of realizing that even if a foid manages to be attracted to me im so deeply fundamentally offputting that it will turn everything to shit. I dont know why I didnt just rope and instead chose to get surgeries and looksmax like im already mentally fucked from the severe insecurity i carry

They just want to feel superior " look at this guy i ghosted" beat them so they dont get an ego

 

[AscensionMan98]

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i was at a thai restaurant and this girl comes up to me saying her friend wants my instagram, im like okay finally my surgeries and leanmaxxing paid off. for reference ive been 30% bodyfat my entire life and recently got to 14%. everythings going well until i finally call her and have to reveal my neurodivergent creature self where i cant hide behind text messages. To be honest I thought it went okay but ofcourse it didnt and im just delusional. she was complimenting my selfies a lot so i thought maybe she could look past it

after calling She ended up doing the whole dry texting shabang shit where she responds with "haha" or "lol" which is basically the same as ghosting me

you cannot even fathom the level of existential despair of realizing that even if a foid manages to be attracted to me im so deeply fundamentally offputting that it will turn everything to shit. I dont know why I didnt just rope and instead chose to get surgeries and looksmax like im already mentally fucked from the severe insecurity i carry

You need to train yourself to be cold blooded. Fuck these stupid whores. Their silly robots hive minded

Next time your texting a foid keep it short , use it to just plan the date and text the day before to confirm plans. Then re confirm a few hours before.

If the foid flakes after that analyze the excuse. If she reschedules and offers for a different date then it might be a legit flake, otherwise she just put you down nicely or is seeing some other dude. At that point not high chances foid will actually meet

 

[GoyLite]

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i was at a thai restaurant and this girl comes up to me saying her friend wants my instagram, im like okay finally my surgeries and leanmaxxing paid off. for reference ive been 30% bodyfat my entire life and recently got to 14%. everythings going well until i finally call her and have to reveal my neurodivergent creature self where i cant hide behind text messages. To be honest I thought it went okay but ofcourse it didnt and im just delusional. she was complimenting my selfies a lot so i thought maybe she could look past it

after calling She ended up doing the whole dry texting shabang shit where she responds with "haha" or "lol" which is basically the same as ghosting me

you cannot even fathom the level of existential despair of realizing that even if a foid manages to be attracted to me im so deeply fundamentally offputting that it will turn everything to shit. I dont know why I didnt just rope and instead chose to get surgeries and looksmax like im already mentally fucked from the severe insecurity i carry

foid=devil

 

[looksovernt]

Exact same thing happened with my crush it's soul crushing