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The world just seems to be becoming less and less friendly to trans people constantly. You've got anti-trans legislation being pushed, constant asinine narratives being pushed, and people refusing to try to understand what it means to be trans and how gender dysphoria is something you're born with. I've been really down the past couple of days for reasons any trans person or UK citizen would probably know.
Another day, another hate crime. Seeing the way people will talk about a 16-year-old girl who was murdered only days ago is proof that trans people not only aren't allowed peace in life, but we're also not allowed respect in death. All of the hate towards people just trying to exist and live our lives makes me hate the world.
As for the non-societal issue, which is the one that people seem to ignore the most often, my dysphoria has been up lately. Sure, I got breast implants, and that made me extremely happy. My chest dysphoria has plummeted, but the dysphoria over all of the other male aspects of my body remains unaffected.
I actually came out to a coworker last week, saying "Would you believe me if I told you that I was born a boy?" Well, she believed me. She told me that she already knew. Sure, she mentioned that she put two and two together because I said that I can't get pregnant and because I got breast implants, but that still shouldn't be the first thought that you have. She's not transphobic, but it feels so fucking invalidating to be told something like that. It comes across as if those were confirming factors after me not passing well.
I'm always gonna be extremely jealous of the girls who are able to cut ties with people from their past and live their entire lives stealth. I want to erase any record of me ever being a boy. I want to just be a normal girl. Is that so much to ask? I want to feel comfortable in my own skin and not feel a self-loathing pang of "ywnbarw" when I hear other women talk about things like sex, periods, and pregnancy. I hate having conscious reminders that I'm always gonna be biologically male.
I'll never be able to be the woman I want to be, so why do I even bother staying alive?
Another day, another hate crime. Seeing the way people will talk about a 16-year-old girl who was murdered only days ago is proof that trans people not only aren't allowed peace in life, but we're also not allowed respect in death. All of the hate towards people just trying to exist and live our lives makes me hate the world.
As for the non-societal issue, which is the one that people seem to ignore the most often, my dysphoria has been up lately. Sure, I got breast implants, and that made me extremely happy. My chest dysphoria has plummeted, but the dysphoria over all of the other male aspects of my body remains unaffected.
I actually came out to a coworker last week, saying "Would you believe me if I told you that I was born a boy?" Well, she believed me. She told me that she already knew. Sure, she mentioned that she put two and two together because I said that I can't get pregnant and because I got breast implants, but that still shouldn't be the first thought that you have. She's not transphobic, but it feels so fucking invalidating to be told something like that. It comes across as if those were confirming factors after me not passing well.
I'm always gonna be extremely jealous of the girls who are able to cut ties with people from their past and live their entire lives stealth. I want to erase any record of me ever being a boy. I want to just be a normal girl. Is that so much to ask? I want to feel comfortable in my own skin and not feel a self-loathing pang of "ywnbarw" when I hear other women talk about things like sex, periods, and pregnancy. I hate having conscious reminders that I'm always gonna be biologically male.
I'll never be able to be the woman I want to be, so why do I even bother staying alive?