I still regret having lived in my household environment

[Michelangelo]

I will forever regret not having lived in a clean, silent and safe environment, it fucked me up for life and i will still think about it before killing myself.

I have never told anyone about what my living conditions at home were, because it would surely have put my family in legal troubles. in terms of cleanliness i would consider them worse than those of certain families that have their house completely filled with trash and that you would see on TV, plus the emotional blackmailing and constant screaming.
your parents may love you but they will still treat your life like a joke and destroy it, like my mother did.

I could have been poorest bastard ever and still have lived a much better life.
I still understand why i left my father, but i will forever regret choosing to live with my mother over him, i cant forgive her.

Whatever i can achieve in the what remains of my life will never be sufficient to fix this

 

[160cmcurry]

awww my sweet baby, to be stuck in such a dangerous environment at such a young age that breaks my heart i’m so sorry you had to go through that no child should have to feel unsafe like that, forced to grow up faster than they’re supposed to

you deserved softness, safety, comfort, not chaos. you need someone to wrap you up, hold you up, protect you from all of it.

 

[Michelangelo]

awww my sweet baby, to be stuck in such a dangerous environment at such a young age that breaks my heart i’m so sorry you had to go through that no child should have to feel unsafe like that, forced to grow up faster than they’re supposed to
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you deserved softness, safety, comfort, not chaos. you need someone to wrap you up, hold you up, protect you from all of it.

I saw some of my poor friends household and it was 10x better, "just dont live in a house filled with animal piss and shit bro" brutal