I think I am genuinely starting to get OCD

[Prøphet]

The past couple months I feel constantly dirty and I just feel the urge to shower constantly and clean my room, I feel clean for like 1 hour after showering then just start feeling nasty, and I have to wash my hands every time I touch something where food has been or feel even the mildest grease or stickiness on my hands, and I want to clean everything in my house but I can’t bring myself to start because I feel zero energy and zero motivation on a day to day basis. Am I going fucking insane?

 

[unkownincel]

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[Prøphet]

Shit like this runs on one side of my family but the funny thing is I never used to be like this, I was actually the complete opposite not giving a fuck about cleanliness or hygiene but now at 18 I just feel dirty and unclean all the fucking time and I feel like my environment is dirty constantly and I feel like I have no control over anything so I’m just destined to live in this filth

 

[Prøphet]

I can’t even tell if my environment is nasty from not cleaning in forever because I feel zero energy and zero drive or if it’s all in my head

Same for my general hygiene I feel obsessed with cleaning myself but nothing is enough I’m just always fucking dirty or something somewhere stinks I just know it not even exaggerating

 

[Prøphet]

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[Prøphet]

Can someone fucking help me tho I haven’t told this shit to anyone I also just feel a constant urge to change clothes because I feel like I get dirty just from sitting around doing nothing

 

[Prøphet]

I also have fucking carpet all over the house and I feel like my feet get dirty as fuck waking on it even tho they don’t really I just feel gross 24/7 like something is always unclean

 

[joshbherman]

The past couple months I feel constantly dirty and I just feel the urge to shower constantly and clean my room, I feel clean for like 1 hour after showering then just start feeling nasty, and I have to wash my hands every time I touch something where food has been or feel even the mildest grease or stickiness on my hands, and I want to clean everything in my house but I can’t bring myself to start because I feel zero energy and zero motivation on a day to day basis. Am I going fucking insane?

I'm like this since I was 6, I have ocd with hygiene and having everything organized, like I couldn't see a table with feel centimeters to the left or not clean

 

[slayy]

i have been having this for years (undiagnosed tho)

 

[HowToBasic]

I live in filth and I don't care

It isn't to the point of creatures spawning but there is probably over 100 papers on the floor scattered in my room there is food bags ah shit maybe there are insects in my room there is a heap of dirt in the corner aswell because my pet frog died and I threw the dirt on the floor trying to find...

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[Prøphet]

I'm like this since I was 6, I have ocd with hygiene and having everything organized, like I couldn't see a table with feel centimeters to the left or not clean

You must be very mentally strong because this shit is hell, how do you cope with it? It’s really driving me nuts. I was like polar opposite up until this year, used to not give a fuck about hygiene or being clean, used to skip showers Jfl and wear clothes for multiple days now I just feel fucking disgusted and like everything is out of order and chaos no matter what I do I feel like sisyphus

 

[Prøphet]

i have been having this for years (undiagnosed tho)

Is it ocd you think? What do you feel specifically?

 

[joshbherman]

You must be very mentally strong because this shit is hell, how do you cope with it? It’s really driving me nuts. I was like polar opposite up until this year, used to not give a fuck about hygiene or being clean, used to skip showers Jfl and wear clothes for multiple days now I just feel fucking disgusted and like everything is out of order and chaos no matter what I do I feel like sisyphus

That's the shit I don't cope i just rage at any nigger who touches my thing and my mother calls me mentally ill jfl

 

[Prøphet]

I live in filth and I don't care

It isn't to the point of creatures spawning but there is probably over 100 papers on the floor scattered in my room there is food bags ah shit maybe there are insects in my room there is a heap of dirt in the corner aswell because my pet frog died and I threw the dirt on the floor trying to find...

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I need to fucking clean my room tbh my room is nasty too I literally haven’t cleaned at all in 2 years because I feel zero drive and zero energy my carpet is fucking nasty it’s full of hair and just feels fucking gross to walk on but I can’t muster up the energy to clean the mess

 

[HowToBasic]

I need to fucking clean my room tbh my room is nasty too I literally haven’t cleaned at all in 2 years because I feel zero drive and zero energy my carpet is fucking nasty it’s full of hair and just feels fucking gross to walk on but I can’t muster up the energy to clean the mess

i jerk off without cleaning myself after

 

[slayy]

Is it ocd you think? What do you feel specifically?

idk maybe
i feel like im never clean too, when I write i need to retrace letters to make them perfect or my mind goes crazy, i need to clean my phone's screen from the dust all the time, and many other things

 

[Prøphet]

i jerk off without cleaning myself after

Why would you need to clean yourself after that jfl

 

[Prøphet]

idk maybe
i feel like im never clean too, when I write i need to retrace letters to make them perfect or my mind goes crazy, i need to clean my phone's screen from the dust all the time, and many other things

Bro literally I feel like my phone is always fucking gross from using it while eating especially I have to wash my case and wipe my screen like weekly even tho nothing comes off jfl

 

[SomaliaSub5]

its lowkey a good thing to be clean like that tho, rather than being a filthy slob

 

[slayy]

Bro literally I feel like my phone is always fucking gross from using it while eating especially I have to wash my case and wipe my screen like weekly even tho nothing comes off jfl

yeah me too
i wash my phone case every week with soap and water but i feel like it's always dirty

 

[Prøphet]

its lowkey a good thing to be clean like that tho, rather than being a filthy slob

Yea fs but that’s the only good part and if I’m being honest I’m still a slob because I’ve been low energy and low mood for a year I’m just hyper aware and feel constantly unclean

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

The past couple months I feel constantly dirty and I just feel the urge to shower constantly and clean my room, I feel clean for like 1 hour after showering then just start feeling nasty, and I have to wash my hands every time I touch something where food has been or feel even the mildest grease or stickiness on my hands, and I want to clean everything in my house but I can’t bring myself to start because I feel zero energy and zero motivation on a day to day basis. Am I going fucking insane?

yep i also had this and i can tell you the more you dwell into it the more psychotic you get genuenly please u gotta work on your mental until it's too late, i had the exact same thing and it just got worse and wierder

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

bro my ocd started when i was about 10-11 and it was very fucking similar at start, i would shower 3x a day, I wouldn't enter my room if I wasn't after shower, i would wash my hands after contact with anything that isn't mine, and i got so fucking psychotic, not only the behavioral part but mentally from month to month it was getting so much worse pls u gotta act now bro, at least u got the balls to open up about this shit, I rawdogged this like a retard until it went away.

 

[Prøphet]

bro my ocd started when i was about 10-11 and it was very fucking similar at start, i would shower 3x a day, I wouldn't enter my room if I wasn't after shower, i would wash my hands after contact with anything that isn't mine, and i got so fucking psychotic, not only the behavioral part but mentally from month to month it was getting so much worse pls u gotta act now bro, at least u got the balls to open up about this shit, I rawdogged this like a retard until it went away.

Holy sounds just like me rn

How did you lift yourself out of it?

My family already thinks I’m a fucking weirdo and I’m sure telling them about it would make things 10x worse for me haha but yea it really is crazy the shit you start doing, I waste so much fucking soap too just to feel nasty 3 hours later

 

[Johan]

used to have ocd when i was younger. u just need to try to ignore ur thoughts even tho its very hard

 

[Quicksand]

OCD leads people to think that cause and effect are 1:1. Try washing your hands once every two times when you feel the need (not if they are too dirty).

Make an effort

 

[Quicksand]

used to have ocd when i was younger. u just need to try to ignore ur thoughts even tho its very hard

Don’t ignore it, otherwise you will fall into a worse spiral as soon as your stress levels are high enough

 

[Prøphet]

used to have ocd when i was younger. u just need to try to ignore ur thoughts even tho its very hard

OCD leads people to think that cause and effect are 1:1. Try washing your hands once every two times when you feel the need (not if they are too dirty).

Make an effort

Interesting, will try

Wdym about cause and effect being 1:1

 

[Johan]

Don’t ignore it, otherwise you will fall into a worse spiral as soon as your stress levels are high enough

literally worked for me

when u accept the urges then the ocd takes over, it owns u

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

Holy sounds just like me rn

How did you lift yourself out of it?

My family already thinks I’m a fucking weirdo and I’m sure telling them about it would make things 10x worse for me haha but yea it really is crazy the shit you start doing, I waste so much fucking soap too just to feel nasty 3 hours later

bro you might literally be me honestly i lifted my self out of it with time it was hell though i started getting some what normal at 15 because before i got so psychotic i dwelled into this shit more in fear of change so i was a literal walking fat psychotic cortisol ball who was also called a weirdo by family and friends, but what honestly helped me get out of this is shock therapy, and no i didn't go to therapy or pay for shit anything like that but you gotta force expose yourself to stuff and i know how hard it is when ur psychotic but it's the only way, i remember at 13 i wanted to be normal and accepted and cried to not be a psychoticel so i decided fuck this I can't be like this forever and started doing the reverse of everything i was doing, felt like washing my hands even though it wasn't necessary? didn't do it, just exposing myself to all the shit I didn't want to do forcing myself to mentally change, and now I'm still ND as fuck but at least i can behave somewhat normally because I don't have those wierd ass rituals of cleaning hands taking showers etc and act NT normally socialize and be accepted by my surroundings, unfortunately genetics are hell my grandmother and great grandmother and mother all have OCD and i also have it but I had the worse case then any of them had.
Bro genuenly u are free to hmu with any questions I will very gladly help you, for now just focus on shock therapy so force urself to do the shit u don't want to do, wish you the best, you got this don't give up

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

literally worked for me

when u accept the urges then the ocd takes over, it owns u

exactly u cannot accept the ocd urges because it'll consume ur mental like a virus, act before it's too late

 

[acm]

that's weird bro I usually shower every few days

 

[registerfasterusing]

The past couple months I feel constantly dirty and I just feel the urge to shower constantly and clean my room, I feel clean for like 1 hour after showering then just start feeling nasty, and I have to wash my hands every time I touch something where food has been or feel even the mildest grease or stickiness on my hands, and I want to clean everything in my house but I can’t bring myself to start because I feel zero energy and zero motivation on a day to day basis. Am I going fucking insane?

Do u have voices

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

Do u have voices

I'm guessing he probably does since most people with ocd do including myself (used to ofc)

 

[Prøphet]

bro you might literally be me honestly i lifted my self out of it with time it was hell though i started getting some what normal at 15 because before i got so psychotic i dwelled into this shit more in fear of change so i was a literal walking fat psychotic cortisol ball who was also called a weirdo by family and friends, but what honestly helped me get out of this is shock therapy, and no i didn't go to therapy or pay for shit anything like that but you gotta force expose yourself to stuff and i know how hard it is when ur psychotic but it's the only way, i remember at 13 i wanted to be normal and accepted and cried to not be a psychoticel so i decided fuck this I can't be like this forever and started doing the reverse of everything i was doing, felt like washing my hands even though it wasn't necessary? didn't do it, just exposing myself to all the shit I didn't want to do forcing myself to mentally change, and now I'm still ND as fuck but at least i can behave somewhat normally because I don't have those wierd ass rituals of cleaning hands taking showers etc and act NT normally socialize and be accepted by my surroundings, unfortunately genetics are hell my grandmother and great grandmother and mother all have OCD and i also have it but I had the worse case then any of them had.
Bro genuenly u are free to hmu with any questions I will very gladly help you, for now just focus on shock therapy so force urself to do the shit u don't want to do, wish you the best, you got this don't give up

Wow ts actually helps a lot thank you for the advice and encouragement genuinely you’re a good dude

I think you’re right fs, I have social anxiety asw and I noticed The more you go out and face it instead of running the more it j becomes second nature and habitual so yea there’s probably no other way than to conquer it head on ig

 

[Prøphet]

Do u have voices

No do u?

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

Wow ts actually helps a lot thank you for the advice and encouragement genuinely you’re a good dude

I think you’re right fs, I have social anxiety asw and I noticed The more you go out and face it instead of running the more it j becomes second nature and habitual so yea there’s probably no other way than to conquer it head on ig

brooo how are you literally me social anxiety was extremely bad also like u just gotta write down all the aspects that negatively affect ur life and fight them wether it's voices, psychotic behavior/thoughts, having social anxiety etc there's no other way around it, you can try experimenting with pharma but truth is effects are temporary, ocd will somewhat affect you wether you like it or not till the rest of ur life and only you can train urself how to manage it

 

[registerfasterusing]

I'm guessing he probably does since most people with ocd do including myself (used to ofc)

No do u?

Im diagnosed and yes I have voices

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

i have been having this for years (undiagnosed tho)

same, i have a feeling like therapists can even make things worse since it's cope and they're evil greedy fucks who want a money cycle so you come back, my mom who went to therapy for her ocd literally ended up getting no better and kept coming back there all the time that's why i didn't go to no bs therapy and just fixed the issue myself there's no way around this only you can fix yourself, so theoretically same I'm undiagnosed but 200% sure i got this, it's okay now though I'm just scared how I'll be when I'm an old miserable fuck because it gets extremely bad again when ur old and i can see that by observing my great grandmother.

 

[Prøphet]

Im diagnosed and yes I have voices

Damn that fucking sucks Im sorry bro I can’t imagine having that on top of these compulsions

I’m not diagnosed so I don’t want to claim I have the same struggle personally I think I is have some tendencies that align which my mom also has and she’s semi diagnosed

What is it like for you?

 

[registerfasterusing]

Damn that fucking sucks Im sorry bro I can’t imagine having that on top of these compulsions

I’m not diagnosed so I don’t want to claim I have the same struggle personally I think I is have some tendencies that align which my mom also has and she’s semi diagnosed

What is it like for you?

In ur case it’s a textbook example of contamination ocd, idk where u live but if ur in the eastern US rn its winter and many ppl are sick so u could have unconscious fears surrounding that

But yeah for me I get voices, it used to be a lot worse and I had hallucinations and this thing similar to claustrophobia except like the opposite of it, I think it’s called agoraphobia
Those gradually improved over time but now I have really bad checking, intrusive thoughts/imagery, etc

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

but honestly you know what helped me also? I know most people treat gym and excersize as ugghhhh cope but when you get more active and don't have time to dwell in your psychotic thoughts it gets much better, i remember i used to rot in my room being a gamingcel but then after i quit gaming completely and started going out in nature, for cycles, for swims, forced myself to go to the gym, an mma session just do activities that expose me to stuff and force me to act in certain ways it got wayyyy better, i remember that like at my first gym session i was getting cortisol spikes from thinking about laying on the sweaty bench and other equipment etc but when i saw all the other people doing it normally i knew i can't be different so yk forced myself as I'm saying, idk if what I'm saying makes sense rn and i might be yapping but being active finding activities that don't let you dwell in your thoughts even if it's the "cope" gymceling or other stuff it can be very beneficial, the worst thing u can do as a psychotic ocd endurer is rot in your thoughts.

 

[Prøphet]

In ur case it’s a textbook example of contamination ocd, idk where u live but if ur in the eastern US rn its winter and many ppl are sick so u could have unconscious fears surrounding that

But yeah for me I get voices, it used to be a lot worse and I had hallucinations and this thing similar to claustrophobia except like the opposite of it, I think it’s called agoraphobia
Those gradually improved over time but now I have really bad checking, intrusive thoughts/imagery, etc

Yea spot on I also have an insane insane fear of vomiting too that controls my life to some extent so winter can be rough

I used to have an extreme thing around food and being scared of undercooked meat or leaving shit out as silly as it sounds I still kinda do and I think it’s related because of how intense the thought loops are it’s a unique feeling fs

That sounds like hell tho seriously it takes a lot of strength to push through all of that. Have you tried any medications or therapies that have helped?

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

but honestly you know what helped me also? I know most people treat gym and excersize as ugghhhh cope but when you get more active and don't have time to dwell in your psychotic thoughts it gets much better, i remember i used to rot in my room being a gamingcel but then after i quit gaming completely and started going out in nature, for cycles, for swims, forced myself to go to the gym, an mma session just do activities that expose me to stuff and force me to act in certain ways it got wayyyy better, i remember that like at my first gym session i was getting cortisol spikes from thinking about laying on the sweaty bench and other equipment etc but when i saw all the other people doing it normally i knew i can't be different so yk forced myself as I'm saying, idk if what I'm saying makes sense rn and i might be yapping but being active finding activities that don't let you dwell in your thoughts even if it's the "cope" gymceling or other stuff it can be very beneficial, the worst thing u can do as a psychotic ocd endurer is rot in your thoughts.

even though i know it may sound cringe pretend to have a high T mental I literally manipulated myself into escaping ocd, i remember i disliked eye contact very much, and I manipulated myself by saying, what am I some low T fucking puss? I'm gonna death stare this bitch for 30 seconds and did that even though i looked pretty fucking schizophrenic probably at that moment just manipulating ur mental perception works even if it sounds like cope and bollocks

 

[registerfasterusing]

Yea spot on I also have an insane insane fear of vomiting too that controls my life to some extent so winter can be rough

I used to have an extreme thing around food and being scared of undercooked meat or leaving shit out as silly as it sounds I still kinda do and I think it’s related because of how intense the thought loops are it’s a unique feeling fs

That sounds like hell tho seriously it takes a lot of strength to push through all of that. Have you tried any medications or therapies that have helped?

Yeah that makes a lot of sense then, honestly since yours are a bit more limited I’d say exposure is the best cure, if you’re willing to try it. I did therapy for several years and it can actually help a bit with curing physical habits like those, although in terms of the mental stuff it didn’t do much for me so I stopped a few years ago. Never taken any meds but I’d like to get some soon tbh since I’ve been having a pretty bad flare up recently

 

[Prøphet]

but honestly you know what helped me also? I know most people treat gym and excersize as ugghhhh cope but when you get more active and don't have time to dwell in your psychotic thoughts it gets much better, i remember i used to rot in my room being a gamingcel but then after i quit gaming completely and started going out in nature, for cycles, for swims, forced myself to go to the gym, an mma session just do activities that expose me to stuff and force me to act in certain ways it got wayyyy better, i remember that like at my first gym session i was getting cortisol spikes from thinking about laying on the sweaty bench and other equipment etc but when i saw all the other people doing it normally i knew i can't be different so yk forced myself as I'm saying, idk if what I'm saying makes sense rn and i might be yapping but being active finding activities that don't let you dwell in your thoughts even if it's the "cope" gymceling or other stuff it can be very beneficial, the worst thing u can do as a psychotic ocd endurer is rot in your thoughts.

For sure for sure I have the same experience, when ai go out more and actually do shit I get less in my head about myself and my environment, and gymcelling is absolutely worth it purely for the mental benefits, I picked it back up last month and it helps to expend all the pent up energy and obsession in any way possible (except getting all sweaty that still feels gross )

 

[SvtvnTr14d]

For sure for sure I have the same experience, when ai go out more and actually do shit I get less in my head about myself and my environment, and gymcelling is absolutely worth it purely for the mental benefits, I picked it back up last month and it helps to expend all the pent up energy and obsession in any way possible (except getting all sweaty that still feels gross )

mirin

 

[Prøphet]

Yeah that makes a lot of sense then, honestly since yours are a bit more limited I’d say exposure is the best cure, if you’re willing to try it. I did therapy for several years and it can actually help a bit with curing physical habits like those, although in terms of the mental stuff it didn’t do much for me so I stopped a few years ago. Never taken any meds but I’d like to get some soon tbh since I’ve been having a pretty bad flare up recently

Yeah agreed, what I started doing is I have an old script for a couple atavan and I just keep it around and assure myself if things ever gets unbearable I have that as a backup, tbh it might be counter productive because it’s like a crutch but it does help me live my life more knowing I have an escape if things go super wrong so fuck it

I’m also having surgery soon so I’ve just decided if I vomit from the anesthesia I vomit I’ll just deal with it when it comes, can’t just stay stagnant in life because of a couple uncomfortable moments

Best of luck to you broski I hope you find a way to manage this as best as possible, genuinely wish ts on no one

 

[registerfasterusing]

Yeah agreed, what I started doing is I have an old script for a couple atavan and I just keep it around and assure myself if things ever gets unbearable I have that as a backup, tbh it might be counter productive because it’s like a crutch but it does help me live my life more knowing I have an escape if things go super wrong so fuck it

I’m also having surgery soon so I’ve just decided if I vomit from the anesthesia I vomit I’ll just deal with it when it comes, can’t just stay stagnant in life because of a couple uncomfortable moments

Best of luck to you broski I hope you find a way to manage this as best as possible, genuinely wish ts on no one

Yeah it’s good to have that as a second option if necessary, and sometimes it’s best to just exposure yourself to these fears so that could end up being a good thing anyway

Thanks and best of luck to you as well

 

[dawooddX]

You must be very mentally strong because this shit is hell, how do you cope with it? It’s really driving me nuts. I was like polar opposite up until this year, used to not give a fuck about hygiene or being clean, used to skip showers Jfl and wear clothes for multiple days now I just feel fucking disgusted and like everything is out of order and chaos no matter what I do I feel like sisyphus

its genuienly fucking hell. iv struggled wit it since i ws a kid. id constantly obsess over any circumstance/situation/thought/memory/hygiene . regardless if its small or not. id obsess 24/7 over how people breath or eat when i ws a kid. u can improve it like wt the others said here

exposure therapy-just face it whatever discomforts u. regardless of how it screws u. u will always eventually adapt to it. idk abt completely fixing it but itl heavily improve

meds(dont recommend it tbh only if yk wt ur doing)- im on 25mg fluvoxamine and it works rlly good now