Bpd also has a big stigma around it for dudes. My doctor said bipolar is in the back of his head but he hasn’t ruled it out. He thinks BPD is more likely since I had to do a long ass quiz after my first outpatient appointment and stuff about it was in there. Also asks questions that relate to symptoms of it. But I haven’t gone into full detail about trauma, addictions and shit with him and my therapist or the psychotic symptoms I had for those years (mania, hypomania, occasional hallucinations, depressive episodes, mixed episodes), which I read also occur a decent amount with people who have bpd. I lost a few prime years of my life and my childhood friends due to the fucking state I was in man. I completely lacked self-awareness. Won’t explain here but can PM you if you want.
Which ones they put you on brah
Bipolar, depression and anxiety, ocd, and most recently bdd. I’m on 4 different medications they forced me to take, and they also tried to get me with an autism diagnosis all because I wouldn’t look the doctor in the eye.
Fuark bro relate hard I’m on 4 and diagnosed so far with high functioning autism, adhd (recent), ocd (dpdr and bdd included, and which the pros call ‘really severe ocd’ - true tbh), health/illness anxiety (recent), and looking at a cptsd diagnosis now. I’ve been diagnosed with major depression and social anxiety in the past too. I’m Lucky my psych is decent tho and I know a lot of shit abt psychiatry and pharmacology. He’s taken things really really slow and didn’t just jump to putting me on a bunch of different shit straight away
Bro these doctors were actually doing some wacky ass combinations, trying everything in the book to cure me. The main thing they’re trying right now is lithium, which is making me feel even worse.
What sort of combinations did they try? Sound like fucking retards. You can’t even cure bipolar. Good psychiatrists though will treat it, get to know the patient well and take things really slow. What I recommend doing, and this is what I’ve done (and how I’ve helped countless people get better treatment), is just doing a shit ton of research into neuroscience, psychopharmacology, all the different conditions, treatments, etc.. Just act like you’re a medical student studying and taking notes for an assignment or research task. When you do this they basically have no choice but to spill the beans and not fuck you around and take advantage of the fact that you don’t know any better. But the key with this is to not be combative or argumentative, but simply curious. From what I’ve heard as well, some psychiatrists behave like this because they just can’t be fucked dealing with unique and complex/challenging cases.
Yeah I definitely am a unique complex problem, extreme bdd and ocd to do with the face with facial measurements they don’t understand, their understanding of body dysmorphia disorder is not even on the same level as mine. I’m sorry I can’t remember the names but I think one of them was Zoloft. I don’t even know all the meds I’m on rn my mom knows all that stuff.
lithium can take a while to work, and I mean it does have the most evidence behind it as being the most effective treatment for rapid-cycling and non-rapid cycling bipolar compared to other mood stabilisers. What it is shit for though if used by itself is treating acute bipolar depression, and it wont guarantee that you won’t ever experience an acute manic, hypomanic or depressive episode again. It could be the other meds that are fucking you up and the interactions between them rather than the lithium itself. Try finding a psychiatrist with good reviews that specialises in bipolar
Yeah bro my tip would be to just do what I said there and you’ll most likely end up getting better treatment as well as a better understanding of bipolar, psychotic disorders, neuroscience, psychopharmacology, etc. and how it’s all linked. I’d say I’m a complex problem too just given my nature but it does help me out in professional settings. I’ve seen doctors and their assistants who just sit there in curiosity and awe at what I’m saying sometimes, lol.
Also Zoloft makes no fucking sense to prescribe given what you told me you have lmao. Rarely ever hear of Zoloft being used as a first line adjunct treatment for all those conditions together, especially since your depression is i assume bipolar depression (different to regular), and your anxiety is related to ocd/bdd. Just look into everything you’re taking and how they interact with each other as well as effect the brain and body. You may find that you don’t need zoloft but could benefit from another sort of antidepressant, none at all, or a different SSRI.
