I try to be a strong feminist and hate my rapist for forcing me but I think of that night and I get wet.

[ElySioNs]

It's taken a long while for me to admit this horrible truth about myself. I've been in denial for years and if you'd ever read some of the things I wrote in certain forums on the topic of rape you'd think I was the most militant, uncompromising feminist out there. But this was all a cover up for a reality I couldn't accept: a man forced his penis into me against my will and raped me and I orgasmed from it. My mouth said no but my well lubricated vagina said yes and I have had to deal with these two irreconcilable things for years now.

I hated the thing between my legs for what it did it to me. I wanted nothing to do with it. I dind't even want to wash it in the shower. I hated that when, out of desperation, I did masturbate I could only come when I thought about him that night, pinning me down, pushing my panties aside and forcing himself into me. I cried and told him to stop as I was climaxing. I could feel myself contracting around his penis at the same time I was loudly protesting his violation. He felt it too. He told me I loved it. I hated him for making me come.

I've been drinking some tonight and I finally have the courage to tell the truth. I try to be a strong feminist and hate my rapist for forcing me but I think of that night and I get wet.

I've been careful to only date nice guys but they don't satisfy me. These men have been what every woman is supposed to want. But I don't want them. I want the asshole who kept fucking me even while i was crying, who clamped his hand over my mouth when I yelled for him to stop.

I shouldn't be like this. I hate the hole between my legs. I wish I could just sew it shut and never have to deal with again

EDIT: I just want to say thank you to everyone who responded to me and that I feel bad that I can't respond to everyone. I honestly didn't expect this much reaction and please don't be offended if I can't respond. Please know I read what you wrote.​

I am very new to reddit. How do you find out when new replies have been posted to older comments. Are you notified somehow? I didnt open this with an email. I am just wondering if you have to go through every nested comment over and over again to find new replies. That doesn't seem very efficient.​

 

[Nakolas]

Dark triad pill STRIKES AGAIN!

 

[ElySioNs]

Ive been careful to only date nice guys but they don't satisfy me. These men have been what every woman is supposed to want. But I don't want them. I want the asshole who kept fucking me even while i was crying, who clamped his hand over my mouth when I yelled for him to stop.

I shouldn't be like this. I hate the hole between my legs. I wish I could just sew it shut and never have to deal with again

 

[Dezdesst]

this is just sad, i hope you feel better edit : nvm forget what i said

 

[isis_Bleach]

i beat a few women close to death and they thanked me unsuprisingly

 

[Suns9999]

with the way this was written i feel like its a man behind this post

 

[ElySioNs]

i beat a few women close to death and they thanked me unsuprisingly

Women love that shit

 

[spermium]

It's taken a long while for me to admit this horrible truth about myself. I've been in denial for years and if you'd ever read some of the things I wrote in certain forums on the topic of rape you'd think I was the most militant, uncompromising feminist out there. But this was all a cover up for a reality I couldn't accept: a man forced his penis into me against my will and raped me and I orgasmed from it. My mouth said no but my well lubricated vagina said yes and I have had to deal with these two irreconcilable things for years now.

I hated the thing between my legs for what it did it to me. I wanted nothing to do with it. I dind't even want to wash it in the shower. I hated that when, out of desperation, I did masturbate I could only come when I thought about him that night, pinning me down, pushing my panties aside and forcing himself into me. I cried and told him to stop as I was climaxing. I could feel myself contracting around his penis at the same time I was loudly protesting his violation. He felt it too. He told me I loved it. I hated him for making me come.

I've been drinking some tonight and I finally have the courage to tell the truth. I try to be a strong feminist and hate my rapist for forcing me but I think of that night and I get wet.

I've been careful to only date nice guys but they don't satisfy me. These men have been what every woman is supposed to want. But I don't want them. I want the asshole who kept fucking me even while i was crying, who clamped his hand over my mouth when I yelled for him to stop.

I shouldn't be like this. I hate the hole between my legs. I wish I could just sew it shut and never have to deal with again

EDIT: I just want to say thank you to everyone who responded to me and that I feel bad that I can't respond to everyone. I honestly didn't expect this much reaction and please don't be offended if I can't respond. Please know I read what you wrote.​

I am very new to reddit. How do you find out when new replies have been posted to older comments. Are you notified somehow? I didnt open this with an email. I am just wondering if you have to go through every nested comment over and over again to find new replies. That doesn't seem very efficient.​

Might be larp nigga why won't this bitch just ask her new soy bf to beat the fuck out of her in bed like normal whores do ?

Might be some incel writing reddit stories just for mental masturbation

 

[Youㅤ]

with the way this was written i feel like its a man behind this post

lol ur right sounds too intellectual for a foid... i really cant tell tho