TrueNateJacobs
I just want to be beautiful
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I would stand up to bullies, and I would speak out when I saw something wrong.
I would never make fun of people and I tried to make friends with everyone.
I respected people and their race, sexuality, etc.
But I feel like if you want to be popular you can’t do that.
You can only do that and remain popular if you’re a chad because people gravitate towards you no matter what, but if you’re an average npc like me, you have to cater to the popular social norms, which at my school is making fun of people, being loud and mean, etc.
(Think your typical bully in a movie)
Also I think this forum has corrupted my mind.
I constantly catch myself looking at ethnics, gays, etc IRL with disgust and disdain, when in reality I have nothing against them.
I love all people.
I have become so antisemitic.
I make racist and sexist “edgy” jokes.
I pick on the neurodivergent and fat/ugly kids in my class.
I used to be a nice boy.
Someone that genuinely was a good person.
Now I am a racist, a sexist, and just a mean, mean bully.
I want to change, but when I call these things out, my popular friends just turn on ME instead.
What is worth more? My morals, or my social life?
This is the dilemma I struggle with everyday.
Because to be a good person would mean losing out on all of the good things that come with being popular in highchool.
No more parties, no more girls, no more friends.
But I don’t think I care about any of that stuff anymore.
How do I fundamentally change?
How do I change and become a better person again?
Please help me.
I think having master erase my account from here would be a good first step.
Then I think simply just speaking up more about things that I think are wrong.
Please help me.
I would never make fun of people and I tried to make friends with everyone.
I respected people and their race, sexuality, etc.
But I feel like if you want to be popular you can’t do that.
You can only do that and remain popular if you’re a chad because people gravitate towards you no matter what, but if you’re an average npc like me, you have to cater to the popular social norms, which at my school is making fun of people, being loud and mean, etc.
(Think your typical bully in a movie)
Also I think this forum has corrupted my mind.
I constantly catch myself looking at ethnics, gays, etc IRL with disgust and disdain, when in reality I have nothing against them.
I love all people.
I have become so antisemitic.
I make racist and sexist “edgy” jokes.
I pick on the neurodivergent and fat/ugly kids in my class.
I used to be a nice boy.
Someone that genuinely was a good person.
Now I am a racist, a sexist, and just a mean, mean bully.
I want to change, but when I call these things out, my popular friends just turn on ME instead.
What is worth more? My morals, or my social life?
This is the dilemma I struggle with everyday.
Because to be a good person would mean losing out on all of the good things that come with being popular in highchool.
No more parties, no more girls, no more friends.
But I don’t think I care about any of that stuff anymore.
How do I fundamentally change?
How do I change and become a better person again?
Please help me.
I think having master erase my account from here would be a good first step.
Then I think simply just speaking up more about things that I think are wrong.
Please help me.
