nigtard
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I put my situation down to the sins that I committed in the past.When I was young I was a terrible person who hurt a lot of people and made a lot of bad decisions.By the time I grew out of it it looked like it was too late.I was effectively being punished.Every day I felt ashamed and humiliated.Life completely changed for me in such short notice.
I would start praying and effectively begging God for forgiveness.
I begged every day that my life would be turned around.But my salvation never came, living right now feels so humiliating.I don't even recognise myself, things my younger self would never even imagine myself to do are things I'm doing right now.I don't go to church anymore because the last time I went,I almost started crying when the pastor touched on the subject of forgiveness and patience for a better day.How long must I wait for a better day to come?
I would start praying and effectively begging God for forgiveness.
I begged every day that my life would be turned around.But my salvation never came, living right now feels so humiliating.I don't even recognise myself, things my younger self would never even imagine myself to do are things I'm doing right now.I don't go to church anymore because the last time I went,I almost started crying when the pastor touched on the subject of forgiveness and patience for a better day.How long must I wait for a better day to come?