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[Lonenely sigma]

Fucking shit I hate my fucking life, I had a brutal experience tonight.

I went to a big village my grandma grew up in and most of the past 3 days has been extremely good - I was riding my bike the whole day, listening to music, chilling basically.

However, tonight I went to take a walk around the local lake. It was pitch dark and there was a group of girls, idk how many because it was dark, sitting in circle and talking.

Girls asked me

"Who are you?"

-I am not from here

"Whats your name?"

I tell them my name and one of the girls says "ok leave us alone we are talking".

Another whore added

"Ohhhhhh pooor guyy I feel so badd"


I stormed home and started beating the shit out of my pillow. I have no idea if they saw my face or not, but if they have this is by far the most brutal thing that happened to me. I fucking hate my life.

 

[TechnoBoss]

Don't think of suicide just because some (possibly underage) sloots said some banter. Just chill out and enjoy your day. Tomorrow will be better.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Don't think of suicide just because some (possibly underage) sloots said some banter. Just chill out and enjoy your day. Tomorrow will be better

Man but this just hurts so much. I have no value of my own, my value is 100% determined by the way I am percieved.

There is something seriously wrong with me, I know of many guys who wouldn't give a fuck even if they looked worse than me and had this happen to them. Days when I am percieved well are good, I am the happiest person in the room; the ones where I am not make me suicidal

 

[TechnoBoss]

Man but this just hurts so much. I have no value of my own, my value is 100% determined by the way I am percieved.

There is something seriously wrong with me, I know of many guys who wouldn't give a fuck even if they looked worse than me and had this happen to them. Days when I am percieved well are good, I am the happiest person in the room; the ones where I am not make me suicidal

Ah man, you're totally not alone. I feel the exact same way. But the truth is, it is a reflection of how you truly perceive yourself. Of course everyone has good and bad days, but it's the most important thing to have life experience to back up your views of yourself. Being able to look back on your life and say "I remember those times I fucked that stacy" or "I remember that time those girls said I was handsome" will give you enough of boost to be able to ignore the bad days in your life. It works for me, atleast.

 

[Yuno_howitez]

don't worry bro they were drunk whores

 

[Yuno_howitez]

probably one of them was interested and the other girl was jealous or didn't want her friend to talk to a guy

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Ah man, you're totally not alone. I feel the exact same way. But the truth is, it is a reflection of how you truly perceive yourself. Of course everyone has good and bad days, but it's the most important thing to have life experience to back up your views of yourself. Being able to look back on your life and say "I remember those times I fucked that stacy" or "I remember that time those girls said I was handsome" will give you enough of boost to be able to ignore the bad days in your life. It works for me, atleast.

Yeah but the thing is that I am so unable to determine what my looks level even is.

There are lightings that show my good characteristics and the ones that show my bad ones (which is common I suppose). However this does more bad than good as whenever something good happens I brush it off as "perfect lighting perfect angle".

Meanwhile, when something like this happens I don't even try to hide it. It becomes a fact - I am unattractive.

Even if I manage to earn the money and ascend, I certainly won't have a relationship. I won't be able to, I am already completely mind fucked, lonely and quite honestly desparate at only 18 - I can't think what will happen by the age of 23.

Thanks for advice though, I don't want to give you a therapist's job, which is a job I don't like anyway, so yeah, it helps knowing I am not alone

 

[Lonenely sigma]

probably one of them was interested and the other girl was jealous or didn't want her friend to talk to a guy

Doubt it but thanks for the cope, I will probably repeat it tonight

 

[TechnoBoss]

Yeah but the thing is that I am so unable to determine what my looks level even is.

There are lightings that show my good characteristics and the ones that show my bad ones (which is common I suppose). However this does more bad than good as whenever something good happens I brush it off as "perfect lighting perfect angle".

Meanwhile, when something like this happens I don't even try to hide it. It becomes a fact - I am unattractive.

Even if I manage to earn the money and ascend, I certainly won't have a relationship. I won't be able to, I am already completely mind fucked, lonely and quite honestly desparate at only 18 - I can't think what will happen by the age of 23.

Thanks for advice though, I don't want to give you a therapist's job, which is a job I don't like anyway, so yeah, it helps knowing I am not alone

Don't worry, I like LARPing as a therapist lmao. Well don't go off the pics you take of yourself. In general, how're you treated by people/women? Is it mostly good? We all start as mind fucked in the beginning, that's why there are even Chads on this forum. They are mogged by their mentality even though they are good looking. You definitely aren't alone. Sometimes I let even the slightest things fuck my entire day up, but to me they aren't just "slight things" in the moment - in my view, they are representative of something more. But then I drink vodka and forget (hopefully)

 

[turkproducer]

Sounds like you have BPD

it probably seemed to them that you were just awkwardly hanging around. What were you doing? If you were actually walking they’d have to have stopped you.

 

[Yuno_howitez]

Yeah but the thing is that I am so unable to determine what my looks level even is.

There are lightings that show my good characteristics and the ones that show my bad ones (which is common I suppose). However this does more bad than good as whenever something good happens I brush it off as "perfect lighting perfect angle".

Meanwhile, when something like this happens I don't even try to hide it. It becomes a fact - I am unattractive.

Even if I manage to earn the money and ascend, I certainly won't have a relationship. I won't be able to, I am already completely mind fucked, lonely and quite honestly desparate at only 18 - I can't think what will happen by the age of 23.

Thanks for advice though, I don't want to give you a therapist's job, which is a job I don't like anyway, so yeah, it helps knowing I am not alone

You can get a girlfriend all you need is to be a fucking NT mogger. What I mean by that is GET into that shit you gotta pump up the numbers you gotta not care about rejection you gotta be strong minded as fuck you need to work on your mind especially since you say it's fucked right now.

This guy literally ugly as fuck, sick, poor (gets sick money from goverment), been bullied and treated like SHIT all his life and once asked 400 girls out in his teens with no success, he never gave up though.

you gotta put yourself out there, obviously dating apps didnt work from this guy but he found these girls on discord. he even had an IRL relationship(girl he met in real life i mean) for 2 years before these girls.

you most likely have some halos at least, unlike this guy.






And btw, girls do that often if you talk to their friend they will try to get you away.
Maybe they even saw your were shy or panicked or something, point is when shit like this happens you just gotta think of them as stupid whores cause that's what all women are and move on.

 

[turkproducer]

Don't worry, I like LARPing as a therapist lmao. Well don't go off the pics you take of yourself. In general, how're you treated by people/women? Is it mostly good? We all start as mind fucked in the beginning, that's why there are even Chads on this forum. They are mogged by their mentality even though they are good looking. You definitely aren't alone. Sometimes I let even the slightest things fuck my entire day up, but to me they aren't just "slight things" in the moment - in my view, they are representative of something more. But then I drink vodka and forget (hopefully)

nice comment but drinking everyday is a slippery slope, avoid

speaking from exp

 

[slavicpsycho]

lol brutal, at least you aren't ignored by women and men

 

[TechnoBoss]

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You can get a girlfriend all you need is to be a fucking NT mogger. What I mean by that is GET into that shit you gotta pump up the numbers you gotta not care about rejection you gotta be strong minded as fuck you need to work on your mind especially since you say it's fucked right now.

This guy literally ugly as fuck, sick, poor (gets sick money from goverment), been bullied and treated like SHIT all his life and once asked 400 girls out in his teens with no success, he never gave up though.

you gotta put yourself out there, obviously dating apps didnt work from this guy but he found these girls on discord. he even had an IRL relationship(girl he met in real life i mean) for 2 years before these girls.

you most likely have some halos at least, unlike this guy.






And btw, girls do that often if you talk to their friend they will try to get you away.
Maybe they even saw your were shy or panicked or something, point is when shit like this happens you just gotta think of them as stupid whores cause that's what all women are and move on.

this is entirely legit as well. random sloots will say random sloot things. its important to be strong willed.

nice comment but drinking everyday is a slippery slope, avoid

speaking from exp

I'm trying to cut back lmao it is a major problem you're right

 

[turkproducer]

this is entirely legit as well. random sloots will say random sloot things. its important to be strong willed.


I'm trying to cut back lmao it is a major problem you're right

keep yourself busy and it’s easy. I’ve struggled with all that bullshit, even other than alc for years but as soon as you get into a routine, you stop being a rotting subhuman

but I’ve drunk almost everyday past 3 months, just recently stopped I fell the struggle.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Don't worry, I like LARPing as a therapist lmao. Well don't go off the pics you take of yourself. In general, how're you treated by people/women? Is it mostly good? We all start as mind fucked in the beginning, that's why there are even Chads on this forum. They are mogged by their mentality even though they are good looking. You definitely aren't alone. Sometimes I let even the slightest things fuck my entire day up, but to me they aren't just "slight things" in the moment - in my view, they are representative of something more. But then I drink vodka and forget (hopefully)

Generally speaking I look in the floor while walking so people think I am a weirdo, but once we start talking they treat me quite well. I also have a smile halo which helps me a lot.

Sounds like you have BPD

it probably seemed to them that you were just awkwardly hanging around. What were you doing? If you were actually walking they’d have to have stopped you.

I probably have that. I was extremely shy, my voice cracked and I had to repeat what I said twice in that short convo we had. On the other hand, I believe many disorders are linked to looks and the way people treat you so maybe it doesn't mean much.

Immediatelly when I came to my room I broke

And btw, girls do that often if you talk to their friend they will try to get you away.
Maybe they even saw your were shy or panicked or something, point is when shit like this happens you just gotta think of them as stupid whores cause that's what all women are and move on.

Yeah but they would treat shy chad completely differently than me, so either way the fact I was so shy wouldn't be so bad if they thought I was attractive

 

[Deleted member 23558]

Man but this just hurts so much. I have no value of my own, my value is 100% determined by the way I am percieved.

There is something seriously wrong with me, I know of many guys who wouldn't give a fuck even if they looked worse than me and had this happen to them. Days when I am percieved well are good, I am the happiest person in the room; the ones where I am not make me suicidaly

you will age out of it

 

[turkproducer]

Generally speaking I look in the floor while walking so people think I am a weirdo, but once we start talking they treat me quite well. I also have a smile halo which helps me a lot.

I probably have that. I was extremely shy, my voice cracked and I had to repeat what I said twice in that short convo we had. On the other hand, I believe many disorders are linked to looks and the way people treat you so maybe it doesn't mean much.

Immediatelly when I came to my room I broke


Yeah but they would treat shy chad completely differently than me, so either way the fact I was so shy wouldn't be so bad if they thought I was attractive

you have to walk around with some semblance of confidence and competence.

just have good posture, and don’t take things too seriously, it’s way easier said than done especially when you’ve overreacted to slightly disrespectful social cues your whole life, but people respect someone that can handle slight verbal mogs and wittily reply.

 

[whiteislandpill]

Fucking shit I hate my fucking life, I had a brutal experience tonight.

I went to a big village my grandma grew up in and most of the past 3 days has been extremely good - I was riding my bike the whole day, listening to music, chilling basically.

However, tonight I went to take a walk around the local lake. It was pitch dark and there was a group of girls, idk how many because it was dark, sitting in circle and talking.

Girls asked me

"Who are you?"

-I am not from here

"Whats your name?"

I tell them my name and one of the girls says "ok leave us alone we are talking".

Another whore added

"Ohhhhhh pooor guyy I feel so badd"


I stormed home and started beating the shit out of my pillow. I have no idea if they saw my face or not, but if they have this is by far the most brutal thing that happened to me. I fucking hate my life.

Why would you get so angry about something that insignificant. Fuck those hoes. Why would you give a fuck about what they think about you. Get tf over it man you have nothing to be sad about

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Why would you get so angry about something that insignificant. Fuck those hoes. Why would you give a fuck about what they think about you. Get tf over it man you have nothing to be sad about

Because my entire self worth is based on other people's validation.

I remember even as a kid, whenever I helped my mom or dad with anything, I did what they called "asking for a trophy". I would ask "was I helpful? Did I save your time?".

Being focused on looksmaxxing and getting this kind of reactions from foids who I am looksmaxxing for in the first place makes me lose all motivation and will to live for the next hour, day, week or a month depending on how brutal it was.

I hide it quite well from others irl but they probably think I am some kind of a psycho who's mood changes from one day to the other (again, based on the reactions I get)

 

[whiteislandpill]

Because my entire self worth is based on other people's validation.

I remember even as a kid, whenever I helped my mom or dad with anything, I did what they called "asking for a trophy". I would ask "was I helpful? Did I save your time?".

Being focused on looksmaxxing and getting this kind of reactions from foids who I am looksmaxxing for in the first place makes me lose all motivation and will to live for the next hour, day, week or a month depending on how brutal it was.

I hide it quite well from others irl but they probably think I am some kind of a psycho who's mood changes from one day to the other (again, based on the reactions I get)

You will get over it, trust me bro

 

[Artbreeder Is Law]

my value is 100% determined by the way I am percieved.

And here we go this is the problem in this modern era everybody try to cope « don’t let other dictate you your own value »
But the problem is that nowadays the way people look at you is pretty important because it defines your place in society, you can choose to live without it but you'll just be seen as undesirable "you literally have to please others before pleasing yourself".
After all, I think you just have to keep a low profile and take it or do whatever you want when you're not the main character (hello chad).

 

[Lonenely sigma]

And here we go this is the problem in this modern era everybody try to cope « don’t let other dictate you your own value »
But the problem is that nowadays the way people look at you is pretty important because it defines your place in society, you can choose to live without it but you'll just be seen as undesirable "you literally have to please others before pleasing yourself".
After all, I think you just have to keep a low profile and take it or do whatever you want when you're not the main character (hello chad).

Completely agreed. "Don't care about what others think" or "don't compare yourself to others" are just copes because irl you will be judged and compared.

Maybe its shallow. Actually, it is shallow completely.

But a foid rejecting you by saying "you are not my type", or "I am not ready" isn't any less shallow than me not liking a girl because I know her maxilla sucks. At the end of the day, everyone will judge your maxilla more than your character, whether they are aware of it or not.

 

[Artbreeder Is Law]

Completely agreed. "Don't care about what others think" or "don't compare yourself to others" are just copes because irl you will be judged and compared.

Maybe its shallow. Actually, it is shallow completely.

But a foid rejecting you by saying "you are not my type", or "I am not ready" isn't any less shallow than me not liking a girl because I know her maxilla sucks. At the end of the day, everyone will judge your maxilla more than your character, whether they are aware of it or not.

Yeah at the end everything is about your
« personality »

 

[depressionmaxxing]

„Lonenely sigma“

 

[vanillaicecream]

Damn i feel for you, that sounds like something that would devastate me to the very same extent. But how did you respond? I would've told them that I'm in a public space and have no obligation to leave

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Damn i feel for you, that sounds like something that would devastate me to the very same extent. But how did you respond? I would've told them that I'm in a public space and have no obligation to leave

Well it was completely dark so they didn't really see me so I just walked away to the home. So to them I almost didn't even respond, they were laughing as I left and that made me quite mad.

I went home and broke once I entered my room, but then I got out of my room and pretended like nothing happened so that my relatives don't bore me.

Btw those foids were generation 09 while I told them I am 05, so getting laughed at by someone so young made me so depressed. Girls at that age are the worst.

 

[Geoff2024]

Doubt it but thanks for the cope, I will probably repeat it tonight

Dm me your face i will be honest with ya.

 

[humanoidsub7]

Well it was completely dark so they didn't really see me so I just walked away to the home. So to them I almost didn't even respond, they were laughing as I left and that made me quite mad.

I went home and broke once I entered my room, but then I got out of my room and pretended like nothing happened so that my relatives don't bore me.

Nothing similar has happened to me but i understand your feeling. I relate to all you said a lot so idk...
If you're considering surgery, get them, and just erase your past. I could never live the same way knowing i was treated like a subhuman through my whole life.