ubicuse
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I was raped 3 months ago. I’m 18f.
i read somewhere if u pretended to ‘enjoy’ it the perpetrator would be less rough. that’s what happened. i pretended like it was sex and i’ve never told anyone this. not even the cops or my therapist.
i know it was rape. because he was an intruder and i begged him to stop. he was rough initially and it’s was so painful. so i realised the only way to make it less rough is to pretend like i wanted it. so i started enjoying it. i moaned and came with him. i feel so disgusted with myself. he raped me(idk if i should even call it that) for 4 hours and i moaned and kind of encouraged him by reciprocating it.
i’m so ashamed. he was never caught. i told my parents that i was raped few weeks later. my parents immediately made a police report and i went to therapy. i’m embarrassed to tell my therapist about this. i don’t feel like a woman.
i hate myself. i even have the urge to masturbate to it sometimes.
i joined a SA victims group and i feel like i don’t deserve to be there because i encouraged the man to rape me. i was enjoying it which was why i orgasmed every single time. is this normal?
i read somewhere if u pretended to ‘enjoy’ it the perpetrator would be less rough. that’s what happened. i pretended like it was sex and i’ve never told anyone this. not even the cops or my therapist.
i know it was rape. because he was an intruder and i begged him to stop. he was rough initially and it’s was so painful. so i realised the only way to make it less rough is to pretend like i wanted it. so i started enjoying it. i moaned and came with him. i feel so disgusted with myself. he raped me(idk if i should even call it that) for 4 hours and i moaned and kind of encouraged him by reciprocating it.
i’m so ashamed. he was never caught. i told my parents that i was raped few weeks later. my parents immediately made a police report and i went to therapy. i’m embarrassed to tell my therapist about this. i don’t feel like a woman.
i hate myself. i even have the urge to masturbate to it sometimes.
i joined a SA victims group and i feel like i don’t deserve to be there because i encouraged the man to rape me. i was enjoying it which was why i orgasmed every single time. is this normal?