I will never have real friends, family or a relationship

[MoggerGaston]

Due to being abused in my childhood, I don't process emotions anymore like normal people. Whenever there is some situation where I should/would feel emotion, my mind represses it. I enter a state of disassociation to cope with whatever situation I am dealing with.

When I socialize with others, I do the same and I expect them to do the same too. Every smile, every laugh, every touch, it is all fake. I mimic normal behavioral patterns, while not feeling any emotion.

Realizing this, it's impossible for me to ever get any real connection with another person; I am permanently destroyed from childhood abuse.

Unironically I am bateman-maxxed


I will have to live in solitude my entire life, because socializing offers me no benefit when I can't process emotions like normal people do.

 

[pajjeetslayer]

bbc worthy thread gj

 

[amin666bidelt]

Due to being abused in my childhood, I don't process emotions anymore like normal people. Whenever there is some situation where I should/would feel emotion, my mind represses it. I enter a state of disassociation to cope with whatever situation I am dealing with.

When I socialize with others, I do the same and I expect them to do the same too. Every smile, every laugh, every touch, it is all fake. I mimic normal behavioral patterns, while not feeling any emotion.

Realizing this, it's impossible for me to ever get any real connection with another person; I am permanently destroyed from childhood abuse.

Unironically I am bateman-maxxed


I will have to live in solitude my entire life, because socializing offers me no benefit when I can't process emotions like normal people do.

go er

 

[BabuJi]

I had the same issues and I did weed gummies for 18 months, and magic mushrooms

Ended up in a psych ward 3 months ago, but since then I've been able to process a lot of childhood stuff. I feel more normal now than I ever did.

It's Sixpence btw.

Have you thought of Ayheusca or Peyote?

 

[MoggerGaston]

I had the same issues and I did weed gummies for 18 months, and magic mushrooms

Ended up in a psych ward 3 months ago, but since then I've been able to process a lot of childhood stuff. I feel more normal now than I ever did.

It's Sixpence btw.

Have you thought of Ayheusca or Peyote?

been doing mdma, shrooms, mephedrone and ketamine a lot the last 2 years and I do feel emotions while high, but there's little lasting effect.
same with LSD

glad it helped you though. I could try peyote, but it seems overly complicated/expensive to use compared to just shrooms which I can buy legally here.

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Due to being abused in my childhood, I don't process emotions anymore like normal people. Whenever there is some situation where I should/would feel emotion, my mind represses it. I enter a state of disassociation to cope with whatever situation I am dealing with.

When I socialize with others, I do the same and I expect them to do the same too. Every smile, every laugh, every touch, it is all fake. I mimic normal behavioral patterns, while not feeling any emotion.

Realizing this, it's impossible for me to ever get any real connection with another person; I am permanently destroyed from childhood abuse.

Unironically I am bateman-maxxed


I will have to live in solitude my entire life, because socializing offers me no benefit when I can't process emotions like normal people do.

I’m in the exact same situation. Physical and psychological abuse really does hinder you in every aspect of life when it comes to connecting and even enjoying people’s company

 

[romanstock]

Same. I tried playing The Sims, but I couldn't connect with them either.

 

[sub5outsider]

i hate everyone bc everyone treat me like shit

 

[MoggerGaston]

I’m in the exact same situation. Physical and psychological abuse really does hinder you in every aspect of life when it comes to connecting and even enjoying people’s company

My nervous system is destroyed. They took away my ability to get any enjoyment out of life.

I am dead on the inside, waiting to die on the outside. It's over.

 

[davidlaidisme67]

My nervous system is destroyed. They took away my ability to get any enjoyment out of life.

I am dead on the inside, waiting to die on the outside. It's over.

I feel the exact same. I can’t even cope with psychedelics or anything as they just enhance the emptiness or make me more aware of it. What the actual fuck is the life we live?

 

[MoggerGaston]

I feel the exact same. I can’t even cope with psychedelics or anything as they just enhance the emptiness or make me more aware of it. What the actual fuck is the life we live?

yeah psychedelics are too brutal for me nowadays, it's like you say: you become extremely aware of how dead/empty you are on the inside.

This life is total shit and garbage.

 

[Everythingislaw]

Due to being abused in my childhood, I don't process emotions anymore like normal people. Whenever there is some situation where I should/would feel emotion, my mind represses it. I enter a state of disassociation to cope with whatever situation I am dealing with.

When I socialize with others, I do the same and I expect them to do the same too. Every smile, every laugh, every touch, it is all fake. I mimic normal behavioral patterns, while not feeling any emotion.

Realizing this, it's impossible for me to ever get any real connection with another person; I am permanently destroyed from childhood abuse.

Unironically I am bateman-maxxed


I will have to live in solitude my entire life, because socializing offers me no benefit when I can't process emotions like normal people do.

I relate to this so much. I have a narcissistic, shitty dad who shamed me whenever i passionately showed my emotions or acted the way that crossed the borders of his utopia where i was basically his loyal little slave that didnt had a mind nor a will on my own and just did whatever he ordered me. And after years of this routine here i am, a shy loser who cant form any emotional bond with other people because whenever he tries to his brain just forms this invisible shield that no emotions can enter nor flow through. I wish hell upon him for that.