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Coping manlets hate me - Manlet killer
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As much as it pains me to have to do this, I must do this and I will do this. I know what awaits me is a life of misery and brutality, but I also know I will be a lot more productive. When I'm high I don't care to accomplish anything, and when I'm sober I don't have the motivation to accomplish anything. This needs to change.
Remembering back to how my life was half a year ago (I was completely clean off anything back then, didn't even smoke weed) makes me scared. Because I know this is going to be my future now. Back to taking long walks at night and laying down on shadow lit parts of the road in hopes someone will drive me over. Back to inability to enjoy anything. It is what it is bitch. My grades were doing great and I was productive at least. That's why I need to do this again. And I will.
Remembering back to how my life was half a year ago (I was completely clean off anything back then, didn't even smoke weed) makes me scared. Because I know this is going to be my future now. Back to taking long walks at night and laying down on shadow lit parts of the road in hopes someone will drive me over. Back to inability to enjoy anything. It is what it is bitch. My grades were doing great and I was productive at least. That's why I need to do this again. And I will.
