i wish i could die after finishing school

[jules-pill]

there is no point, acc i could die rn and it wouldnt make a diff for me. its just my family man... i sincerely that i have an uncurable illness that wont make me live till 20.
maybe that would make people want to be around me more due to the limited time i have. maybe i could acc find love.
maybe that would fix all my problems.
oh man, it isnt fair. how does evb around me evolve to be able to love? how can they be so carefree? how can they find a mutual? i dont understand. idk how long it has been since a girl showed interest in me. going out with friends, frolicking in the fields with a pretty girlfriend, having her meet ur family... oh, i wish i could do that. ive been wanting to kms since the age of 11. ive been wanting for the world to form around me, for everyone to admire since i can think. that cute bright child, i dont think it exists anymore. i dont know how to love myself. theres so much i dont uderstand. why? why? why? WHY?
i wish i wouldnt have betrayed my only true love. she was like me, but in girl....
why am i even allowed to live? ive done committed so many sins, and even though i dont believe in god, wont he come and take me? wont he release me from all the agony?

ANYWAYS, IM GRATEFUL FOR BEING GREY BC THIS THREAD WILL JS BE IGNORED ANDI CAN JUST DUMP THAT SHIT WITHOUT ANYBODY CARING. IF YOU CLICKED ON THIS, IGNORE.

Have fun boyos love yall

 

[dstivvy]

Complete opposite for me
I want people to leave me alone, to only talk to me when I want them to, and to leave me alone otherwise

 

[jules-pill]

Complete opposite for me
I want people to leave me alone, to only talk to me when I want them to, and to leave my alone otherwise

i wish people would talk to me

 

[dstivvy]

i wish people would talk to me

People don’t talk to understand normal circumstances either, it’s why I would rather be completely left alone

 

[TrueSlavic]

there is no point, acc i could die rn and it wouldnt make a diff for me. its just my family man... i sincerely that i have an uncurable illness that wont make me live till 20.
maybe that would make people want to be around me more due to the limited time i have. maybe i could acc find love.
maybe that would fix all my problems.
oh man, it isnt fair. how does evb around me evolve to be able to love? how can they be so carefree? how can they find a mutual? i dont understand. idk how long it has been since a girl showed interest in me. going out with friends, frolicking in the fields with a pretty girlfriend, having her meet ur family... oh, i wish i could do that. ive been wanting to kms since the age of 11. ive been wanting for the world to form around me, for everyone to admire since i can think. that cute bright child, i dont think it exists anymore. i dont know how to love myself. theres so much i dont uderstand. why? why? why? WHY?
i wish i wouldnt have betrayed my only true love. she was like me, but in girl....
why am i even allowed to live? ive done committed so many sins, and even though i dont believe in god, wont he come and take me? wont he release me from all the agony?

ANYWAYS, IM GRATEFUL FOR BEING GREY BC THIS THREAD WILL JS BE IGNORED ANDI CAN JUST DUMP THAT SHIT WITHOUT ANYBODY CARING. IF YOU CLICKED ON THIS, IGNORE.

Have fun boyos love yall

damn man this is tough i pray for a miracle so you can live long life