I wish I was a kid again

[134applesauce456]

fuck Im going to college next year
I have no idea what college I want to go to
I have no idea what I want to be
I have no aspirations
Nothing makes me happy (that I could actually monetize)
I dont even have a desire to be rich/succesful, I know money and material things wouldnt make me happy long term
except for good looks, so I would only wageslave for surgeries
but looks inevitably decline with age, so again in the long run its all pointless
and I doubt ill be able to studycel to get a good career because I have not an ounce of discipline in me

im so fucking lazy I procrastinate and struggle to copy assignments from CHATGPT onto paper im not joking, I wish I was


anyways I was planning to kms by 18, I had that plan since I was a 6 year old kid legit. but I dont want to follow through because my family invested so much into me and they would be heartbroken

I didnt ask to be born in this world though fuark why did they have to do this to me, this world is damn near biblically accurate hell

 

[ClearEmOut]

I like you

 

[160cmcurry]

nice

 

[warmth]

i reasonate a lot with what you wrote. spent my college years (before finally deciding to drop out) doing heavy drugs and chasing validation. i think that you'll find your path and things will be fine eventually.

 

[134applesauce456]

i reasonate a lot with what you wrote. spent my college years (before finally deciding to drop out) doing heavy drugs and chasing validation. i think that you'll find your path and things will be fine eventually.

wow bhai what did you do after you decided to drop out? I have no idea what I want to be or even study for

 

[warmth]

wow bhai what did you do after you decided to drop out? I have no idea what I want to be or even study for

i wish i could find my old posts, where I tell my life history, to send you, but they were all deleted. to sum up because it's already morning and i haven't slept: you never know how your life will turn out to be and how you'll feel about it 3-5 years from now, so make sure to stay breathing, just in case. you'll be fine.