I wish I was always high on dopamine

[nestivv]

I have bipolar disorder and whenever I'm in hypomania I feel like conquering world. I wish I was always like that. If I was always high, I'd be millionaire right now. I'd be the greatest men who ever lived. I'd be that guy, that guy!

But no. . After high, comes down. I can't control it. And I hate it.
I hate depression. Depression sucks so badly.
My biggest regret is that I wasn't born like 800 years later. I'd just do some high tech brain operation and cure my mental illnesses.
Unfortunately, I have to deal with this shit to the end of my miserable life!
Unlucky!

 

[nestivv]

 

[inversions]

I would recommend meth

 

[nestivv]

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[nestivv]

No one cares!

 

[nestivv]

I would recommend meth

I tried weed, didn't like it

 

[inversions]

I tried weed, didn't like it

Yeah you need something that will stimulate dopamine

Like amphetamines

 

[VampyrMaxx]

Eat raw meat and youll cure some of it

 

[Eskorbutin]

I have the belief hypomania episodes are what we used to call enlightenment when for example some philosopher would write as if he was being channeled some ininteligible gospel from the cosmos, maybe an artist would go on creative and draw for days locked; now this is not worth for us, they removed the funnel for your energy, so you are called like this in hopes that you become something "useful" at some point by pure self flagellation. I think there's no fix and there will not be any fix, you (yourself) are not the problem, if you are unlucky, it's not because of your condition.

 

[aethus]

solution: nicotine

 

[nestivv]

solution: nicotine

I'm already vaping

 

[nestivv]

I have the belief hypomania episodes are what we used to call enlightenment when some philosopher would write as if he was being channeled some ininteligible gospel from the cosmos; now this is not worth for us, they removed the funnel for your energy, so you are called like this in hopes that you become something "useful" at some point by pure self flagellation. I think there's no fix and there will not be any fix, you (yourself) are not the problem, if you are unlucky, it's not because of your condition.

Interesting. So I shouldn't take my meds?

 

[aethus]

Interesting. So I shouldn't take my meds?

don't slower your cognitive thinking and dull personality pls

 

[VampyrMaxx]

solution: nicotine

No solution is to fix the gut microbiome by getting really healthy raw meat and eating that consistently over a period of time. This will help woth bipolar episodes, depression, etc. If you keep eating slop, eventually your brain will be that

 

[Eskorbutin]

Interesting. So I shouldn't take my meds?

I stopped taking mine around 7 years ago, it has been a ride but I'm glad I did it. However I don't know exactly your set of psychological conditions so I don't want to advice something against your safety. I did it because I felt my intuition telling me it was what I needed to do

 

[nestivv]

I stopped taking mine around 7 years ago, it has been a ride but I'm glad I did it. However I don't know exactly your set of psychological conditions so I don't want to advice something against your safety. I did it because I felt my intuition telling me it was what I needed to do

You're suffering from bipolar disorder too?

 

[Eskorbutin]

You're suffering from bipolar disorder too?

No, but I was diagnosed my stuff very early and my parents refused to acknowledge until very late so I developed other problems

 

[mohi_100]

There were many great artists who had the same issues, bro. Don’t be too hard on yourself.. sending love

 

[100%nt]

I have bipolar disorder and whenever I'm in hypomania I feel like conquering world. I wish I was always like that. If I was always high, I'd be millionaire right now. I'd be the greatest men who ever lived. I'd be that guy, that guy!

But no. . After high, comes down. I can't control it. And I hate it.
I hate depression. Depression sucks so badly.
My biggest regret is that I wasn't born like 800 years later. I'd just do some high tech brain operation and cure my mental illnesses.
Unfortunately, I have to deal with this shit to the end of my miserable life!
Unlucky!

i have it too,i know how it feels.
it did get slightly better once i got a good diet and healthy test levels
but i guess its like this forever

 

[nestivv]

No, but I was diagnosed my stuff very early and my parents refused to acknowledge until very late so I developed other problems

Are you high sometimes too? Like you feel extremely great?

 

[Norm Macdonald]

don't slower your cognitive thinking and dull personality pls

Yung Lean would disagree

make sure to keep taking your meds @nestivv

 

[nestivv]

i have it too,i know how it feels.
it did get slightly better once i got a good diet and healthy test levels
but i guess its like this forever

Yes it's end life illness. But meds help
Can I ask you : did you do something crazy during mania/hypomania?

 

[yesimog420]

Your already always high on dopamine that’s your baseline and if you doubled your baseline then that would still be a baseline since your brain doesn’t have any downs and ups to compare

Hence why it’s not possible

 

[yesimog420]

solution: nicotine

Ggggg fuckk I’m 2 weeks clean the urges to hit agaib

 

[yesimog420]

Try adderall maybe isn’t that made for you?

 

[nestivv]

Try adderall maybe isn’t that made for you?

I'm on mood stabilization pills right now. I'm slightly high with my mood but I'm stable and down to earth

 

[yesimog420]

I'm on mood stabilization pills right now. I'm slightly high with my mood but I'm stable and down to earth

Good good havent you tried quitting all drugs tho? I’m currently almost 3 weeks or so clean and I feel great although cravings are a whore

 

[Eskorbutin]

Are you high sometimes too? Like you feel extremely great?

Yes I totally do, it's difficult too to channel this energy, with time you build your methods and understand, but if your are under the autism spectrum this is more difficult to do, it's very personal. I love this great quote by David Lynch that says "depression is the lack of expression".

You have to embrace that you genuinely see the world in a different way.

 

[nestivv]

Good good havent you tried quitting all drugs tho? I’m currently almost 3 weeks or so clean and I feel great although cravings are a whore

If I'll quit my medication I may fall to full mania and be non voluntary hospitalised

 

[Eskorbutin]

If I'll quit my medication I may fall to full mania and be non voluntary hospitalised

This is what I meant earlier, you sometimes can't just do it and you need to progressively work yourself there

 

[aethus]

Ggggg fuckk I’m 2 weeks clean the urges to hit agaib

It's been month since i stopped, comeback to it, i have no motivation for life, more mood switches

 

[100%nt]

Yes it's end life illness. But meds help
Can I ask you : did you do something crazy during mania/hypomania?

i usually like just hit myself during mania
the first time it happened i just straight up blocked most of my friends.
i recovered most of them ,but this girl i was talking with doesnt wanna talk to me now.

meds dont really help either,my sister has bpd too and she is taking something.she said it doesnt really help,just makes everything more average and grey instead of black and white.

im not taking them though

 

[100%nt]

I'm on mood stabilization pills right now. I'm slightly high with my mood but I'm stable and down to earth

i heard they can sometimes be worse,is that not true?

 

[nestivv]

i usually like just hit myself during mania
the first time it happened i just straight up blocked most of my friends.
i recovered most of them ,but this girl i was talking with doesnt wanna talk to me now.

meds dont really help either,my sister has bpd too and she is taking something.she said it doesnt really help,just makes everything more average and grey instead of black and white.

im not taking them though

Interesting. I feel for you brother.
Hopefully you'll be fine

 

[optimisticzoomer]

The solution is to never be high on dopamine

 

[nestivv]

i heard they can sometimes be worse,is that not true?

Well they made me bloated for sure
But they actually help, stabilise my mood. It took a while to know right set of medication for me but when my doctor found it, I became better person

 

[nestivv]

The solution is to never be high on dopamine

Ok!!? Thank you!!!
I'll remember that!

 

[Fridx]

I also might have bipolar disorder these 2 are my personality
I hope you get well soon

 

[nestivv]

I also might have bipolar disorder these 2 are my personality
I hope you get well soon

Fridx, you're great person and definitely mentally sain

 

[yesimog420]

It's been month since i stopped, comeback to it, i have no motivation for life, more mood switches

Stuff should pass after 1-2 months but yeah I was thinking about smoking weed aswell and trying other drugs

No new year goals I guess but Atleast I’m happy

 

[optimisticzoomer]

Ok!!? Thank you!!!
I'll remember that!

 

[aethus]

Stuff should pass after 1-2 months but yeah I was thinking about smoking weed aswell and trying other drugs

No new year goals I guess but Atleast I’m happy

no idc abou t these dopamine receptors adjusting, im just about to smoke cig now

 

[nestivv]

Stuff should pass after 1-2 months but yeah I was thinking about smoking weed aswell and trying other drugs

No new year goals I guess but Atleast I’m happy

Are u bipolar too?

 

[nestivv]

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Yes! Exactly! You are my mentor!!!

 

[nestivv]

no idc abou t these dopamine receptors adjusting, im just about to smoke cig now

Dopamine is so crucial to human mental health.

 

[yesimog420]

Are u bipolar too?

Prob not havent done any mental tests tbh

Im a soy mood swinger when I use nicotine tho but I feel it’s more cause of the shit sleep that spikes my stress

Tbh now I’m quite calm

 

[yesimog420]

no idc abou t these dopamine receptors adjusting, im just about to smoke cig now