I wish i was happy

[Jsa16]

Something is wrong with me. I have every reason to be happy, i have a gf, a good church, great friends etc., and i should be happy, but i just feel emotianally grey. Im convinced i cant experience happines like most people do. There is always some kind of grey emotion in me just being in the middle of my heart. I wish to be truly happy once

 

[Jsa16]

And for whatever reason i feel like i need to talk about this to maybe its to let some weight go off me but i never feel comfortable telling this to someone i know everyone is under the assumption that i am completely normal so here i am ranting to strangers