I wish I was mute because i'm retarded

[Gaypajeet38]

Sometimes I wish I was mute because I keep saying retarded shit in social situations. Does anyone else feel this way? I don't feel like improving my personality because I've accepted being socially retarded beyond saving

 

[Deleted member 271577]

Sometimes I wish I was mute because I keep saying retarded shit in social situations. Does anyone else feel this way? I don't feel like improving my personality because I've accepted being socially retarded beyond saving

give an example

 

[Gaypajeet38]

give an example

I tend to force my brain to forget what I say but I'll just blurt out inappropriate shit or egg my equally retarded friends on to say stupid shit. I was hanging out with some classmates and my retarded homie yells "LATINA DICK" at this random guy with his latina gf.

 

[Taylors_Lil_Ethnic]

Sometimes I wish I was mute because I keep saying retarded shit in social situations. Does anyone else feel this way? I don't feel like improving my personality because I've accepted being socially retarded beyond saving

EXposure therapy bruh. Keep humilating yourself till your desensitized to it

 

[Gaypajeet38]

EXposure therapy bruh. Keep humilating yourself till your desensitized to it

I've done every humiliation ritual under the sun and I'm tired of it. I used to feel less shame but it gets worse with the way I feel. I wish I was NT

 

[Taylors_Lil_Ethnic]

I've done every humiliation ritual under the sun and I'm tired of it. I used to feel less shame but it gets worse with the way I feel. I wish I was NT

Coming from an ND social reject bro, keep doing it especially expose yourself to foids soooo much that it becomes second nature to just chill or just overdose on aswagandha and lose all inhibbition

 

[Gaypajeet38]

Coming from an ND social reject bro, keep doing it especially expose yourself to foids soooo much that it becomes second nature to just chill or just overdose on aswagandha and lose all inhibbition

I used to be addicted to both opiates and benzos (I'm back on benzos nonprescription) and it makes me more chill but I'm aware I can't live like this forever. I heard coming off benzos is extremely difficult and the only time in my life where i actually wanted to live was when i OD'D on opiates because the experience was so awful. For a while I was regularly drinking but it made me gain a lot of weight, it made me more chaotic but people liked me more somehow? It's just very hard being very autistic, part of my substance abuse is due to mental/childhood stuff but a lot of it is the desire to feel normal. Being ND is the worst thing that's ever happened to me and I can barely function as a human being but on top of that i'm ugly as fuck. Just so brutal.

 

[Taylors_Lil_Ethnic]

I used to be addicted to both opiates and benzos (I'm back on benzos nonprescription) and it makes me more chill but I'm aware I can't live like this forever. I heard coming off benzos is extremely difficult and the only time in my life where i actually wanted to live was when i OD'D on opiates because the experience was so awful. For a while I was regularly drinking but it made me gain a lot of weight, it made me more chaotic but people liked me more somehow? It's just very hard being very autistic, part of my substance abuse is due to mental/childhood stuff but a lot of it is the desire to feel normal. Being ND is the worst thing that's ever happened to me and I can barely function as a human being but on top of that i'm ugly as fuck. Just so brutal.

So sorry dude i cant help with anything if your low masking nd, im high masking so its okay generally for me. But im really sorry i wish i could help but its easy for me to give you advice when i dont experience stuff like this, the only one who can save you is you.

 

[Gaypajeet38]

So sorry dude i cant help with anything if your low masking nd, im high masking so its okay generally for me. But im really sorry i wish i could help but its easy for me to give you advice when i dont experience stuff like this, the only one who can save you is you.

Thanks regardless bro but I definitely do try and mask. There are a lot of things I've done to mask but it seems like the most insufferable retards can see through it.