I wish I was never born

[IntelligentCel]

I literally wish I was never born. If there was a time machine I can use to travel back in time, the moments before my subhuman dad impregnated my average-IQ mother, I would have traveled and killed them both. That way I would prevent my birth and vanish from existence.

If there was a magical device that can make me just vanish from existence in less than a second, without experiencing pain, I would have pressed the button.

If there was a way to make myself die without causing emotional pain to my relatives, I would have used that way.

Every single day is nothing but schizoid fantasies, psychological turmoil and internal conflicts. I will never have a normal life.

All these looks-improving surgeries cost abnormal amounts of money. Bimax is about 30,000 $/€, which is not normal.

Wage slaving to save money for surgeries is a subhuman experience. My life is the worst life you can possibly imagine. Not even a single person on that planet suffers like I do.

 

[Esteban1997]

Why dont you kill your parents since they gave you those genes instead of killing yourself

 

[Ultimate Subhuman™]

Why dont you kill your parents since they gave you those genes instead of killing yourself

High Iq, This will in turn create paradox where Op is raped in prison

 

[BideltMaxer]

Dnr

 

[IntelligentCel]

Why dont you kill your parents since they gave you those genes

My mother's genes are fine, her jaw is law.

Problematic genes come from my subhuman father whom I hate with all the hate I can possibly generate.

 

[Clqs]

Get those T levels up son u sound like a fag

 

[_MVP_]

sounds like me *vegetavoice*

 

[IntelligentCel]

Get those T levels up son u sound like a fag

They are 5,000 ng/dL (total T), free testosterone is 1.8 above the reference range.

 

[_MVP_]

Get those T levels up son u sound like a fag

who is this FaG IN UR PFP

 

[6PSLcel]

I feel you, im gonna have to waste 3 years and 50k, if not more, just to begin to look like a human.

 

[Idm55]

It's not over yet, get a calithe watch or smth

 

[Clqs]

who is this FaG IN UR PFP

Ma boi Vasiliy

 

[IntelligentCel]

I feel you, im gonna have to waste 3 years and 50k, if not more, just to begin to look like a human.

Bro, it's brutal...

I literally haven't smiled and expressed any positive emotions for years (10+ years) when in public, since I became blackpilled.

 

[Deleted member 85249]

>intelligentcel
>not intelligent enough to cure his depression even tho all the needed info is out there

 

[6PSLcel]

>intelligentcel
>not intelligent enough to cure his depression even tho all the needed info is out there

you can't cure bad genes, retard.

 

[IntelligentCel]

>intelligentcel
>not intelligent enough to cure his depression even tho all the needed info is out there

What info? I either have the money for the surgeries I need or I don't have the money. There is no in-between scenario.

 

[Deleted member 85249]

you can't cure bad genes, retard.

genes have nothing to do with your mental state, retard

 

[6PSLcel]

genes have nothing to do with your mental state, retard

you're a greycel who joined 2 days ago i'll pardon your retard-ness this time.

 

[Deleted member 85249]

What info? I either have the money for the surgeries I need or I don't have the money. There is no in-between scenario.

or you choose a third option where youre happy regardless, since you have the freedom to do so

 

[IntelligentCel]

genes have nothing to do with your mental state, retard

I consider myself ugly and in need of looks-improving surgeries.

No money = no surgeries.

No surgeries = depression, demoralization and retreating into a schizoid fantasy world.

 

[Deleted member 85249]

I consider myself ugly and in need of looks-improving surgeries.

Why? Why cant you just accept the way you look without surgeries?

No surgeries = depression, demoralization and retreating into a schizoid fantasy world.

Why? Because you say so. You set that system up for yourself

 

[IntelligentCel]

or you choose a third option where youre happy regardless, since you have the freedom to do so

Being happy with... what exactly? I published multiple photos of me in Ratings, and people said I'm a recessed fuck. Do you want me to show you? Here it is:

Rate my chin and jaw growth (IntelligentCel)

As usual, there are wide lens distortions (and compaction caused by this). The photos were taken at about 50 cm distance from my face. I still haven't received the selfie stick I ordered, so I can't just put the phone at the level of my face and walk 5 meters away. When I receive the selfie...

looksmax.org

It seems the photos are not accurate (fraud angle), and this means, according to another user's estimation, that I'm recessed.

 

[Deleted member 85249]

Being happy with... what exactly?

Life. You have the freedom to live life and do anything you wish to do.

I published multiple photos of me in Ratings, and people said I'm a recessed fuck. Do you want me to show you? Here it is:

Rate my chin and jaw growth (IntelligentCel)

As usual, there are wide lens distortions (and compaction caused by this). The photos were taken at about 50 cm distance from my face. I still haven't received the selfie stick I ordered, so I can't just put the phone at the level of my face and walk 5 meters away. When I receive the selfie...

looksmax.org

It seems the photos are not accurate (fraud angle), and this means, according to another user's estimation, that I'm recessed.

Ok, and? This doesn't affect your life and you're probably not truly recessed, have you seen an orthodontist?

"B-but you need to be chad to get a woman!!!"
>most normies out there have gfs because women are benevolent creatures that put up with it

 

[Deleted member 75035]

I literally wish I was never born. If there was a time machine I can use to travel back in time, the moments before my subhuman dad impregnated my average-IQ mother, I would have traveled and killed them both. That way I would prevent my birth and vanish from existence.

If there was a magical device that can make me just vanish from existence in less than a second, without experiencing pain, I would have pressed the button.

If there was a way to make myself die without causing emotional pain to my relatives, I would have used that way.

Every single day is nothing but schizoid fantasies, psychological turmoil and internal conflicts. I will never have a normal life.

All these looks-improving surgeries cost abnormal amounts of money. Bimax is about 30,000 $/€, which is not normal.

Wage slaving to save money for surgeries is a subhuman experience. My life is the worst life you can possibly imagine. Not even a single person on that planet suffers like I do.

or you get the surgery and get botched

 

[IntelligentCel]

women are benevolent creatures

 

[Deleted member 85249]

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"This paper investigates gender differences in personality traits, both at the level of the Big Five and at the sublevel of two aspects within each Big Five domain. Replicating previous findings, women reported higher Big Five Extraversion, Agreeableness, and Neuroticism scores than men."

 

[IntelligentCel]

Life. You have the freedom to live life and do anything you wish to do.


Ok, and? This doesn't affect your life and you're probably not truly recessed, have you seen an orthodontist?

"B-but you need to be chad to get a woman!!!"
>most normies out there have gfs because women are benevolent creatures that put up with it

I haven't seen an orthodontist yet, but I'm planning to do so soon. I have a slight open bite, but correcting it won't improve forward growth.

 

[Deleted member 85249]

I haven't seen an orthodontist yet, but I'm planning to do so soon. I have a slight open bite, but correcting it won't improve forward growth.

Okay. But remember that surgery wont make you happy. Find a purpose in life and pursue it in peace, knowing youre dedicating yourself towards achieving it to the fullest.

Being self-absorbed and thinking about your looks 24/7 is guaranteed depression.

 

[IntelligentCel]

Okay. But remember that surgery wont make you happy. Find a purpose in life and pursue it in peace, knowing youre dedicating yourself towards achieving it to the fullest.

Being self-absorbed and thinking about your looks 24/7 is guaranteed depression.

Achieving a PSL-level of looks and a Tate-level of social status and money is my end goal. I think about it every single second when I'm awake, it literally became my schizoid fantasy world.

 

[goobermaxxing17]

Why dont you kill your parents since they gave you those genes instead of killing yourself

peter griffin suicide hotline ahh reply

 

[Deleted member 85249]

Achieving a PSL-level of looks and a Tate-level of social status and money is my end goal. I think about it every single second when I'm awake, it literally became my schizoid fantasy world.

Thats why youre depressed you retard. Get out of your head and live in the real world, do something fun.

Holy shit, how can you proudly claim youre living in a schizoid fantasy and then complain about being depressed?

 

[IntelligentCel]

Thats why youre depressed you retard. Get out of your head and live in the real world, do something fun.

Holy shit, how can you proudly claim youre living in a schizoid fantasy and then complain about being depressed?

I can't have a normal life as an average man. I perceive being a man and average as a death sentence, so I can't feel normal as such man.

Being in the Top 1% is the only way for me to feel normal, not happy, but normal. Anything less will result in psychological turmoil, internal conflicts, and retreating into a schizoid fantasy world (social isolation and escapism).