awok
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This thread has been in the works for a good few weeks actually, basically since I joined.
Anyways, ill never be human. Or atleast able to experience what the average human can, I envy those who can feel love, or guilt, or remorse. I've struggled with those emotions my whole life, and im not sure ill ever fully grasp them. Which is why im making this post, to see if im not the only alien on earth type of thing, I know what I feel is common, but the exact way I feel I dont think will ever be replicated by anyone. Rage is most of what I feel, followed by sadness, envy, jealousy, and occasionally fleeting happiness. Do you think ill ever be normal? Is there hope for aliens like me? I hope so.
Memories of my practice.
Okay so this one time, pretty embarrassing actually but I feel like it needs to be said, I faked going in the shower to practice smiling and stuff, for the approximate hour 15 mins I was in there, all I did was smile, then frown, then smile, then frown again, practicing different eye movements and facial patterns as I did. It didnt work tho obviously, just like the hundreds of other times I've practiced, it got me nowhere, and I still dont smile, ever.
TLDR: angsty teenage autist feels like an alien
Anyways, ill never be human. Or atleast able to experience what the average human can, I envy those who can feel love, or guilt, or remorse. I've struggled with those emotions my whole life, and im not sure ill ever fully grasp them. Which is why im making this post, to see if im not the only alien on earth type of thing, I know what I feel is common, but the exact way I feel I dont think will ever be replicated by anyone. Rage is most of what I feel, followed by sadness, envy, jealousy, and occasionally fleeting happiness. Do you think ill ever be normal? Is there hope for aliens like me? I hope so.
Memories of my practice.
Okay so this one time, pretty embarrassing actually but I feel like it needs to be said, I faked going in the shower to practice smiling and stuff, for the approximate hour 15 mins I was in there, all I did was smile, then frown, then smile, then frown again, practicing different eye movements and facial patterns as I did. It didnt work tho obviously, just like the hundreds of other times I've practiced, it got me nowhere, and I still dont smile, ever.
TLDR: angsty teenage autist feels like an alien
