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Iron
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FYI I wrote this all into chat GPT all it did was fix my spelling and grammar cuz I’m stupid also before anyone says I’m larping Ive been diagnosed with adhd dyslexia and ocd sense Elementary school shit sucks ball I’ve have gotten many test over the years. Ok I’ve been on Zoloft and Adderall since around 8th grade (a few years now). About 8 months ago I also started Abilify. When I’m off Zoloft, I get depressed and my OCD becomes very intense. When I’m on it, my libido is extremely low.
In terms of PEDs and hormones: I ran a 2-month testosterone cycle at 350mg with an AI. I’ve been on 6 IU of HGH for about 4 months, and I did a 3-month MK-677 cycle at 15mg. I smoke weed most days and vape daily since 10th grade (weed not literally every single day, but close).
Right now I’m on Accutane, oral minoxidil, and PCT — nothing else. In about a month, I’m planning to run 8 IU of HGH for a few years.
Sexually, I’ve had two partners but struggle with erections and don’t get fully hard naturally. Testosterone helped while I was on cycle, but I never actually had sex — I mostly just masturbated. I’ve been masturbating daily for about a year. I’m in independent studies and only have one class per week, so I’m alone a lot and don’t have much structure, which probably contributes to that habit.
Mentally, blackpill content has had a big impact on me. It’s honestly what I think about most of the time. I act on it in terms of trying to improve my appearance, but I’ve become inconsistent and obsessive. It’s the main thing that draws my attention and motivation. Even though I’m 6’1” and objectively decent-looking, my confidence feels ruined because I constantly compare myself and fixate on flaws.
I’ve also been very unmotivated and lazy. Because I only have one class a week, I don’t do much day to day, which probably makes everything worse. I’m planning to go to community college after high school, work, and save money for a LeFort I surgery in the future.
Given all of this — psychiatric meds, testosterone cycle, HGH, MK-677, Accutane, weed, vaping, daily masturbation, libido issues, and obsessive focus on appearance — I’m trying to understand realistically how much I may have affected my hormones, brain chemistry, sexual function, or long-term development. I’m looking for serious, informed input. Also I’m decently popular in hs like I’m not the school smart nd I’m social and can read a room super well and funny
In terms of PEDs and hormones: I ran a 2-month testosterone cycle at 350mg with an AI. I’ve been on 6 IU of HGH for about 4 months, and I did a 3-month MK-677 cycle at 15mg. I smoke weed most days and vape daily since 10th grade (weed not literally every single day, but close).
Right now I’m on Accutane, oral minoxidil, and PCT — nothing else. In about a month, I’m planning to run 8 IU of HGH for a few years.
Sexually, I’ve had two partners but struggle with erections and don’t get fully hard naturally. Testosterone helped while I was on cycle, but I never actually had sex — I mostly just masturbated. I’ve been masturbating daily for about a year. I’m in independent studies and only have one class per week, so I’m alone a lot and don’t have much structure, which probably contributes to that habit.
Mentally, blackpill content has had a big impact on me. It’s honestly what I think about most of the time. I act on it in terms of trying to improve my appearance, but I’ve become inconsistent and obsessive. It’s the main thing that draws my attention and motivation. Even though I’m 6’1” and objectively decent-looking, my confidence feels ruined because I constantly compare myself and fixate on flaws.
I’ve also been very unmotivated and lazy. Because I only have one class a week, I don’t do much day to day, which probably makes everything worse. I’m planning to go to community college after high school, work, and save money for a LeFort I surgery in the future.
Given all of this — psychiatric meds, testosterone cycle, HGH, MK-677, Accutane, weed, vaping, daily masturbation, libido issues, and obsessive focus on appearance — I’m trying to understand realistically how much I may have affected my hormones, brain chemistry, sexual function, or long-term development. I’m looking for serious, informed input. Also I’m decently popular in hs like I’m not the school smart nd I’m social and can read a room super well and funny
like aight ik they're not saint but it comes to a point
