fuckit41
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I hate myself, truly and honestly, I can’t fucking talk to people, I mean, I can talk relatively well if a conversation begins and i’m interested in it, but going up to someone. Especially a girl. I physically can’t fucking do it. I’m so pathetic, i understand it may be due to my autism/adhd/ocd or something along these lines, but I despise using labels as a simple explanation, and end all cause. So what can i do, i just have it accepted in my head that ill be rejected, or i’m not worth their attention so its just shut down instantly before I even try. It’s the same with a lot in my life, I used to post a lot, but then Ive had some sort of drug/isolation induced psychotic episodes, and cut everyone off/gave up on texting posting talking etc for a while. (But even before this i’ve never been very confident or had the ability to approach girls or what not). Because I just felt like everyone was out to get me or hated me. I always assume rejection.
I’m 6 5/196, age 20, i’m not incredibly ugly or anything, and i’m gonna hop on reta for getting a bit leaner, and ghkcu for growing hair back better and other things, maybe bpc157 for gut skin healing whatever. Maybe cerebrolysin for brain repair. I’m also gonna take reta to help me fully quit weed, alcohol, binge eating, porn, (or at least from what I understand it can assist with stopping these) fix diet obviously, but i think the substance control could help a lot with my looks and ability to go up to people idk? however even before i did drugs and shit i couldn’t approach anyone either. But yea defo have a problem with substances and diet.
And don't get me wrong, I also rlly don’t like how I look at all, but im also not retarded completely, i’m aware i’m tall and not disgustingly ugly, even tho i feel like it. However, I do get like basically no matches on tinder, and I approached a girl recently when drunk and she looked like I was the most disgusting she’s ever had to lay her eyes on, im defo not up there yea. So to work on that as well any help is extremely valued!
Here’s some random pics of me, the last pic is a bit further ago when i had longer hair:
I just feel like i’m missing something u know?
Like, where is my want for life, my want for money, my want to walk up to people, cuz i do want it all i just don’t fucking do it.
I was considering test, for the libido, motivation, confidence, everything, i have all the symptoms of low test in that sense. But maybe I just need to look better?
And i’m aware that something like quitting weed would be very beneficial, and I will for looks and confidence, but surely if i was confident or just fluid socially or whatever it wouldn’t even matter, cuz even sober it’s not like i approach first anyways.
I’ve started again on a supplement stack too,
NAC 1600mg for anxiety, ocd and addictions
Omega 3
d3 + k2
Inositol sometimes for ocd/anxiety
L theanine sometimes
Magnesium
Activated b complex
Sometimes L Tyrosine
Saffron flower
And a few others now n then but overall not anything like crazy impactful i don’t think
FUCK I JUST u know, i’m going so insane, i feel like i’m just missing something huge, i need a change, i need that lust and confidence for life and people and hobbies and everything, that i’m lacking, any tips/advice? for looks, or overall wellbeing. Just where to start
I hate myself, truly and honestly, I can’t fucking talk to people, I mean, I can talk relatively well if a conversation begins and i’m interested in it, but going up to someone. Especially a girl. I physically can’t fucking do it. I’m so pathetic, i understand it may be due to my autism/adhd/ocd or something along these lines, but I despise using labels as a simple explanation, and end all cause. So what can i do, i just have it accepted in my head that ill be rejected, or i’m not worth their attention so its just shut down instantly before I even try. It’s the same with a lot in my life, I used to post a lot, but then Ive had some sort of drug/isolation induced psychotic episodes, and cut everyone off/gave up on texting posting talking etc for a while. (But even before this i’ve never been very confident or had the ability to approach girls or what not). Because I just felt like everyone was out to get me or hated me. I always assume rejection.
I’m 6 5/196, age 20, i’m not incredibly ugly or anything, and i’m gonna hop on reta for getting a bit leaner, and ghkcu for growing hair back better and other things, maybe bpc157 for gut skin healing whatever. Maybe cerebrolysin for brain repair. I’m also gonna take reta to help me fully quit weed, alcohol, binge eating, porn, (or at least from what I understand it can assist with stopping these) fix diet obviously, but i think the substance control could help a lot with my looks and ability to go up to people idk? however even before i did drugs and shit i couldn’t approach anyone either. But yea defo have a problem with substances and diet.
And don't get me wrong, I also rlly don’t like how I look at all, but im also not retarded completely, i’m aware i’m tall and not disgustingly ugly, even tho i feel like it. However, I do get like basically no matches on tinder, and I approached a girl recently when drunk and she looked like I was the most disgusting she’s ever had to lay her eyes on, im defo not up there yea. So to work on that as well any help is extremely valued!
Here’s some random pics of me, the last pic is a bit further ago when i had longer hair:
I just feel like i’m missing something u know?
Like, where is my want for life, my want for money, my want to walk up to people, cuz i do want it all i just don’t fucking do it.
I was considering test, for the libido, motivation, confidence, everything, i have all the symptoms of low test in that sense. But maybe I just need to look better?
And i’m aware that something like quitting weed would be very beneficial, and I will for looks and confidence, but surely if i was confident or just fluid socially or whatever it wouldn’t even matter, cuz even sober it’s not like i approach first anyways.
I’ve started again on a supplement stack too,
NAC 1600mg for anxiety, ocd and addictions
Omega 3
d3 + k2
Inositol sometimes for ocd/anxiety
L theanine sometimes
Magnesium
Activated b complex
Sometimes L Tyrosine
Saffron flower
And a few others now n then but overall not anything like crazy impactful i don’t think
FUCK I JUST u know, i’m going so insane, i feel like i’m just missing something huge, i need a change, i need that lust and confidence for life and people and hobbies and everything, that i’m lacking, any tips/advice? for looks, or overall wellbeing. Just where to start
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