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I'm a kinky transgender pedophile
And I feel terrible about it.
When I look at (entirely legal) porn, it's always the extreme variety - heavy bondage, mutilation and the like.
When I walk down the street and see children I think often think pedophillic thoughts. I've never acted upon them, heck I've never sought out images. But the thoughts are there.
I'm transgender, and in the middle of transitioning, not always passing well. I'm the exact stereotype people use to campaign for arguments against transgender equality measures. And they're true for me. Transgender people are fighting for equality, and shouting "no we aren't going to rape people just because we're in the bathroom we want to be in".
Members of the kink community are campaigning that kink is not abuse. That bondage is fine among consenting people.
And I'm standing there, amongst both groups scared that one day I might not be strong enough to resist. That I might abuse a child. That I would become the media headlines that would hold back transgender rights for a decade or more. And yet, if I seek help, that's my transgender care out the window. No-one would take that seriously, let alone provide insurance for the costs of transitioning.
"Sick tranny pedo". "Dressed as a woman he tried to lure X into his car". "Pedo Perv crossdressed". "XDressing Pedo watched bondage".
Those are the headlines I fear seeing. Those are the headlines I fear I might create one day. And, although I can't imagine myself ever acting on these desires, I know that I could. I know that I could easily set the transgender and kink movements back for decades in terms of gaining public acceptance.
I am afraid. And I don't know what to do.
I'm a kinky transgender pedophile
And I feel terrible about it.
When I look at (entirely legal) porn, it's always the extreme variety - heavy bondage, mutilation and the like.
When I walk down the street and see children I think often think pedophillic thoughts. I've never acted upon them, heck I've never sought out images. But the thoughts are there.
I'm transgender, and in the middle of transitioning, not always passing well. I'm the exact stereotype people use to campaign for arguments against transgender equality measures. And they're true for me. Transgender people are fighting for equality, and shouting "no we aren't going to rape people just because we're in the bathroom we want to be in".
Members of the kink community are campaigning that kink is not abuse. That bondage is fine among consenting people.
And I'm standing there, amongst both groups scared that one day I might not be strong enough to resist. That I might abuse a child. That I would become the media headlines that would hold back transgender rights for a decade or more. And yet, if I seek help, that's my transgender care out the window. No-one would take that seriously, let alone provide insurance for the costs of transitioning.
"Sick tranny pedo". "Dressed as a woman he tried to lure X into his car". "Pedo Perv crossdressed". "XDressing Pedo watched bondage".
Those are the headlines I fear seeing. Those are the headlines I fear I might create one day. And, although I can't imagine myself ever acting on these desires, I know that I could. I know that I could easily set the transgender and kink movements back for decades in terms of gaining public acceptance.
I am afraid. And I don't know what to do.
