I’m a legitimate alcoholic now

[Society hates me]

I don’t work snd I live with my parents. I have some savings but I literally spend hundreds of dollars on alcohol each month. I can’t stop. It’s the only thing that brings me happiness. I need to save my money but I feel so fucking shitty I NEED SOMETHING TO MAKE ME FEEL HUMAN FOR 20 MINUTES

How should I fix this? How do I stop spending so much money on alcohol

 

[antipsychotics]

if i ever make it to 21 i will become an alcoholic