RAITEIII
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Due to the current situation with the Coronavirus and the lockdown everything has been turned upside down.
I tried to keep the calm and find any shitty job like crazy but I'm actually even failing to find the opportunity to clean some filthy bathroom so I could make some money.
I feel overwhelmed by all the problems and things that happen to me and the fact that I have to worry about where I'm gonna sleep or what I'm going to eat next week because I only have like 100£ left just fucks me up.
I'm not even 20 I have no resources, I have no family (I had to leave them at 15 for my own safety ), I don't have love either. All I have is the memory of this whore who ruined my mind for not having a big dick.
I feel defeated. I talked to a church to see if I could live there for a couple of weeks and I'm yet to receive an answer jfl.
I don't have many choices if I don't find a job I may have to sleep with landwhales or roasties for money. I did this in the past but I don't like it and I feel very bad. Another problem is that I'm looking bad right now so I don't know if I'd even get something. I have also received messages from guys but I just pray to God not to force me do something like that to barely subsist this tragic circumstances I have to deal with and hate myself forever...
It's so over.
And yes this is a blackpill, there are many, but I'm not gonna specify what they are.
I tried to keep the calm and find any shitty job like crazy but I'm actually even failing to find the opportunity to clean some filthy bathroom so I could make some money.
I feel overwhelmed by all the problems and things that happen to me and the fact that I have to worry about where I'm gonna sleep or what I'm going to eat next week because I only have like 100£ left just fucks me up.
I'm not even 20 I have no resources, I have no family (I had to leave them at 15 for my own safety ), I don't have love either. All I have is the memory of this whore who ruined my mind for not having a big dick.
I feel defeated. I talked to a church to see if I could live there for a couple of weeks and I'm yet to receive an answer jfl.
I don't have many choices if I don't find a job I may have to sleep with landwhales or roasties for money. I did this in the past but I don't like it and I feel very bad. Another problem is that I'm looking bad right now so I don't know if I'd even get something. I have also received messages from guys but I just pray to God not to force me do something like that to barely subsist this tragic circumstances I have to deal with and hate myself forever...
It's so over.
And yes this is a blackpill, there are many, but I'm not gonna specify what they are.