I'm afraid of losing myself

[sarmatian]

I don't know where I'm going honestly

I have to do a lot of shit this year: uni, surgery, gym... all alone and by myself

I didn't think I could be with someone else except her but now I just want someone, anyone

I need someone to hold me and tell me it's going to be okay

I want someone to love me and smile when they see me, without being repulsed by the horrible person that I am

I want to be loved, I want to be desired, I want to be needed

I want to fall asleep holding someone warm, that loves me