ivantheterrible
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I've been testing a lot of things, including my hormones. At first, I was convinced I have diabetes and low T. Before I visited a doctor, I spent 2 months procrastinating, rotting, reading up on my symptoms and various diseases. At certain moments in time, I thought I had kidney failure, some forms of cancer and diabetes. I was 99% certain I have diabetes. The diabetes' symptoms list is pretty long and I was covering a lot of that. What made me go to the doctor was mainly how fucked my dick is, performance wise, and how tired I am all the time. Like, forget the size. I never get random erections, never had morning wood, even as a teen, it's super hard to get erections watching porn and my pathetic humiliation of a dick rushes to die the second I lay my hands off it. On top of that, I have zero libido. I wrote a post before saying that's a blessing in disguise if you're a trucel but I find it very easy to live without sex. I can go a month without masturbating before I develop the urge to do it. But then again, it's not normal and I don't want it this way.
I also have zero energy, severe fatigue, basically your typical 75-80 year old man. I get tired very quickly, I can't stand on my feet for a long time without wanting to die. All of this also screamed low T. I tested at 530ish which is in the middle. My blood sugar was also normal so no diabetes. At least for now.
However, there were other concerning things with my results. I had very low vitamin D, 7.50 or something when the ranges begin at 10.00. That's the easy one. My prolactin levels were around 530 and the ranges were about 80-330. Googling and chatgpt'ing and I concluded I have prolactinoma which is a benign brain tumor HOWEVER you don't even need to get surgery for it and you just drink 2 pills a week for about a year. The symptoms included both ED/low libido as well as fatigue as well as a few other things I've had. I thought I'd just get on this shit and I'd begin improving fast similar to the cases of other people in r/prolactinoma.
Then... my cortisol was also very high. It was around 680, ranges being 100-530. My ACTH was very high as well. Can't remember the ranges but well above them.
Doctor told me I need to get re-tested before he can send me to an MRI. My lab screwed me over the first time and they didn't inform me I need to be laying down for 20 minutes before testing stress hormones. I went to get tested again, laid down for 20 minutes and now my results are.. different. Prolactin and ACTH are within range... cortisol is still high. It's down to 580 but the ranges are 100-530. And high cortisol if it's not caused by stress means one thing most of the time - Cushing's. It's another brain tumor... way worse than prolactinoma. First off, I'd be needing a surgery to remove this shit. Can't just drink a few pills and see my life improve. If surgery goes normal I'd need to jump on hormone therapy for anything from a few months to a few years. This shit is also way worse because it can increase my risk of heart disease and stroke in the future. Worst thing for me though is that sexual disfunction isn't listed in any of the symptoms. This is what worries me the most. I'll go through hell and my main concern will still be unresolved. I was happy to think I have prolactinoma because one of the main symptoms is exactly ED/low libido. So yeah, shit to hear you have a tumor in your brain but I thought I'd go through it and my main problem will be gone.
But with this shit, I have to get a surgery, I have to go through a lot of aftercare shit and at best it will cure my fatigue. And that's of course if the tumor is benign... the doctors are saying my high levels of stress hormones might also be due to lifestyle factors but I think that's cope. It's true that I only eat junkfood, I'm under a lot of stress, I live in a state of constant melancholia and depression, I don't see the sun, I live in darkness, I literally rot in my bed all day and go outside every 10 days on average, I barely move, I've had serious surgeries on my legs before. I've convinced myself I have a brain tumor though. I think it would be unrealistic to consider all this damage has been done by my shit lifestyle and not a very serious illness. And who knows, I might have something even worse that would make cushing's look like a dream. And even if I don't have a tumor/cancer/anything serious, it's still not optimal for me. Why? Because if they tell me I'm all good my issues will remain unhealed and I wouldn't know the root.
TLDR; genetic abomination ivantheterrible has severe health issues at a pretty young age. If you think it's over for you, just know you can cope with the fact it's still not ivantheterrible-over.
I've been testing a lot of things, including my hormones. At first, I was convinced I have diabetes and low T. Before I visited a doctor, I spent 2 months procrastinating, rotting, reading up on my symptoms and various diseases. At certain moments in time, I thought I had kidney failure, some forms of cancer and diabetes. I was 99% certain I have diabetes. The diabetes' symptoms list is pretty long and I was covering a lot of that. What made me go to the doctor was mainly how fucked my dick is, performance wise, and how tired I am all the time. Like, forget the size. I never get random erections, never had morning wood, even as a teen, it's super hard to get erections watching porn and my pathetic humiliation of a dick rushes to die the second I lay my hands off it. On top of that, I have zero libido. I wrote a post before saying that's a blessing in disguise if you're a trucel but I find it very easy to live without sex. I can go a month without masturbating before I develop the urge to do it. But then again, it's not normal and I don't want it this way.
I also have zero energy, severe fatigue, basically your typical 75-80 year old man. I get tired very quickly, I can't stand on my feet for a long time without wanting to die. All of this also screamed low T. I tested at 530ish which is in the middle. My blood sugar was also normal so no diabetes. At least for now.
However, there were other concerning things with my results. I had very low vitamin D, 7.50 or something when the ranges begin at 10.00. That's the easy one. My prolactin levels were around 530 and the ranges were about 80-330. Googling and chatgpt'ing and I concluded I have prolactinoma which is a benign brain tumor HOWEVER you don't even need to get surgery for it and you just drink 2 pills a week for about a year. The symptoms included both ED/low libido as well as fatigue as well as a few other things I've had. I thought I'd just get on this shit and I'd begin improving fast similar to the cases of other people in r/prolactinoma.
Then... my cortisol was also very high. It was around 680, ranges being 100-530. My ACTH was very high as well. Can't remember the ranges but well above them.
Doctor told me I need to get re-tested before he can send me to an MRI. My lab screwed me over the first time and they didn't inform me I need to be laying down for 20 minutes before testing stress hormones. I went to get tested again, laid down for 20 minutes and now my results are.. different. Prolactin and ACTH are within range... cortisol is still high. It's down to 580 but the ranges are 100-530. And high cortisol if it's not caused by stress means one thing most of the time - Cushing's. It's another brain tumor... way worse than prolactinoma. First off, I'd be needing a surgery to remove this shit. Can't just drink a few pills and see my life improve. If surgery goes normal I'd need to jump on hormone therapy for anything from a few months to a few years. This shit is also way worse because it can increase my risk of heart disease and stroke in the future. Worst thing for me though is that sexual disfunction isn't listed in any of the symptoms. This is what worries me the most. I'll go through hell and my main concern will still be unresolved. I was happy to think I have prolactinoma because one of the main symptoms is exactly ED/low libido. So yeah, shit to hear you have a tumor in your brain but I thought I'd go through it and my main problem will be gone.
But with this shit, I have to get a surgery, I have to go through a lot of aftercare shit and at best it will cure my fatigue. And that's of course if the tumor is benign... the doctors are saying my high levels of stress hormones might also be due to lifestyle factors but I think that's cope. It's true that I only eat junkfood, I'm under a lot of stress, I live in a state of constant melancholia and depression, I don't see the sun, I live in darkness, I literally rot in my bed all day and go outside every 10 days on average, I barely move, I've had serious surgeries on my legs before. I've convinced myself I have a brain tumor though. I think it would be unrealistic to consider all this damage has been done by my shit lifestyle and not a very serious illness. And who knows, I might have something even worse that would make cushing's look like a dream. And even if I don't have a tumor/cancer/anything serious, it's still not optimal for me. Why? Because if they tell me I'm all good my issues will remain unhealed and I wouldn't know the root.
TLDR; genetic abomination ivantheterrible has severe health issues at a pretty young age. If you think it's over for you, just know you can cope with the fact it's still not ivantheterrible-over.
