Im alone, but I’m terrified of staying alone

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I’ve never had a gf and I’ve gotten use to it, being alone and skipping valentines is second nature at this point. Whenever I see kids hanging out I get all mad and wonder why can’t that be me. I’m still in high school so I hope things can change, but with the way things are, I’m scared it won’t get better. If things keep going the way they are, and I don’t get a fairy tale ending, I’m scared I’m gonna kill myself. It’s not that I’m afraid of dying, it’s more I’m afraid of what I missed out on living. Like I’m a shell, or a rock. No purpose. No feelings. Just empty. I had a rough childhood with my mom abandoning me, leaving me to stay with my abusive dad who never shows me he appreciates me in anyway. I wish things were different. Like in movies, where the guy becomes a hero, or finds the girl. I get scared thinking that things will stay the same, and I’ll end up going insane killing people or myself. I wish I was given a better draw at life, but all I can do is hope things get better.
 
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I’ve never had a gf and I’ve gotten use to it, being alone and skipping valentines is second nature at this point. Whenever I see kids hanging out I get all mad and wonder why can’t that be me. I’m still in high school so I hope things can change, but with the way things are, I’m scared it won’t get better. If things keep going the way they are, and I don’t get a fairy tale ending, I’m scared I’m gonna kill myself. It’s not that I’m afraid of dying, it’s more I’m afraid of what I missed out on living. Like I’m a shell, or a rock. No purpose. No feelings. Just empty. I had a rough childhood with my mom abandoning me, leaving me to stay with my abusive dad who never shows me he appreciates me in anyway. I wish things were different. Like in movies, where the guy becomes a hero, or finds the girl. I get scared thinking that things will stay the same, and I’ll end up going insane killing people or myself. I wish I was given a better draw at life, but all I can do is hope things get better.
Dnr

Work on yourself, no one woman will want to fuck some antisocial forum dweller.

Hard truth that you need to hear
 
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things WILL change. Your life hasnt even started yet
Nothing changes on its own. After i ascended i was lonely as fuck (with women) for years because of bad social skills with women.
 
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I understand your feelings, I can say how those milestones aren’t as important as you build them up to be, and what leads to real satisfaction, buts that’s all up to you to decide. Emptiness follows you around, and if you’re not a retard it’ll persist even after checking off those milestones. Not saying not to chase girls/pussy but don’t put off your greater goals until you reach that goal because you’ll still be at square one, just with slightly less to worry about.

Things will improve, especially if you’re working on yourself physically and mentally right now. You’re young and in an insulated environment seeing the same people with the same perceptions. You don’t realize how quickly you will forget these people when exposed to anything else, anything different from what you’ve come to expect.

In the meantime, improve yourself physically, looksmax, lift, improve your music taste and start hobbies that make yourself more relatable, block all your mutuals from your story and just quickadd semi-local girls to practice chatting and flirting with. Even if it’s fat hoes your facetime game will improve. Start trying to build up your self-respect, from a baseline of understanding yourself and truly accepting all of your flaws and fucked up shit you still want to work on. You will mature and you will grow. Don’t fall to self-hate or blaming others, stay level headed young brocel.
 
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First of all, I’m sorry to hear that, man. (kinda)

Second, you should focus exclusively on your education at that point.

Nobody cares about you more than yourself.
 
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I understand your feelings, I can say how those milestones aren’t as important as you build them up to be, and what leads to real satisfaction, buts that’s all up to you to decide. Emptiness follows you around, and if you’re not a retard it’ll persist even after checking off those milestones. Not saying not to chase girls/pussy but don’t put off your greater goals until you reach that goal because you’ll still be at square one, just with slightly less to worry about.

Things will improve, especially if you’re working on yourself physically and mentally right now. You’re young and in an insulated environment seeing the same people with the same perceptions. You don’t realize how quickly you will forget these people when exposed to anything else, anything different from what you’ve come to expect.

In the meantime, improve yourself physically, looksmax, lift, improve your music taste and start hobbies that make yourself more relatable, block all your mutuals from your story and just quickadd semi-local girls to practice chatting and flirting with. Even if it’s fat hoes your facetime game will improve. Start trying to build up your self-respect, from a baseline of understanding yourself and truly accepting all of your flaws and fucked up shit you still want to work on. You will mature and you will grow. Don’t fall to self-hate or blaming others, stay level headed young brocel.


You just made me a fan of you. Good message bro. We need more people like you in this forum
 
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are you disabled/ deformed ? If not go speak to the biggest outcaster you can find, one with less than 70 followers, message her, spark a convo and arrange to meet up. You are also hanging with your boys mostly and the only girls who are going to be in your orbit are low inhib stacies/ mtbs which is why you are feeling that. Just look at the creature couples over facebook if those guys could find something then so can you. It would be a good start
 
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Nothing changes on its own. After i ascended i was lonely as fuck (with women) for years because of bad social skills with women.
how did you overcome this?
 
I’ve never had a gf and I’ve gotten use to it, being alone and skipping valentines is second nature at this point. Whenever I see kids hanging out I get all mad and wonder why can’t that be me. I’m still in high school so I hope things can change, but with the way things are, I’m scared it won’t get better. If things keep going the way they are, and I don’t get a fairy tale ending, I’m scared I’m gonna kill myself. It’s not that I’m afraid of dying, it’s more I’m afraid of what I missed out on living. Like I’m a shell, or a rock. No purpose. No feelings. Just empty. I had a rough childhood with my mom abandoning me, leaving me to stay with my abusive dad who never shows me he appreciates me in anyway. I wish things were different. Like in movies, where the guy becomes a hero, or finds the girl. I get scared thinking that things will stay the same, and I’ll end up going insane killing people or myself. I wish I was given a better draw at life, but all I can do is hope things get better.
i had a gf but i left her cuz i wanted smth better i wanted to focus on myself and she just demotivated me trust me bro its ok to be alone u learn to be independant and happy by yourself so shen u do get a gf itll be even befter and u wont rely on her for happiness. unless ur chopped then its just over bud:feelsohh:
 
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First of all, I’m sorry to hear that, man. (kinda)

Second, you should focus exclusively on your education at that point.

Nobody cares about you more than yourself.
not OP but is that what you are doing? i heard your fake accusation story ngl it was semi funny but still i think about it from time to time shits crazy JFL...
 
I’ve never had a gf and I’ve gotten use to it, being alone and skipping valentines is second nature at this point. Whenever I see kids hanging out I get all mad and wonder why can’t that be me. I’m still in high school so I hope things can change, but with the way things are, I’m scared it won’t get better. If things keep going the way they are, and I don’t get a fairy tale ending, I’m scared I’m gonna kill myself. It’s not that I’m afraid of dying, it’s more I’m afraid of what I missed out on living. Like I’m a shell, or a rock. No purpose. No feelings. Just empty. I had a rough childhood with my mom abandoning me, leaving me to stay with my abusive dad who never shows me he appreciates me in anyway. I wish things were different. Like in movies, where the guy becomes a hero, or finds the girl. I get scared thinking that things will stay the same, and I’ll end up going insane killing people or myself. I wish I was given a better draw at life, but all I can do is hope things get better.
True I barely have social intersction irl
 
i had a gf but i left her cuz i wanted smth better i wanted to focus on myself and she just demotivated me trust me bro its ok to be alone u learn to be independant and happy by yourself so shen u do get a gf itll be even befter and u wont rely on her for happiness. unless ur chopped then its just over bud:feelsohh:
this nigga was shitting on my inspirational ass post just for me to see him spreading positivity a couple hours later smh
 
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Nothing changes on its own. After i ascended i was lonely as fuck (with women) for years because of bad social skills with women.
well obviously
you gotta learn how to talk to people
 
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not OP but is that what you are doing? i heard your fake accusation story ngl it was semi funny but still i think about it from time to time shits crazy JFL...
yes
 
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You know the easiest way to have a fairytale ending like in the movies? It's to be the Chad main character. Women watch those same movies you know. You may not become that, but at least you know what to shoot for. Best of luck and God speed.
 
I’ve never had a gf and I’ve gotten use to it, being alone and skipping valentines is second nature at this point. Whenever I see kids hanging out I get all mad and wonder why can’t that be me. I’m still in high school so I hope things can change, but with the way things are, I’m scared it won’t get better. If things keep going the way they are, and I don’t get a fairy tale ending, I’m scared I’m gonna kill myself. It’s not that I’m afraid of dying, it’s more I’m afraid of what I missed out on living. Like I’m a shell, or a rock. No purpose. No feelings. Just empty. I had a rough childhood with my mom abandoning me, leaving me to stay with my abusive dad who never shows me he appreciates me in anyway. I wish things were different. Like in movies, where the guy becomes a hero, or finds the girl. I get scared thinking that things will stay the same, and I’ll end up going insane killing people or myself. I wish I was given a better draw at life, but all I can do is hope things get better.
Ye no wonder ur On Org Nigga
 
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