imabadman02
23YO MAN-CHILD
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Ever since I was a kid, I never had any higher aspirations. I never thought of my future. I only ever thought about satisfying my short term attention span with geeky goyslop like Marvel and Nintendo. All I ever did was rot with video games. I never really socialized as much as I needed to. Eventually, I got into gooning and it was all over from there. From then on, it was all coping with my insecure masculinity. My entire personality is a Russian Roulette of cycling through short terms of fixation on nerd shit, revolving every once in a while once I rinse it out and stop pretending to care about it, killing myself slowly with meaningless bullshit. I can never hang onto a friendship. Eventually, I just stop seeing that person. Right now, I made a friend with a guy simply because we both like Resident Evil. Every interaction with people feels meaningless because I don't really care about anything. I don't really know why people on a TV screen feel much more alive than I do. I don't think I'll ever feel "real." Even if I did "ASCEND" 
into a GigaAlejandro 
who could physically deserve the affection of a skinny brunette Stacy after fixing my midface recession and vanquishing my neotonous chubby face, I'd still be locked into the freakazoid prism of my mind. Why should a mature high value woman accept me? I have literally zero passion or discipline necessary to make the long term changes necessary to advance my life. I'm the biggest little spineless low T bitch ever. I'm still working in the restaurant industry that I just reactively dragged my feet into. I used to think I cared about seeing a world past the vice of Capital or Empire, but now I realize I also have zero principles or values. I have hundreds of PDF's about history, politics, economics on multiple countries, but I haven't read ONE. SINGLE. ONE. BOOK. I don't read the news. So much shit is happening and I DON'T FUCKING CARE. So many evil people that need to be stopped, and here I am, a dirty degenerate spic in the 1st World who just wants to be craved by white women without doing shit to merit it..
into a GigaAlejandro who could physically deserve the affection of a skinny brunette Stacy after fixing my midface recession and vanquishing my neotonous chubby face, I'd still be locked into the freakazoid prism of my mind. Why should a mature high value woman accept me? I have literally zero passion or discipline necessary to make the long term changes necessary to advance my life. I'm the biggest little spineless low T bitch ever. I'm still working in the restaurant industry that I just reactively dragged my feet into. I used to think I cared about seeing a world past the vice of Capital or Empire, but now I realize I also have zero principles or values. I have hundreds of PDF's about history, politics, economics on multiple countries, but I haven't read ONE. SINGLE. ONE. BOOK. I don't read the news. So much shit is happening and I DON'T FUCKING CARE. So many evil people that need to be stopped, and here I am, a dirty degenerate spic in the 1st World who just wants to be craved by white women without doing shit to merit it..
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